I think the universe already knows
the kind of love i’m searching for...
Not loud love...
Not temporary love...
Not the kind that disappears the moment things become difficult...
I want a girl...
a girl with warmth in her voice and stars hidden inside her smile.
a girl who would look at me like i’m someone worth staying for.
someone who wouldn’t treat my heart like something fragile and temporary,
but like a home she wants to keep returning to.
i want the kind of girl
who sends random messages in the middle of the night
just because i crossed her mind.
the kind who tells me about her day in tiny details
what song got stuck in her head,
what made her laugh too hard,
what made her sad for a second longer than usual.
i want to listen to her endlessly.
i want to memorize the sound of her happiness.
i want a girl who loves softly.
not because she has to,
but because loving me feels natural to her.
a girl who reaches for my hand in crowded places,
who leans her head on my shoulder when the world becomes too much,
who looks at me with sleepy eyes and whispers,
“stay.”
i think people underestimate how beautiful it feels
to be chosen by a girl you adore.
to know that out of everyone in the world,
her heart settled beside yours.
that kind of love must feel heavenly.
i want matching hoodies and hidden smiles.
i want long walks with our fingers intertwined.
i want to tease her until she rolls her eyes while secretly smiling.
i want movie nights where we barely pay attention to the screen
because we’re too busy talking about everything and nothing at the same time.
i want to love a girl in the smallest ways possible.
sending her songs that remind me of her.
saving pictures because they feel “so her.”
remembering her favorite snacks without needing to ask twice.
watching her talk about the things she loves
and falling for her even more because of the spark in her eyes.
i want the kind of romance
that feels gentle at first
then suddenly becomes the reason i believe in soulmates.
and maybe i sound dramatic.
maybe loving girls has made my heart too dreamy, too soft, too hopeful.
but honestly?
girls are beautiful in ways words can barely explain.
the way they laugh when they’re genuinely happy.
the way they care so deeply.
the way their eyes soften when they feel safe with someone.
the way they can turn ordinary moments into memories that stay forever.
i want a girl who lets me see every side of her.
the loud side.
the shy side.
the overthinking side.
the clingy side.
the side she hides from everyone else because she’s afraid it’s “too much.”
i want her to know it’ll never be too much for me.
because if i love her,
i’ll love every version of her.
the messy emotions.
the random midnight thoughts.
the insecurities she apologizes for.
the tenderness she doesn’t know how to express properly.
all of it.
i don’t want a perfect girl.
i just want someone real.
someone whose love feels safe.
someone who would hold my heart carefully instead of making me beg for affection.
a girl who would look at me during quiet moments and smile for no reason.
a girl who would kiss my forehead like she’s trying to heal every sad thing inside me.
a girl who would stay during the hard days too,
not only the easy ones.
sometimes i imagine what it would feel like
to finally be loved by a girl the way i’ve always wanted.
to wake up and know someone is thinking about me with softness.
to know my existence brings comfort to someone.
to know i’m adored, not tolerated.
that kind of love must feel unreal.
and maybe one day,
somewhere between late night conversations and accidental feelings,
i’ll meet her.
the girl whose smile slows down my heartbeat.
the girl whose presence feels like poetry.
the girl who loves me loudly, softly, deeply
all at once.
until then,
my heart will keep searching for her in songs, sunsets, and dreams.
because i know she exists somewhere.
the girl i’ll someday call mine. ♡
