My moon remember the day you confess to me? That was the best day of my life cause my long time crush finally confess to me, you courted me for 5 weeks, then i finally said yes to you.
As a couple we always face problems and fighting, as a soft hearted person i always fix our problems even it's your fault, my friends said it's obvious that you don't care about us, i fight for you, i fight for our relationship because of your promise that you'll always love me till the end, i was so blinded because of that promise.
Then one day we had a fight, i was not in the mood when you chatted me, you said "i love you" then i replied "okay", then you keep chatting me that you love me but i always seen your message then my teacher came so i have to log out, i didn't say goodbye before logging out, you got mad, after our class ended it was lunch break, i saw you in the hallway but you ignored me so i ignore you too but deep inside i wanna hug you.
I was so curious what made you super mad so i open my account to message you but when i opened our conversation i was already block by you, i was super hurt that it made me cry while walking back to the classroom, my friends didn't notice that im crying because they were busy laughing, when we entered the classroom i didn't eat, my friends is forcing me to eat but I refuse, so they stop and mind their own business, i was in the corner looking at the window while tears are falling down.
Because of the pain i decided to open my first account and message you "why are you always like that?" "i always lower my pride just to understand you" "while you...." "i dont know anymore" after that i log out, i dont expect for you to say sorry because i know that im the one who's going to say sorry again, i said to my self to stop loving you, i wanna end our relationship because im tired, I'm tired of crying every night, im tired of lowering my pride, im tired of understanding you, im tired of everything!.
When i got home i turned off my phone, i acted like im okay in front of my parents, then at 7pm i opened my phone and saw tons of messages from you, you're finally saying "sorry" but i already decided to end it but you said you want a second chance and you'll prove it to me that im really important to you, because im so soft i trusted you again, i gave you second chance, everything is finally okay, everything is going same with my expectations.
But you broke my trust again, you broke my heart again, why do i always ending up being hurt, im so tired, i want a rest too, is it hard to give?
I was in the park with my friends, our class end early so all of us decided to have a relax, i was scrolling to my Facebook account and a post took my attention, it was a girl tagged you in a sweet post with a caption "i love you (your name)" i was shock, the first thing that came to my mind was "maybe it's just a friend" so i stalk that girl and your name was her bio, i was literally crying, i can't hide it anymore, my friends noticed me, they were all worried about me, how i wish you're worried about my feelings too, i said to them that im okay but they didn't believe me, but i keep saying im okay then they finally believe me.
I chatted that girl and ask her "what's your connection with her?" then she replied "ow we're in a relationship" i hope it's just a joke so i ask again "you two are in a relationship? For how long?" "yes, it's about 3 months for now" after reading that, all my surroundings stopped, it feels like i was turn into pieces.
I ask my self "am i not enough?" "am i boring?" "i did everything i can to make her stay" then i realized i was the only one who's fighting for this stupid relationship, i was the only one who's fixing it, i was so blind that i can't see it.
So i chatted you "let's end this" "im tired" "i can't take it anymore" "i gave you a second chance yet you broke it" then you replied "what's wrong with you?" "i didn't do anything wrong" how......how could you say that you didn't do anything wrong, how could you say that word after i caught you, so i chatted again "i want to end this" then your reply really made me hurt "then end it!" "im tired anyway" you made me believe that you love me and now........you don't care about loosing me?....
Then we both agree to end it, we only last 8 months my moon, you said you'll stay with me till the end, maybe it's just a word to made me believe that you're the one.......Now im finally saying good bye to you....
Let's begin a new chapter, just you and me but without us anymore, it's almost sunrise, it's time to say goodbye my moon, goodbye my moon, farewell......
Now we're just strangers who shares the same memory :))
