I'm a girl and I know it's not right to love a girl but who have the strength to tame their own heart. This a universal truth, no one can deny it.
I'm not a exception of this. Yes, I fell hard for a girl. And it's the biggest mistake of my life.
I'm still a student and my life was pretty good until that day when a new girl showed up in my class. Little did I know that she came to mess up with my heart.
The girl entered the class with a shy smile on her face introduced herself.
Her beauty was ethereal. Her short brown hair and her brown gaze captured me the first time I met her. She's a sweet girl with a unique personality.
One day she sat beside me and we're chatting happily. From that day she started to sit with me. It seems that she enjoyed chatting with me.
We started to get closer and closer until one day when I realised that I don't see her as a friend anymore.
My brain told me that it's wrong but my heart was out of control.
One day she told me over the phone that she has something important to tell me and she will tell me face to face. I thought that she was going to confess her feelings for me. I was so excited that I couldn't sleep that night.
Next day I was sitting in the classroom waiting for her. She came and told me "A boy proposed me to be his girlfriend. I can't believe that he will proposed me like that."
My mind was blank, my whole body was trembling.
I asked her with a shaky voice, "Do you like him?"
It's takes me everything to ask her that question.
She said, "Yes, I like him a lot."
Hearing this from the girl I love the most hurts me so bad. It's like the world has stopped. I wanna cry out loud but it seems like no tears left to cry.
She said, "Aren't you happy for me?"
I said, "Yes I'm very happy for you." in a voice that was barely audioable.
She said, "I know you will be very happy for me after all you're my friend."
"Friend"
That word was echoing in my ears. She was telling me how he proposed her. But I wasn't able to hear a single word. A lump started forming in my throat. My eyes started getting glossy with my own tears.
She noticed that I wasn't paying attention to her words so she asked, "Are you okay?"
I said, "I kinda feeling unwell. I'm going to the restroom I'll be right back."
She replied me with a simple 'ok'.
I ran from there to the restroom before anyone could notice my glossy eyes. I entered into restroom locked the door and started crying and blaming myself for what happened with me.
"I'm such a coward that I can't even confess my feelings to her and now here I am, crying my lungs out.", I thought to myself.
Some time later when I thought it was enough I got up, washed my face and left from there.
I promised to myself that I'll never fell in love with someone again and will continue to love her with all my heart.
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