𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑑𝑎𝑦𝑠
𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑢𝑝 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼 𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑐ℎ 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓
February 14, its the 5th anniversarry of Lea and I. I looked at myself in the mirror.
"Handsome, Xen." said Mama at the door. So I turned to her and smiled.
"will Lea answer me?" I asked her but she just laughed at me.
"Of course you are, my son is very handsome and not only that, your also smart, Kind and loving." Mama said so I smiled even more.
'My mom is very supportive.' in my mind.
" Ma. You are only kind when you need something. What is it Ma?" I asked until Mama's smile widened.
"Now you are stable and you are going to be husband and wife soon. Alas, give me a grandchild. You two, hurry up." she said So I just scratched my head.
"Mom, Lea is just about to graduate. I'll just propose to her now." I said but Mama just pouts at me.
"I'm not getting younger. I really want to see my grandchild before I disappear from the world." she said so I was even more helpless.
"Let's see Mom." I just said and I saw the clock, it's almost 8:00
"I'll be going now." I said and kissed Mama on the cheek.
"wish me luck ma" I said but she just smiled at me.
"I know she would say yes" she said so my excitement increased
𝑌𝑜𝑢'𝑟𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑚𝑒, 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑒𝑙𝑠𝑒
I am here at the venue where we will meet. I looked all over the place. The petals are scattered all over the place. The scented candle that mixes the scent with the air. Even the lights are shining.
I see the stars and the moon that we will witness later in our love. I sat and waited but a few seconds, minutes and hours passed. Nobody came.
I was nervous about what might have happened to her. I looked at my watch on my cellphone.11: 45 in the evening. I smiled bitterly and I just opened the wine but suddenly the cellphone rang.
"Hello." I said without an energy
"Is this Mr. Xenon Montealegre?" Said on the other line.
"yes"
"Ms. Lea Gamboa is now in the emergency room, she had a car accident" he said that's why my heart beats so fast
"w.. which hospital?.." I asked
"St. Luke Medical Hospital" he said and I turned off The call, I was sweating with cold and my heart is pounding so fast because of fear..
'Baby, please hold on!' I begged and my tears are starting to flow..
This is the first time have I been scared like this in my whole life. I don't want to lose her. Please Lord..keep her safe..
𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝐼 𝑎𝑚 𝑠𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑑, 𝑦𝑒𝑎ℎ, 𝐼'𝑚 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑠𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑑
I arrived at the hospital and saw her family outside the emergency room. I approached them. I saw Tita crying.
"Tita..." I called her weakly. she approached to me and knelt down.
"d-don't leave my d-daughter please.." she begged me while crying..
"t-tita" I said and forced her to stand up.
"P-please, she's my a-angel. s-she doesn't d-deserve this. d-don't leave her." she said and it made me cry
"I won't leave her. I-I promise." I said. The doctor came out of the emergency room and he approached us. Tita stood up.
"How's my d-daughter?" Tita asked.
"She is okay but sad to say. She was hit in her left brain which caused the patient to a coma and because the windshield was broken, her eyes were also hit. That means she can no longer see. "He said.
I was depressed by what happened to my girlfriend. I feel sad and blamed myself. It would not have happened to her if it had not been for me.
"Please, Excuse me." said the Doctor. I just wiped my face.
𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑡'𝑠 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑎 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚
A few days followed. I always visit her. I always talk to her about what's going on outside. The doctor says a patient's recovery is faster when you are constantly talking to them. It was true because I saw her smiling.
"Is it fun to sleep, Love?" I asked and I held her hand tightly.
"Please do not enjoy sleeping. We will still get married." I was joking but my tears were already dripping. I kissed the ring on her hand. My promise ring...
A few months passed until it became a year but my love for her still does not change.
'𝐶𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑓𝑒𝑐𝑡 𝑎𝑠 𝑑𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑔𝑜 𝑏𝑦
𝐸𝑣𝑒𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑠𝑡 𝑜𝑛𝑒𝑠, 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑠𝑚𝑖𝑙𝑒
Until one day the doctor said that Lea might have no hope of waking up. So I was depressed. My friend and I drinks some alcohol Until I woke up with someone next to me in bed and that was Rea, Lea's Older twin sister.
"What did you do?" I asked myself.
...
I still go to the hospital but everytime I see Lea, My guilt are eating me. I stare at her she looks so beautiful and radiant. She is my angel and I'm the sinner.
"Love, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. I did something wrong. I didn't mean to. P-please f-forgive me." I begged her, I told her everything and I saw her tears dripping and suddenly she smiled as if she understands me..
Everytime I visit her and talked to her, her body is responding, it was a good sign, the doctor said.
But the mistake that I've done is still repeating, Her sister save me from loneliness but I know from the bottom of my heart I never love her.
I keep saying sorry and tell her everything that I've done.
𝐼'𝑑 𝑠𝑡𝑜𝑝 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑙𝑑 𝑖𝑓 𝑖𝑡 𝑔𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑢𝑠 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒
'𝐶𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒
they said that if you truly love someone you will never cheat 'cause if you do. You are just fooling yourself to believe that you are in love.
...
I woke up because my phone rang, Tita said Lea was awake so I hurried to them.
𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑜𝑝𝑒𝑛 𝑢𝑝 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡
𝑊ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒
she was in good condition but she could not see again. I approached her and kissed her on the hand.
"Do you want anything, Love?" I asked but she just shook her head and smiled.
"No, 'cause my favorite thing is here and he was holding my hand." she said that made my tears flowed.
"Thank you for staying with me." she said and I kissed her hand.
'Sorry. Sorry. ' I said over and over in my mind..
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she has been discharged from the hospital. Everything is back to normal. I was on my way to their house and I could hear Tito shouting inside.
"YOU'RE PREGNANT! WHO'S THE FATHER !?" Tito shouted. So I swallowed my saliva. I saw Rea crying.
"Ma. Pa. Stop this." Lea said, she even touched Rea's face and wiped away her tears.
"Go to your room Ate." She said. Aunt saw me.
"Xenon." said Tita. I saw Lea smile.
"Can you accompany Ate to her room Xon..." she said and still smiled at me. I feel the guilt. What if she finds out about me...About us..?
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February 14, our 7th anniversary. I looked at her and watch her.
"Lea" I call her. So she stopped what she was doing and smiled at me.
"What is it?" she asked.
"We reach seven years together and we are mature enough to think about our future." I said as I held her hand
"Maybe this is the right time. We can build our own home and I want to spent my whole life with you. Will you allow me to be your husband?" I asked but she didn't answer.I looked at her but I could not see any trace of emotion on her face. I was nervous when she suddenly shook her head.
"I'm sorry but I can't" she said so gradually, my heart broke with what she said.
"W-why?" I asked..
"Maybe were not meant to be. Maybe you belong to someone else." she said but I just shook my head.
"I'm yours. I'm yo--"
"Really? Your mine? But I can't feel it anymore." she said
"I-I'm sorry." I said. she needed to know..so I tell her everything..
...
"S-sorry for what?" she asked
"I'm so-sorry I-I c-cheat." I cried but she was also crying. I was about to speak but she suddenly spoke first..
"I know." she said. So I was shocked that Rea
might have said what had happened to us.
"I know how y-you c-cheat on m-me. I k-know e-everything. "She said. I see her tears. Her sobs...
"You go to the hospital every day and you tell me everything that is happening to you. I also hope every day that you stop what you are doing." she said and I could see her hand was shaking..
"i'm still alive X-Xen. I'm not dead yet, I want to tell you but I know I can't do anything and every time you go. l-like l-I want to d-die.Everyday, your always asking for an a-apology..God knows I-I want to forgive you a few times but I-I have too much d-difficulty." she said.... I dont know what to say....I'm totally speechless...I'm afraid she'll disappear....
𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑟𝑜𝑜𝑚
𝐼𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒
I don't want her to give me away. I don't want to lose her to me. I don't want her to leave me...!
"P-please don't l-leave me." I begged and I held her hand but she just shook her head. So I cried even more.
"Loving you is my biggest dream but staying with you is my biggest fear. I love you so much but I'm tired." she said so I kissed her hand many times and begged her again..
"Could you grant my last wish, as your girlfriend?" But I did not answer. I do not want to answer...
"Take care of Ate and love your future child with her. Please be with them. Please choose them." she said. The night is over. she was rushed to the hospital because a vein in her brain was cut and it was severed... I did not know that it was our last meeting...
...
Her last wish will be granted even its cost my own happiness.
I love my angel but I'm a sinner that's why I can't be with her.
𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑟𝑒 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑎𝑓𝑟𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑒 '𝑒𝑚
𝑌𝑜𝑢'𝑙𝑙 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑏𝑎𝑏𝑙𝑦 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝐼 𝑑𝑜
𝑌𝑜𝑢'𝑙𝑙 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑏𝑎𝑏𝑙𝑦 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝐼 𝑑𝑜
