"no dirty words allowed", As I woke up from the deep sleep that's all I heard. it's like an Oracle. nope, it's an oracle.
The world will be less scary from today on, I thought.
" Dark fairy, would you like some fairness cream", My not so bosom neighbor aunt offered me. The choice of words is nice but the meaning lying underneath hurts.
"Thank you, Aunty. You are thoughtful", The flow of nice words automatically come out of my mouth.
I can't curse since dirty words can't be used. I can't lose my life for such a trivial matter. I will tolerate it a little bit since this is a part of my life. I can't deny the fact that cursing that aunt gave me relief. I am in a state of helplessness.
school is no different. The bullies are still scarier, their expressions didn't change. The words they use change. like that aunt, I can understand the irony.
Instead of using " f" words, they are using other insults. My wounds are not healing.
"Can they say something nice"?, Those words I chant as prayer flashed in my mind. I remember how much I yearned for people to understand, love me, and I wanted them at least to pretend.
" Dear God, May I apologize. I understood what you want me to grasp. It's my fault that I thought their opinions and words will describe me as I am. I know even an oracle can't wash dirt from people's hearts. Others ways of thinking won't define who I am. Let their tongues won't fall off by using nice words instead I want you to cleanse their hearts. I won't use these dirty words on weak or people who never harm me instead it helps to tame the inner demon for a while.", I opened my teary eyes.
Next day
"Tanned bitch, don't show that darn face on this alley.", Said a bully. I ignored it and walked away.
" From where do these stray dogs get the energy to bark early in the morning"?, I exasperated
The cursed boon has been taken back.
