Today was the day when i seprated myself from toxicity i felt like i was stuck in the strange darkness my throat started to get sour like i was going to cry but i didn't want to cause i have to be strong infront of them to show them that i dont caer the sadest part is that nobody caered the just laughed and laughed like nothing happened I think they never really caered or will caer I guess i was just an option to them they dident even tried talking to me that what happened why are you away from us why arent you sitting with us . now i really think im usless to everyone everybody just pretends that they caer for me you know everyone says that im imuture im childish and do stuff that are usless .Do you know from when i came to this collage i started being used by everyone first ushna and dua and now them but now i satarted to distance myself from everyone now i really dont caer but do wish one thing that i hope onr day they will realize that what they have done to me and i hope so that i leave this collage after 1st year i dont want to spend 2year here or else ill starte to get mentally ill recently someone came to me the person whom i was ignoring he blamed me for everything he blamed for the rumer that someone spread that i dident even did he blamed for the situation of zain which he going through he also blamed me for the situation of warda which she was going through but i dont get it he noticed their situation what they were going throu why dident he noticed what i was going through am i even a human or something els that dont have feelings why they dont get it they blamed me for everything which wasent even my fault you know what hurted me the most that all of them blamed me of that rumer i thought one will atleast support me or know me that i dont do stuff like that but no no one supported me do you know right im the situation the if i dident did anything still il be blamed for the things that i dident even did or if i do anything still thay will blame me
