It started out as a childhood memory….
As I pen down to the white paper and was about to write… I begin to smile bitterly as I wrote “to you” and then I scribbled it out… I heard the loud sound of thunder and as rain begins to pour over my small little house… and quietly turns to loudly and as it got louder thunder sounds as if mixing with a roaring sound crying with the thunder… “shhhh” if u don’t listen carefully You won’t even notice the cry…
I didn’t even need to question because it was already answered… it was no doubt “Him” I quickly opens the blinds from my huge window and sat down to see the dark cloudy view from the sky and then I heard a little voice
“Mommy?”
I turn to look and my little 6 year old girl “Yumi” was awake rubbing her tiny eyes she walk to me where I was sitting at the dark green sofa next to the huge window she tilted her head a little as she asked me
“Mommy what are you looking at”
I looked at her for a brief moment of silence taking a deep breath I asked her
“Look at the sky and tell me what do you see?”
She looked confused but then proceeded and look out the window… in a shocking voice in the tinniest moment she almost in to a shouting voice she said
“Mommy!! did u see that?!”
“Hmm what did you see?” I asked calmly
“Mommy u didn’t see that?!”she said again pointing to the dark clouds that now a little light was shinning visible through.
I couldn’t look afraid my tears might fall… but that didn’t stop my curiosity maybe it’s ok to steal a glance maybe it’s ok to see just a glimpse of “Him” as I thought to myself… suddenly I heard my little Yumi voice.
“It disappeared mommy”
I look at her again with envious eyes And asked her
“What disappeared?”
“No… it fly way up into the sky” she replied
Smile bitterly to my daughter I said told her
“it’s getting late now you should go to bed or daddy will be upset again when you wake up late”
Little Yumi cover her mouth with an “ops” sound and face expression and kissed her mommy cheeks and head to bed. Right when little Yumi disappeared in the room a tall man walked in and said to me
“Honey… it’s getting late come to bed”
I smile to the man I called “my husband”
I took his hand as we headed off to bed as I drifted off to sleep… I saw “Him”
Dear Yu….how have you been these years… during this time period that your not by my side I’ve been doing well… and keeping our promises to live my life as I should be happy and find happiness so that when I come I will stay…
15 years…. Still felt like a dream where I was dreaming… I question myself everyday to as why this happen to our love story. It was so pure and innocent as a little girl meeting a little boy and falling in love… if love let us meet but not be together why bother to bring us together and separate us… and yet… the one who hurts the most was you…
Remember my words one day I come I will stay…
