to my dear best friend
I had a message for you
if sometimes you feel that our friendship is drifting away please don't put the blame on me
if I change or you think something changed to me don't put the blame on me
never ever put the blame on me
I know you aren't my boyfriend too tell this but still I'm a woman and a human being
I'm not someone else and
I know you know that I'm emotional person I get hurt for small things
you once scolded me for my attitude of being who I truly I am because you're partner don't like it of course I got hurt and I changed then again changed because of things you're partner doesn't want
I changed just because you want me to because you're partner want me too
and when you two broke up
you talked to me and hang out with me
and when the day was about to end you asked me why I feel strange me
you told me like I'm not like in the past
I told him that it's because you're partner don't want me that way Soo I changed
and you said we both broke up Soo comeback of who you truly are
I ignore what you says and continue being me the me that you changed
and then later on you get angry with me and telling me why I am like this you are begging me to go back of who I am before you told me that you miss the old me I didn't answer and you shouted on me saying why I am like this
I got hurt but didn't show I left without saying anything but the truth is
once I changed doesn't mean I can go back to who I am
once I changed I will forget everything about who I am
you've changed me and wanted me to go back looks like you want me to laugh
let me tell you I'm not just like anyone that once you change me I will go back no I'm not like that
I mind every word I heard I always mind it
and once I got hurt I will change and even if I want to go back I can't because it's hard
Soo please don't shout on me don't be angry on me don't question why I changed because it's all your fault yeah all your fault
every word you said I remember
and also I'm scared of losing you that's why for the sake of you and your partner I changed
Soo if our friendship slowly drifting away don't blame me blame yourself
because you change me
I wish it won't drift away cause you are the only friend I had once I lose you I will lose everything
