Since small i thought i was born in feb and feb is a month of love so i will get a lot of love..but who thought everyone in the world love theirself..
when i was three my grandma suicide and the reason was me...that day of my life i would never forgot..my mom and grandma fight because of me..because of that my grandma suicide..that guilt never left me..and i dont think i will ever overcome this guilt..
when i was a kid i studied more..i dont had much frds..the frds i had that time was given by my mom..i mean she told me only with this girls u will talk..it was really irritating..
then when i was in 7th my mom and dad got seperated..my mom ran away with a rich man..it took one year for my dad to overcome it .my mom..that year i saw my dad crying at night..it was really hurting..then after one year.my dad started dating..dating was okey but my dad started playing with other ladies heart..he says what your mom has done to me i will also do it to other women..because all women are same..my dad was totally changed..
my dad got busy in his own life..because my mom left so i have to take care of house..i had cook and do all thing at home..and i have to study..it was really irrtating me..because of thinking so much i got problem in breathing i mean i got asthama..that time my life was totally mess..at that time i made new frds they were the ppl i was a little bit of happy...since small i never talked to boys so i always thought when a boy kiss a gurl the girl would be pregnant..because in movies it was shown when a boy and girl kiss after some day the gurl is pregnant..that time who thought what they had done all night..it was skip in the movies..
my frd told me about all this thing..so i started to boys also..but i never made a boyfriend..
i want to a make a boyfriend but im afraid i will be hurt so i never dare...still i didnot dare...
Now i have a dream to go collage and become a journalism..and for love..i dont have the courage to love someone..
ITS MY LIFE STILL NOW..HOPE I WILL BE MORE HAPPY IN FUTURE...
