i discovered my fear i get attached to ppl easily...and expect things then it won't happen or they won't even care and i cry haah i m exhausted...and i finally found some real life ppl who won't make me feel insecure...i love them...they pat my head they hug me when i cry they make fun of me and we all laugh together...the memories they gave are the best...i was afraid to make friends coz i lil bit knew ppl won't like me... it's coz i expect...i just expect them to talk with me...i don't want them to give whole japan...🐧aish even my tears disappeared...hope ppl will disappear as well