Love at first site 💓... Sounds very common nowadays.. right?🫢
I don't know about it much but I just know is.. he become my addiction from the day I saw him... (◍•ᴗ•◍)
(APRIL 2019)
First day of my 6th standard (bruh I know I'm too young but isn't it also common nowadays 💀)... I step inside my class with that as always innocent and boring chubby face of mine 😶🌫️ (I am not fat just little healthy okay 😗)... At first I was looking for my friend.. I was seeing many new faces not for the first time but we got shuffling of our class sections that year... I was seeing many students of different sections in our class as they shifted too our section and many of my classmates also shifted to other sections and I was feeling nothing by thinking that I got another classmates 🙂.. (I am a type of girl who doesn't care much about others and surroundings 🌝).. But my eyes caught one handsome face 👀
I thought - "gosh seriously I never knew we got such a charming boy in our other sections 🌝"
(Ahem- I lost my innocence at the age of 10 only 😶🌫️)
We were in different sections before but after shuffling.. we got into same class.. 〜(꒪꒳꒪)〜
The first time when I saw him I developed some feelings for him 💘... I told my friends and they teased me very much 🥹 and that day my eyes didn't left his sight even for once 🙈
Days passed like that.. crushing and dieing over him 🌝..
The most funny part of those days was I used to count how many times he looked at me or how many times our eyes met each other 🤪... 1 point for his glance at me and 2 points for eyes meeting.. 🫣
And you can't imagine my happiness level when the points cross 100.. 🤣🤣... And literally my friends were gone crazy because of my over craziness over him 🤯..
One day one of my classmate gave me a dare to say the first 3 letter of my crush's name.. I was nervous but I said his name as he wasn't there.. but they suspected me and guessed his name and told him that I like him 🤧.. But than I controlled the situation by making another name by those 3 letters and said he (fictional boy) is my neighbour and I have crush on him...🤐
But from that day.. his thoughts for me changed..🥺 (not like that but the weird yet normal stare which we give to others after knowing they like us)..
I used to write my feelings in a diary and the most bad habits of my parents was to find those diaries and scold me 😑.. it was literally their favourite hobby...
They got my diary and read about him.. and after that don't imagine what happened with me.. I didn't did anything except having a minor crush on him still if you could see me.. you had seen those red stick marks all over my body 🫥.. my parents are hella strict and possessive.. sometimes it seems like a curse to be their daughter but a cunning girl like me really deserve that type of treatments to stay in track 👀🤐 (did I exposed myself 🤐)
Well day passed like that and our final started.. I am not a good student nor he but he is smarter than me 🫣.. we both passed with an average good marks and promoted to 7th standard..
I was excited until...
Mr. CORONA VIRUS UNCLE came 🙂..
Then online classes started but none of us onn the camera 😜..
(My fun days 👽)
8th standard also went like that.. but there wasn't a single day gone when I didn't thought about him 😳.. He stayed in my mind all day and night.. Evey hour every minute every second.. and that's how I realised.. it can't be a minor crush 😖.. IT CAN NEVER BE A MINOR CRUSH.. 🥴
I WAS DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH HIM.. I AM OBSESSED WITH HIS PRESENCE AND ADDICTED TO HIS THOUGHTS.. 🤩
I WAS AND STILL CRAZY FOR HIM AND OVER HIM..😌
2022..
9th standard..
I was going to go to school after 2 f*cking years.. I went.. and saw him.. as always.. with his girl best friend 🥲.. not his girl friend but girl bestie..
Lol I am also confused by their relationship and I tried to know more about what's going on between them but I never got something like that.. I have always been happy thinking nothing is going on between them 🙂 (god knows their relationship 🙏).. But I get very jelous whenever they comes too close like hugging or holding hand or sitting with each other like HELL WHY CANT I BE IN HER PLACE 😬😬... but I suppressed my anger by thinking - "it's good that I am not in her place.. what if he takes her as a sister 🌝"
Days passes and my craziness over him get lowered.. by appearance but from inside I was the same crazy girl and I am still 🌝🫣..
Days passed like that and we got promoted to class 10th 😮💨.. I got very bad marks and dissapointed my parents badly and imagine what happened after that🫥🫥.. I still can feel the pain when I remember that day... it was very painful 🥺...
Finally
2023..
It's my last year of school.. I am happy thinking finally I don't have to suffer the school torture anymore 😆.. yet very very sad that I'll get separated from him 😔..
I don't know about his feelings but I mostly find him staring at me and sometimes our eyes also meets with each other 😳.. but I seriously don't know what he thinks about me 😐 like.. dude I'm not that ugly to be get ignored 🥲.. but the sad thing is he likes to be friends with popular girls like toppers 🤧and sl*ts for timepass (not like that but he likes to make fun of sl*ts that's why he jokes around them and make fun of them.. but poor sl*ts.. they laugh at themselves 🌝)
I don't know what should I do to be his friend and come closer to him 😶.. He rarely talks with me or say.. never 😕...
You know what I like the most about him..
He is creative 💜, dominant 😶🌫️ (bossy bossy 💪💪), a gentleman 🥸 yet a naughty kid 😏, not so innocent 🌚 but knows how to respect💗 , he is se*y bruh 🙈, he loves to dance 🕺, he is not a topper but also not a losser 🤠, He never misbehaves with anyone without any reason or never raise his voice in front of any girl 🫠, he is such a husband/ boyfriend material 😳, He rarely gets angry (I have never seen him angry)🤞, he is childish yet mature 👻, he is cunning but understanding 🌞... Totally my type 🫶...
(Sometimes he embarrasse himself.. it seems it's his favourite thing to do 🤭🤭.. he is really clumsy)
I wish I could have been with him, but sadly we aren't mean to be together 🙂.. I don't know if I could able to forget him in future 🙃.. I am badly addicted to him, he is my drug 😌...
