i just wanted to give my heart a little relief just by telling you all my lil sad heart breaking story . By the way I never thought that this felling of heart breaking could make such a great change in my life . so without and
y thing I'm starting now .
12th June 2019
I used to be an introvert girl who always wants affection and wants to be loved always . 12 th June is the day when I changed to hostel Life from 15 years of becoming a homie . After being introvert I'm still a girl with great humour . so without much effort i made a lot of friends within 2 days .
you all will know about the late night talk that all hostel students does that is late night talkings. i just didn't know why people love and become mad for a boy without loving themselves . i just thought these are just a matter of emotions. but in that night we talked about who is the cute boy we met in the class time and who is perfect for us . i just can't understand the reason of their talking cause I'm just so so so innocent at that time .
my new bestie made in 7 day asked me what type of guy is my favourite . so i told that he has to be of my cast . his charecter has to be same as mine and even the staring letter of his name has to be same as me. i just thought it is may be difficult for them to find someone in our collage. so I'm happy after showing them I'm so smart.
But unfortunately there is a boy whose name started with the same letter as me even his characters are same as me and he was completely same as I've mentioned . so you may all have known what have happened next. yes what you have guessed is right . so my friends started to called me by his name all the time and even used to tell me.his whereabouts . so i just felt a Lil bit feelings growing in my heart towards him .
i just didn't notice it at first but lately I felt my heart beating faster after hearing his name , becoming extremely concern towards his voice. i literally felt scared to this much changes . then i asked my friend about this and they she told me that i was falling for him. i surprised cause having zero experience towards love . i thought that I'm going to be a mad girl for him though he still doesn't know anything about this .
but the day after tomorrow i when I turned back to see him I saw that he was looking at me . i feel scared and shocked too . but this became more frequent . i was preparing for entrance exams so i was taking a special coaching along with some of my classmates so he was also taking this coaching . so most of time he sat beside me in the class though I'm the only one girl taking the class .
i heard his friends are also repeating my name infront of him and he even smile all the time when the call him by my name . so i gradually felt that he also feel the same as i feel towards him . so in the entrance classes we sat beside each other . i asked him every doubt what I got in the class . i forgot to mention one thing that he is also the topper of the class. he even ask me his doubts if he get any cause I've notes of all the classes .
i told about these things to my bestie and she used to feel happy for me . but she even warned me not to believe him so much that would make me feel worse at the end . but I didn't listen to her .
i was singing a solo in our collage function and my friends told me that he was sitting looking at the group from the beginning . but when my song starts he looked at me and after the end of my song he again change to before posture .. there's many other sweet memories . but I couldn't write them all . so lemme make it a little bit short . bdw we are at the verge of becoming a sweet couple .
but at the beginning of the 2020 there are new year we got a 15 days holiday and we went to our home. but after the holidays complete something unexpected happens that I never would have thought in my dreams too . may be on the 1st week of February 2020 one of my friend asked him about what he thinks about me . then he just beg her not to call my name infront of me anymore .
here in my hostel my friends written his name in my face in my hands with permanant marker . then my bestie came restlessly from mer room and angrily told me to clean my face and hands right now . i told her don't you know i love him . she told me ibe something to tell you go clean up first . so i cleaned me and then she told me everything about what he told about me . i just don't know what to do at that time . i was literally turned into a stone like . then i brust into tears.
later i found out that he has a girlfriend of his school life who literally drank a bottle of poison for him . so even though he likes me still he feared that girl would commit suiside again .
if I tell you about me I'm now completely changed and became someone about whom I've never thought I would become . im now a self lover and don't believe in love any more . so I'm now strong enough to stay alone and even more confident than before .
but still when those moments flashed into my memory and make me become the one I used to cover by my fake smile and confident infront of every one.
so if you want to try other gener stories then comment down . I'll surely try to write in those geners . 🥰🥰🥰🥰
wish you all love my story . tq for reading this.
