hewow....ah myself I'm hooman?( hate to say my name don't mind ;-; ) first lemme say why I'm writing these?
'-' uh-huh i just saw some people writing about there life as a story "-" nd i felt yeah y not lemme try this hahaa;...yeah i don't have followers over here xd so I'm kinda dare to write about myself like who is going to see ...eh.
I'm girl...
18 years old..
Currently preparing for entrance exam.
Introvert;-;
likes :- of course manga,anime,songs,k drama c-drama, BTS
there are many things i like ^-^' but
....this might be enough ig uhmm o.0
Yea actually I feel like I need to talk with someone but at the same time i don't wanna talk ( CAN YOU FEEL ME!? SIGH......)
*-* So to pour my feelings out...... I'm writing ( it's kinda feels good )
Recently i stopped using social media's it was damn annoying cuz of a friend..... Aaaaish i will say this later too ( cuz it hurts ) <- write this stuff's on Dec 12 as i remember,
{nd today it's okay 😅😂 i will say what happened TQ xd},what i said in bracket re writing on jan 31 2023 lol
continue xd
T_T after talking with someone aka random frnds i feel exhausted i don't like to talk in real as well as online friends.... :/ I'ain't rude just outta socializing energy......
before i used to make a lot of friends.....but now not any more i feel i ....they are using me?
they text me whenever they get bored...
(◍•ᴗ•◍)❤ i OVERTHINK A LOT YEA IT SAVED ME SOMETIME'S
-.- aaai now what I'm supposed to say?
user is thinking ehee ^-^;
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1 hour later....l0l
💀ig nothing will happen if i share my insecurity over here ( girl it's fine they dunno you lmao )
😂my weakness is my FRIENDS ahaa.... for some people friends are........... ( i dunno wt word should i use damn it )💀 like they can rely on them???"-" ahaa
well well when i was studying in 1st grade to 5th grade
I'M TOTALLY A DIFFERENT PERSON IG COMPARED TO NOW!
Joyful girl
i was good at studying as well as participating in cultural events
dancing
games
ooooo yea cutest girl too kekekee all teachers were taking care of me expect few they are not most strict teacher's ever aish.. . ...
i do had many friends....
i had crush too but ugh not anymore;-; it's not my time lmao yea but i used my childhood crush as an escape to reject someone tehee
but Guess what my childhood crush doesn't know that i had crush on him nd god knows where he is ryt now.. it's been 8+ year's i haven't seen him nor interested in to see him
My first heart break had in this time only XD
my friend (XYZ) sry can't say her name
as i remember.......ah idk exactly but she was not talking to me ig
i came home ,didn't talk with mom
l went to my room nd i started crying very badly in corner of my room....
after few mins ig my mom came nd She was worried nd asked me what happened
......ah i don't remember wt i said ^-^;
me nd my mom went to my friend house(XYZ)
and there mom said DON'T FIGHT AGAIN BE GOOD FRIEND'S OKAY :) GOOD GIRLS
....but i felt.....mmmh it was embarrassing....
the next day she mean's ( XYZ ) had told everyone abt me like idk wt i did all we're maintaining distance fro me....that day i really felt bad....
*-* i don't remember anything i just remember i was crying cus of her.......aish
lafter that my mom changed my school.
MAN THAT SCHOOL WAS HORRIBLE
LIKE ...from friendly environment ----->non friendly environment ...
💀
6th grade to 10th grade
My grade's was not that good..
not able to make friends, if i made 1... not a loyal one..
idk how i survived xd
but i started feel like i need to study more by that i can get some attention from friends nd teachers
yea yea i was late i realised that sh*t in 8th grade ig i was hating this special classes only for children who score's very badly
ah as i remember they will treat children by there Mark's damn i hate this society
nd i started to work hard ....
-_- in this time i always fyting with a boy and all thought we are couple's like wtf!? like i really don't have any feelings cuz of these PPL talk's my heart slipped ig? like only few times galdy phew "-" but yea in my school time's he was a trouble maker -_- i agree he is good in studies nd whatever he has lot of attitude as ik not even once! he talked normal with me
EVERYONE WE'RE SUSPECTING AS A COUPLES JEEZ
but yea they stopped teasing me by his name but -_- they started tease me with another boy lol
@.@ i was hating them to there death sigh
lemme come back
i finally managed to study well like
from very poor to average 60-70%💀
hahaa...
nd i was trying to find my old self the extrovert one i tried to participate in dance nd other stuffs ...but failed 🙂
yea not surprising
but mom was always supporting me never blamed me for getting poor Mark's
she only said( ☺️ IT'S OKAY YOU CAN DO WELL NEXT TIME )
@.@ i was about to cry....ah mom is so good
-,- mom like's me cuz i was trying to study hard nd i didn't had any bf bf stuffs XD but in my age most of my classmate had bf
she was proud that i didn't have one😂
but i finally managed to have good friend circle in mid of 9th grade in that grp 5 were there including me it's 6 :)
all we're good but uk GIRLS HAVE HUGE JEALOUSY,even they score 98% they used to cry very badly cuz her friend got 99%🙂!
in 10th i tried to have with them even we went to Goa ...( school trip ) anyways not that bad quite good...
nd i again started to study very hard for board exams ,some friends helped me to understand those stuff's somehow I managed
🙂I MUST SAY THIS OUR SCIENCE TEACHER IN 10 GRADE WAS CHANGED FOR PHYSICS ANOTHER TEACHER WAS TEACHING US
THAT SIR WAS CONCENTRATING ON OUR GRP CUZ IN OUR GRP GIRL'S WERE STUDYING QUITE GOOD( TvT expect me? i was quite good tho nvm) that sir said ...... oh wait!
my mom strictly said i need score very good marks in my main exam that mean's ( 10TH BOARD EXAMS )
yea i managed to score well but yea yea yeaaah! i forgot to say MATHS IS MY BIGGEST ENEMY IN MY LIFE YEAH! SINCE CHILDHOOD!!!
MATH'S WAS GETTING OUTTA MY HAND
.....this time i mean in 10th board exam math's -,- cheated on me
it's fine ^-^ i tried my best 🗿i was expecting 90+ hahaa cuz of stoopid math's i got 85%T_T
🤣i was crying.....l0l nd that year was 2019.
nd i made decision to get rid of math's i choosed
so here my 1st half story ends.....
tehee(≡^∇^≡)
the next half continues in another chapter ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ......
Have a beautiful good day <3( of course I'm saying to myself -.-
nd if anyone reading^-^" for them too)
bubyeee~
