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If you want to be friends with me, you have to get used on me disappearing for a while and I'm really boring if I'm not comfortable with someone but if you give it a time it just gets weirder, I'm an intense person. I'm all in or all out. So, if you get me, you have all of me. And if you don't, you get none of me at all. Sometimes I get distracted by the worlds inside of my heads and I may cancel plans, respond very briefly to communication, attempts or ignore you entirely. It's going to happen at some point. I might do this rarely or quite frequently. It depends on my priorities, maturity and personal growth and how much social energy I have left after dealing with other people in my lives, and other factors.

I am very private, yet oddly open. I keep it to myself and leave out information sometimes because of trust issues or to protect others, but more often just because I am used to people not caring enough to not want to know.

Really, all you need to do is gently ask direct questions. Just ask Me. I am an open book, but you must turn the pages.

And don't be shock if you see me completely different person as how you met me

I have my own way of doing things and figuring things out that's different from the majority. People use to take it as stupidity and lacking information and facts that made sense to them.. It took me a while to realize that simple minded people will never understand my wisdom, but that doesn't make it invaluable. Sometimes I don't speak & not because "I am shy" or "sulking" or "seeking negative attention". I remain silent because I know what I want to say wont be well received, welcomed or understood by others. So its just easier for everyone, including me. if I keep quiet and let others talk. I often received comments that I'm Attention seeker, superior and doesn't consider anyone opinions but the truth I'm very selective to those people I'm going to listen to, I like to learn more and don't be narrow minded and listening and considering and looking to other points of view would helps me even more but sometimes I wonder what's the point of all of these. "I wasn't always able to defend my principles to objectors, because My principles weren't developed by studying human rights or applying deductive reasoning. Rather, I was born with an innate sense of right and wrong. In my younger years, that made me "gifted". In my adulting that made me "naive". But in my mind, I was always at peace. For I always stayed true to my virtue in spite of the cruelties I faced. And in time, the world eventually came along for the ride."

When I speak, sometimes I get too excited and I trip over my words or words will get mixed up and spliced together. Everything makes sense in my mind, but then it all wants to come out at once and when it does, it's a mess.

I never felt like I belonged anywhere, except when I was lying on my bed, pretending to be somewhere else.

I don't act fake....there are only just things I will never feel comfortable telling anyone And you may think I tell you everything... But I don't. Not even close. You know nothing. I get quiet and detach; then mentally and emotionally dismiss my existence. I'm fiercely independent and I do not have many close relationships, Because I see the world in a unique way, so I don't click with just anybody. In fact, despite of my people oriented nature, I often feel out of place and lonely in a crowd. Plus, being introvert, I rather have a few close relationships than a lot of shallow ones.