It's been 70th death till now...I don't even want to do anything but because of the game...I appear at the seen I don't want to be in!
What's more I found during this time is, The journal I write on doesn't disappears! Everything I wrote during 50th life till now is still there! that's very surprising because I thought that since this game restarts after I die then everything will go as it was when it was started.
Hopefully the god still have some conscience left in his head,It's good that I can atleast write my resentments and what I have faced till now because this game didn't even allows me to speak except where the Villainess need to act her role.
The only thing I want is...DEATH! I want to die at this point, I don't have anymore energy within me to keep going on with this damn life again and again ...
Since these journal doesn't disappears then I guess I can write about the role am playing?
It's Tiara, Tiara dé gesh the Villainess of the otome game called ⟨⟨Love me, heal me⟩⟩.
At first I thought my life matches with the female lead of this game because we both were orphan and the only love we got was from our mother which was for not so long too, but after I came into this game I realised that I misunderstood it.
Because my life doesn't matches with the female lead but the Villainess Tiara,Who had family but she was the illegitimate child of the family her two brothers never liked her nor the father paid much attention to her. Which also resulted in bulling by the maids.
It's understandable why she changed her personality to Villainess...if she wouldn't had then I can bet that those maids would have treated like any begger which she never wanted to be.
Why does we have same pain...? we never received love and atlast died without anyone by our side...Was it destined ? If so why us?
80th death...I cut my hand
82nd death...I jumped from a tower
85th death...I burned myself in my room
91th death...I stabbed myself with a knife
96th death...I drowned myself in the pond
I tried dying again and again as expected no one worried about Tiara even tho they saw her going towards pond of grabbing a knife...Tiara...your are so pathetic like me.....
