Today i woke up at 10:30 am in morning, after doom-scrolling on social media till 2 am in early morning. My head was aching with body pain and stomach pain . I told to my mom and she got panicked. Yup , thanks to my overprotective family ,that I got all the attentions of them on me . It wasn't just attention but anger . Their head aches when this things happens with me. Finally, i made an excuse, that i wasn't went to washroom yet ,and that's the reason my stomach is paining. Yup , a lie wrapped in pure acting. They furrowed their angry eyes and scolded me . "Are you dumb ?" , said my father . "You act like small kids", he added , and ended the scolding with a small insult. "When I see others childern, I feel proud of them , and feel why isn't my daughter like them !".
I said nothing, i don't want to argue, my stomach was aching so badly that I left to washroom. At that time I came to know, i got my periods . I went to my mom and informed her . "It's fine , I will give napkins use them", she said. Without a word i followed her in bedroom and she took out a pack of scynetary napkins from the clothset . She said "are you dumb , you don't even remember you periods date , how will you remember things in exams, huh ?". I said nothing, i just watched her applying it in my inner cloth . After a few minutes i took the laptop and sat on the bed . Scrolling through laptop, i suddenly remembered, i haven't brushed my teeth yet . I was too lazy to walk to bathroom for morning routine, my stomach was aching badly till my dad came and said "did you brushed your teeth ?" . I nodded in no . "Go get brush your teeth first !" He said , but my stomach hurts so bad that nodded in no. He looked at me angrily "then don't brush teeth ! you motherf*ker !" . He said . I don't reacted and just continue scrolling the laptop. My mom came in asking the same question and scolded me up . I said nothing. Finally i kept the laptop down and pick the brush in my hand and started brushing them . I don't want to stand , i feel like my head will bust at any second, so came back and sat on the bed scrolling the laptop again . My mom came again and scold me again. However , i pushed my body and finally brush up . I cleared my mouth with water , only face wash and gargles . My mom mock me saying "you don't know how to wash your mouth properly?! You should remove dirty and empty your stomach by vomiting." I ignored her and sat back to scroll laptop again. Till then she asked .
"Do you want a tea ?" .
"No !". I replied simply .
She started scolding by saying. "I had already put the tea for you on stove don't wast my efforts idiot". Unwillingly i said yes. My father scold me when I pick my phone. He said "good , play with your phone day and night! Bitch ! She don't even care how much efforts we put in her education ! Look at others children they are engineer and doctors and here you are scoring 69 in test of 720 !". The scolding pinned my heart , ripping out imaginary blood from it . I said nothing just looked at him . I don't want to argue just because my stomach hurts badly due to period cramps.
So , i just sat for a while and switch to laptop again. I was reading my textbook pdf on laptop until a cat food advertisement played on my laptop i smiled, just because the cat was so cute . My mom saw me smiling. "What the heck are you doing on laptop ?", "are you even studying ?". I know that eyes . They always keeps eyes on me , i remember last time . I made account on hoop app and other social media accounts like be friends to make some friends and one of them lied to that he is 23 but he was 35 or 38 . Perhaps, who care , he chatted with me and i feel creepy with him yet i gave my Snapchat ID to him and he chatted there but I feel too creepy , i didn't send my photos or videos , nope never.
He insisted me , but i send nothing. The next morning he message me 'call me or i will viral your videos and photos to public'. I got scared and I told my mom everything. My mom slapped me and my aunt droved him away by calling and confronting him harshly. From that day , my aunt scold me , my mom and dad scold me . Well , i accept my mistake, i shouldn't have done it . I block everything , delete account. And from that day , i was deprived from putting my hairs open, putting make up and wearing short clothes. My dad accused me that i chatting him with months, but it was hardly 3rd day . My dad even said if i failed the exam I will deprived from education too .
Perhaps the matter was solved but my aunt , mom and dad still accused me and scold me , 'for mixing their family reputation in soil' . My marks was lowest as ever . And my aunt scold me saying "do you want to marry some guy ? If you want to , we will do it but we can't see this much low marks !" . I didn't argue. Well , i know the topic drifted from other point , sorry , just I got to scenti when i remember things. So , where were we ? Oh yes...right my mom scold me for smiling but I said nothing.
To be continued...
