Sylvia Plath describe her marriage
Kiss me, and you will see how important I am
There I went again, building up a glamorous picture of a man who would love me passionately the minute he met me, and all out of a few prosy nothings
He was always saying how his mother said, ‘
What a man wants is a mate and what a woman wants is infinite security,’ and, ‘What a man is is an arrow into the future and what a woman is is the place the arrow shoots off from,’ until it made me tired.
If you love her,’ I said, ‘you'll love somebody else someday.
I cut you out because I couldn't stand being a passing fancy. Before I give my body, I must give my thoughts, my mind, my dreams. And you weren't having any of those.
So I began to think maybe it was true that when you were married and had children it was like being brainwashed, and afterward you went about numb as a slave in some private, totalitarian state.
That's one of the reasons I never wanted to get married and I thought I would carry them around with me, like the relic of a dead lover, till they wore off of their own accord. I have room in me for love. And for ever so many little lives. I wanted change and excitement and to shoot off in all directions myself, like the colored arrows from a Fourth of July rocket.
There is something demoralizing about watching two people get more and more crazy about each other, It's like watching Paris from an express caboose heading in the opposite direction—every second the city gets smaller and smaller, only you feel it's really you getting smaller and smaller and lonelier and lonelier, rushing away from all those lights and excitement at about a million miles an hour.
young and beautiful
Lana del Rey
