We all have that one best buddy in school...right...?! I had too ig i had but she wasn't thinking the same as I was thinking.
We were in same grade from 1st grade...and i approached her because she was new...i still remember that day ...funny i don't even remember people names now days but still that memory is fresh in my mind...i still remember a girl sitting in the last bench and nervous because it's her first day...and how I as a good girl listend to my teacher and sitted beside her...and that day we became friends or should I say best friends....
Days passed away month passed away and like that years passed away and we were still the best friends in my eyes...from childhood i was sensitive of my friends and she was close with me...from 1st to 7th grade...i was so possesive of her...that i hurted many people and had too many fights...
As time passed...i realised I was nothing more than a good friend to her... because I was sensitive and i didn't wanted to lose her...i did everything to make her stay with me..like doing her homework classwork ..and helping with projects...but one...day... everything changed
In 7th grade...we had a new student she became my friend and after that my best friend friend we were in good terms....but my possesiveness came in between our beautiful friendship I asked her to choose between me and her...and definitely she was mad at me... because I had done the same thing for so many times ..that new student was nice...she was really nice....i really liked her but still sharing my friend with her was the least thing I would do with any one...
We were sitting beside our playground having our lunch in the sunny day but I ruined the day by fighting with her...i didn't talk to both of them for like months I still remember that day clearly when i said the most regretting sentence to her..'i wish you were never here...' and after that we didn't talked till Christmas vacation
After the Christmas vacation....i was thinking apoliging because I knew it was my fault but i didn't even had that chance...
She was absent for days...and our homeroom teacher contacted her family...and after that her sister came and say something to our teacher...and after what my teacher said..my heart was broken I still regret how I was not able to say sorry to her...i was sad....i was sad because i didn't knew that the smiley face girl...who was so kind to me even after our fight...the girl who was so pure that she said she will ask my best friend to say sorry to me...was not with us anymore she leaved us for a better place....
Saying the thing i said to her was the biggest regret for me... i didn't wanted to say goodbye to her without asking for forgiveness (stay with those who value your presence make them happy...don't stay with any regrettful moment...it's hurts)
