To My Youth
At some point in my life
i used to with that i could disappear from this world.
The whole world seemed so dark i cried every night.
will my mind feel at ease if i just disappeared
i was so afraid of everyone's eyes on me.
during those beautifully beautiful days , i was in pain
i hated myself
for not being able to receive love.
my mom and dad ,
they're only looking at me
this is not how i really feel,
but i keep further away.
What should i do
the saying that time is medicine was really true for me.
as the days went by, i really true for me
as the days went by ,
i really did get better.
but sometimes when i'm too happy , i'm afraid i'll be in pain again.
im afraid that someone will take away my happiness.
those beautifully , beautiful memories were so painful.
I hurt to the point where i could hurt no more , but the pain wouldn't go away.
My friends , all these people , they're only looking at me.
This is not how i really i am,
but i keep getting further away.
But still maybe i could be a bright light in this world.
maybe after all of that pain , i could shine a light even if it's short.
So I couldn't give up.
The me that couldn't fall asleep peacefully for a single night.
Because If i keep trying to stand up like this i might be able to find myself.
How painful must it have been,
How much
How much did i hope for it
•bolbbalgan//To My Youth
