“YOU WERE JUST THE SAME AS THE DAFFODILS”.
(daffodils : symbolizes broken love, given as a form of condolence or farewell to someone that you once loved.)
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Loneliness.
Such a distraught feeling it is, right? But I've been living with it since forever.
Life has never been easy for anyone; but in my case, it is just the cruelest.
My life itself is a brilliant tragedy, a tale of misery. And I've been enduring every pain, every loss, every mishap with all my might for all these years. But is there even a point in living this kind of life?
Don't I deserve happiness?
Don't I deserve to live like a normal person, even for once?
I was tired. This was my limit and I was falling apart now.
I didn't want to live like this anymore...until the moment I met you.
･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ.
It was the day I tried to drown myself in the sea, only to find myself still on the shore a few hours later. Seemed like even the death didn't want to embrace me.
That night, just like a lost soul, I wandered and wandered. And it was also the night I saw you for the very first time.
You were dancing in that deserted community hall all by yourself. And I watched in awe as your body moved from side to side elegantly, following the beats of the song that blasted through the speakers.
Dancing was something that helped me to escape from all my problems for several years, until I was diagnosed with ventricular septal defect.
At that time, dancing meant the world to me. It was the last string that kept me sane but I had to quit because of a mere hole in my heart.
But I never imagined my heart would find solace in watching someone dance.
I smiled unknowingly as I drowned into your serenity; completely forgetting the fact that I was trying to throw this life away.
And at that moment, I felt as if the pain had been subsided from my life.
You became my comfort when my world was crumbling down that night...
･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ.
A whole week passed, you were all I could think about. You were just a stranger whom I saw dancing one day. Yet I found myself waiting for you every night in that community hall.
･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ.
I still remember the day when I saw you again after convincing myself that I was never going to see you again; in the cafe I worked at.
I asked for your name to fill the details on the screen infront of me.
“Cole”, you replied with a bright smile tugged onto your lips.
Your smile was so radiant and bright. I'm sure it was the most beautiful smile I had ever seen.
･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ.
Soon we became friends. And before I even knew, you became an indispensable part of my life.
I was thankful to life for giving me a second chance, because I would've never met you if I had died that night.
･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ.
One's love being reciprocated back is one of the most beautiful feelings in life and I was fortunate enough to feel that emotion.
An orphan like me who never knew what warmth and love actually meant, was finally being loved by someone; loved by you.
･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ.
I was so happy that I forgot it was life and not some fairytale. And life has never been fair with me.
My heart was getting weaker and weaker everyday.
They said my heart won't support me anymore but then I received a call, someone was ready to donate their heart to me.
The day before my surgery, you slept holding me into your arms tightly.
When I was finally being taken for the surgery, you kissed my hands softly and said, “I love you”.
What I didn't know was that it was the last time I was seeing you, the last time you held me in your arms, the last time you kissed me...
･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ.
When I opened my eyes, you weren't there. And nobody was telling me where you went, why you weren't coming to see me.
“He loves me, he'll come back!”, I told myself again and again.
I was waiting for you. I cried every night, I missed you like crazy.
Without you being by my side, my world was turning darker once again.
I was alone, once again.
Without you, I lost the will to live anymore.
I was alive, yet I was dead.
･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ.
Just like that, spring ended, autumn came. But you never came back to me again.
You were long gone, forever.
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A/N: I know this is so long and I basically wrote all the story. I just want the readers to give it a proper ending.
Maybe write the reason he left and never came back? Or maybe give it a happy ending with your own interpretation of things?
Anyways, thank you for taking the time to read this <333
