They All think my life is too good and full of happiness because, I have a smile on my face in front of everyone. They say I don't take stress and tension of anything. They don't know what I am suffering from. They don't know that I am suffering from stress since I came here in Delhi from village, they don't know I have depression from last 3years, They don't know that I was called fatherless child and was bullied for 3 years, They don't know that I try to do suicide 4 times, They don't know that how scared, sad and helpless I feel when I see my mom get beaten by belt, I was only 8years old back then. They don't know how I feel when my so called father's big brother’s wife said “my home is not an orphanage, where anyone can come to stay or live” because my cousin brother said “Dad Vishakha can stay here with us and continue her study from here". They don't know why I always wake up late, they thought that I am lazy but the real reason is I don't want to see their face in early morning. They say I have dark circles and swelling under my eyes because I sleep late and wake up after 9:00Am, but what they don't know is it’s not because of sleeping late is because of crying every night, while hiding face in the pillow. They say I don't take tension and feel sad, but they don't know that I just don't trust anyone because of my past and don't want to show my sadness my worriers to anyone because every time I try to trust anyone, they break my heart in pieces now they can't be repaired anymore.....................................
