I don't know where to start or what should I say.
I'm not sure if I should apologize first or should I say I missed you first?
I've messed up. I've messed it up real bad, I know.
I dunno how long it has been since the last time we talked. I miss you. I missed talking and arguing with you. I missed it all.
But I messed it up.
I couldn't control my feelings... I fell.
I shouldn't have confessed because it made things awkward. I thought we had something more than friendship, but it was just my imagination.
It hurts when you say you couldn't feel the same way. You said you didn't wanna be in a relationship. I wished to undo what I did to save myself from the pain of rejection, but there's no medicine for regret.
I tried to be the same, to be the friend I used to be. But a few weeks, or I think more than a month later, you told me, you're dating someone.
I thought, you don't wanna be in a relationship, yet here you are saying you're in a relationship.
I dunno if it's your way to make me forget my feelings for you or if you just want me to distance myself from you.
But after knowing it, I became unstable. I know jealousy is eating me up. I don't wanna hurt you and embarrass myself with my foolish jealousy, so I left.
I left and blocked you and stopped talking to you. But deep inside im hoping you'd try to reach out, and ask me why and what happened. But I waited for days that became weeks and weeks that turned into months.
I'm sorry I fell in love with you. I'm sorry I destroyed the friendship we had. Thank you for being a part of my life. I hope and pray that wherever you might be, you'll be happy.
