"I love you" these words escaped my lips when I imagined my best friend Taehyung in front of me.
Yes, I was gonna confess to him.
He is my best friend and I have developed feelings for him. I know that I shouldn't feel this towards my best friend but feelings can't be controlled, right?
It has been 2 years since I discovered my feelings for him. And you know it's really hard to keep all your feelings inside because you don't wanna hurt your loved one by confessing.
But today I finally decided to take this risky step. I don't know what he feels for me, I don't know what he sees me as and i don't know what his reaction will be when I confess to him.
Whatever happens I am gonna still love him even if he rejects me.
Finally entering our secret hideout place, I hide the bouquet behind my back as I see him sitting on the chair with his back towards me.
I smiled and walked towards him only to get stopped in one step.
"Ahh~" Taehyung moaned.
'Why is he moaning?' I thought and moved my head to see properly.
And that's when my heart shattered. I saw a girl giving him bl0wjob.
Although the sound of breaking heart was not audible but I could feel the pain given by it's broken pieces. I was ready for rejection but I didn't knew that I would not even get a chance to confess. And moreover I was not ready was such a painful sight.
Tears started forming in my eyes and without me knowing few tears left my eyes wetting my cheeks. I stood there watching the girl give him pleasure.
The girl tucked her hair strands behind her ear and that's when I saw her face. I couldn't believe my eyes. It was so painful that I couldn't handle and ran away from there without making any noice.
I went to rooftop and sat on a corner. I let my tears fall.
"why?" I softly said and then screamed, "WHY!!?"
I started crying while putting my head on my knees.
And why shouldn't I? My two most important person did this to me. My best friend and my-my sister.
She fvcking knew I had loved him then why? Why did she broke me? Why did she betrayed me? Why? Why?
Why did she do this to me. I trusted her the most in this whole world and she was the one who broke it.
I sobbed really hard. I don't even know how time I spent there. Butt when I finally calmed down the sky was dark.
I wiped my tears and went to my house.
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I was welcomed by my sister, hyuna when I entered.
"Oh my god, Jungkook. Where were you? I was so worried about you. Where did you went for this long?" She asked while holding my hand.
I looked at her and the flashback came into my mind.
I yanked her hand and marched towards my room. And she also followed me there.
"What happened to you Kook? Why aren't you answering? And Oh my god, did you cried..Who the hell made you cried"
"It's you!!" I finally screamed.
"What!" She was taken aback by my outburst.
"Why do you always act like you care for me huh when what you always did was hurting me?"
"When did I-"
"Oh stop with your drama. You knew...You fvcking knew I had crush on Taehyung but you still decided to betray me huh!!!" I screamed while she widened her eyes.
"Koo-" She tried to come closer to me.
"Don't dare to come near me...For how long huh!?"
"Ko-" "FOR HOW LONG?"
"3 years"
She said and I scoffed. For that long? So she was dating him before I even knew my feelings for him.
"Wow! 3 years? And you played me with my feelings for fvcking 2 years? Was it fun playing with me and my feelings? Was it fun seeing me woo him even though he was committed? I looked pathetic, didn't I?"
"No Kook, let me explain"
I calmed myself down and nod. "Go ahead. I want to listen what lie you have to explain it"
"I was dating him before you told me. I didn't knew you also had feelings for him so I proposed and he also agreed. And when you told me you love him I was also shocked. And didn't knew what to do. So I kept it secret so that you don't get hurt. I kept it secret because I couldn't see you cry" She said while she also cried.
"Oh then am I happy now? I would have heart broken but moved on quickly if you told me back then because my feelings were fresh. But You didn't. Instead you decided to play with me. When were you going to tell me huh? On your wedding day?" I yelled at her.
"I am sorry koo" She sobbed.
"Your sorry won't fix what has been broken"
I said and took my jacket and went outside. But stopped at the door. "And don't call me with those nicknames now. I no longer have any sister"
I said and marched out. She called me but I ignored her. I was going out but I noticed someone sitting on the couch.
"What are you doing here, Taehyung?" My voice was cold.
He saw me and was honestly stunned by my appearance and aura.
"Koo, what happened"
"Don't, dont fvcking call me with that name" I practically yelled at him.
Meanwhile my sister also came out.
"But what happened?" He agains asked.
"You can ask your dear girlfriend about it" I said and left.
I was walking endlessly on the road. Didn't knew where to go. I could only think about the betrayal that I got. Many would think that I was overreacting by breaking off ties with my sister but you don't feel the pain until you are in the same situation.
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From the next day, I moved to USA with my parents and learnt business there. I also didn't contacted both of them. I even blocked them from everywhere I could. I didn't even loved someone else because I had only Taehyung in my heart. Although he belongs to someone now but my heart only belongs to him.
And yes, they married after 1 year since the incident. And I didn't attended their wedding.
I could never see my love getting married to someone.
People say we should be happy with our loved ones happiness. But if your loved ones betrayed you then you can never be happy if they are.
#Taekook #bts
