What should I do with my life ?
I'm tired , I always feel like I'm running in a race that's neverending. I'm so tired of studying , of always trying to be on top even though I'm not failing , but my family's expectations are weighting me down. I already got admitted to a good University , but that still isn't enough , you need to be better , you need to be a topper. I don't want to be a topper , I just want you to be happy and proud of me.
I never did sports , only swimming when I was so young and only for a couple of years , just enough so that I don't drown. I always feel like I'm missing out. No crush , no drama , no lift outside school , nothing . Just a very simple routine that I follow even without meaning to ask I really have nothing else to do.
Is this life ? If it isn't, what should I do ? My brain is programmed to be like this and I have no idea how to change it.
Please tell me this isn't life...
