I’m writing this because I’m tired of carrying all these feelings around and having nowhere to put them.
I want you to know that I still love you, which is the hardest thing for me to admit right now. Even though I’m moving forward, there’s a part of me that is still stuck on you, despite everything. But alongside that love, there is so much anger. I hate how you treated me. I hate that you couldn’t be the person I needed you to be, and that you didn't have the qualities or the maturity to give me the kind of relationship I deserved.
It hurts to realize that the person I want isn't the person you actually are.
There’s also something I need to say about us. I know there were times when I wanted to be intimate with you, and it never happened. I’m sorry that we never got to have that connection, even in the moments when I felt ready for it. I think a part of me held back because, deep down, I knew things weren't right between us, even if my body felt differently.
I’m trying to find a way to let go of the "what ifs." I’m trying to heal the parts of me that you broke. I don’t know how long it will take to stop missing you, but I know I can't keep living in this cycle anymore.
Good luck with everything,
