⚠️Warning grammatical errors ahead⚠️
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If I where to turn back time.. I gladly accept it.
I've been living like a hell in the passed years.
I always thought this to my self.. "Do I really want to live a long life?" But nothing change.
As years goes by everyone says I'm "workaholic" Totally yes, because my life cycle always was apartment then work in a Pharmacy store.
I didn't have friends in my entire life except her.
My name is Tyrone and I'm about to tell you a story of my lantern where it fly away.
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I met her in a college university where in she's taking a course of Fine Arts Major in Painting.
She really loves painting since child.
She always paint the beautiful sceneries, flowers, things and many many more that she could paint.
I was alone in the three and resting since I have no friends to talk with, I always study about medicines.
My course was Bachelor in Pharmacy.
Where now in fourth year college student.
So going back to her, she interrupt my resting time because her canvas fly to me.
"Sh*t!" I quickly stand up because the paint goes into my school uniform.
"I'm sorry 😣😔"
"It's okay it's not your damn fault"
"No.. it's my fault"
She's stubborn so I command her washing my uniform and she really did it.
It looks shiny clean and no left paint in my uniform. So in return I treat her.
We became friends. We always study together, eat together and sometimes go with me in my parents house.
My parents thought that she and I are in relationship but we're not even our school mates tell us that where in relationship.
But as a time goes by my feelings for her grow bigger and I fall for her deeper.
I don't know how to confess to her because everytime I'm about to say it someone always interrupt us in our alone time together. It's her classmates or friends.
Until one day I said it directly to her.
"I love you and I've been wanting to say this to you 😣"
No response and she goes away.
I'm devastated and at the same time rejected but I expect it anyway.
We didn't see each other a few weeks. But I confront her again and again.
Months passed before the graduation. She wants to meet me at the coffee shop near in our school and I quickly answer her.
I'm nervous that time because I don't know what she wants to say so I stay calmed.
"I'm sorry if I left you that day with no response 😞"
"It's okay I'm okay 😊" (deep inside it's not)
"It's just that... I have a reason 😞"
I asked her curiously "What do you mean reason?"
"I..I have a heart disease.. You see I have a weak heart ever since I'm born 😔"
I'm speechless and couldn't have a single word to say.
"I don't want to have a relationship with you because of I left you in this world you'll be devastated, sad, and I don't like you to cry 😔"
"I want you to be happy because I know the first time I saw you first year college, you're lonely and no one be friends with you so I approach you so that at least at the end of our school year you have me as your friend"
"I don't want to deny too.. that... I fall for you too.. even before I first saw you 😳"
I was so damn literally speechless and at the same time sad because of what she said that she have a heart disease.
After graduation she promised me that she would go back to me because she go to america to have a heart surgery.
We celebrate and go together anywhere before she go.
I'm so so happy that finally she said the three magical words in the airport before they board to airplane.
Days passed I always pray her to get a successful heart surgery but one night when I'm about to sleep... someone call me.
It's her mother and I didn't prepare for what she said next.
"My daughter is...gone.. she..she didn't make it..Tyrone"
My cellphone drop in the floor in my room and the next thing I do is smash the things that I could grab in my room and throw it anywhere.
I cried hard and hard until I sleep.
I mourned her death deeply, my heart was like its pinning any tiny pieces of mirror.
And here now in her tomb. I always visit it everyday and I sometimes camping it even if it's scary but I don't care about it.
My love for her never fades and I always wish if it is in the next life meet her, I will definitely love her and make her love me too even if she didn't know me.
"My lantern you fly away so long long years and I will find you in our next life.."
Her name in the tomb: Graciela Angel Donovan.
The End..
(Cry all you want like a it will full a bucket)
