" I lived with my parents until I turned 20. I had problems with my family and most importantly my parents,they thought that whatever they decided will be good for me . But I wanted to show them that I'm capable of taking care of my self and that my life choices are my decisions. I always wanted to find my own self cause I really don't know about myself. so finally, after I got a job and found a place to live
far from my family, my life began.
A good appartment, good job with good salary, everything was good until my life started to get boring .
A day of first snowfall of the year , I was walking on the road when my brother suddenly called saying that he is going to be engaged. When I heard that I congratulated him and returned home.
That night is full of dreams , the only interesting thing is that I remember my dream. It doesn't happen that regularly. In my dream I made a promise to my brother while we are looking for a dress for my cousin's birthday. The promise was that I would become a fashion designer and make my brother's wedding clothes my myself and he asked me if I will stitch them myself . I said that he was stupid to not know that I don't know how to stitch and I would only design the clothes. And we both laughed out loud.
If we keep all the designing and stitching aside I didn't even get to study fashion designing course. All because of my parents. I scoffed off at myself for living half of my life as my parents wanted.
I am not good at making right decisions in my life but I am good at sketching. So as soon as I saw an article about a small competition about designing clothes the next day.
Another week passed by with busy meetings and loads of work. But the last message I got on my weekend woke me up. I didn't think that it can postpone all my plans for the day.
It was a message from the competition the other day. They said that they liked my sketchs and if I'm a professional.
I said no. They appreciated my work and said that I should think about studying the course. I said that I will think about it and left.
That night too I am unable to sleep the things are bugging my head and I was buried in my thoughts.
The next day I had decided that I'm good to talk to my parents about this matter cause I know that everything single thing I have done in my life until now is not my own choice and I would definitely regret it.
I went to my brother's engagement and after the party I have talked with my parents. At first they did not accept it but I know that I don't want this . I shouted out loud that this is my life I'm already an adult and I want to decide how I live my life.
My dad looked stunned at me raising my voice .
I went to INIFD and Started my course .
Oh!Right my age is 22yrs when I started my course. " "And that is how my life began" I said to the interviewer.
"That is a great story mam, everyone will have goals but only some people will have the determination to achieve it " " at first I thought you are one of them but I didn't think that you would have gone to such lengths to achieve your goal " the young interviewer replied.
" And may I know about your love life ? " She asked. I could tell that she was new to her profession but I didn't expect that she is this brave to ask the question directly.
" My love life ?? , Ofcourse but can I ask why you wanted to ask this question? " I asked.
" Isn't it a common question mam ? Love life of public figures attract the attention of people , so I would like you to talk to me " she replied.
" Hmmm... Makes sense alright I'll say " like that I started to open a new chapter of my life.
" Most of the people close to me know this but if I have to say once again, I'm bisexual. I don't know if it's because I'm bored of boys or cause I started reading LGBTQ stories and supporting them since I was 12, but I wanted to try to be with a girl . It worked out well . As you may heard I'm not a very sociable person and I don't really care about anyone except myself . If I have to say directly, let it be a thing or person it has always been a page I can turn anytime I wish . So I'm never attached to anyone. Except one person "
" Oh who is that person mam ? How did you meet ?"
" I was in last year of my course at that time , I had a team for a start-up business but we needed a sponsor for that "
" Thant is when I met Sarah .One of my teacher introduced her to me . The first time I saw her I was so into her that I thought I could ask her out that moment, but I didn't cause she's going to sponsor us so I shouldn't do anything stupid "
" We have contributed and our work went good for a while. We both became good friends but I can't come out to her as I did with my other friends . She made me anxious and made me feel stupid what not "
" But that all ended when she made a post on her account stating that she was looking for a girl all for herself. That made me cool but I still don't know if I should come out cause some lesbians don't like bisexual people . I had faced it a few times.
But I didn't want that to drag me back anymore.So I met with her the next day , we talked about work and casual stuff. I hesitated for while but brought the matter up. I had asked her that if she had found a girl . She said no without hesitation and asked me if I didn't feel awkward about her liking girls . I gave her a confident look with a smirk on my face . She looked confused for a moment. I leaned a bit closer to her and said that ' so..... Will you mind if I become the girl for you ?'. She seemed surprised but after a while she said 'sure why not '. And that is how our relationship begun. I said it to my team and they supported me also they commented us being touchy before ."
"We meet frequently when we both had time. Fights , taking a break and getting back again are pretty common for the couples I have known but we are nothing like that. Atleast 3 dates per month , sweet moments on our accounts and that's it . It is because we are busy and didn't have time for childish things. Well that's what I thought . I only realised how much I need her only after some time
Nearly After a year she said that her parents are looking for a groom for her . I didn't know until then how much I prioritised her . I comforted saying it'll be ok and asked if we could come out and that I will introduce her as my girlfriend. She suggested that it is not a very good idea .
I know that it's not because she didn't like it.
If it has been before 4 yrs I would have came out without fear but now I'm a public figure if anything goes wrong it will affect my carrier . She kept that in mind and said so , but I am not going to give in . It's not a good idea to expose all this to her either so I thought a lot about how to say this matter to her and explain her that she is important to me . "
" How did you do it then mam ?? " The young interviewer questioned me . I could see her excitement through her eyes .
"Well it might sound a bit cheesy but after returning from work one day I went to a ornamental store and asked to engrave our names on two rings . I asked for my brother's help in choosing the rings . I called the paparazzi and media that I will be proposing to someone . I called and asked sarah to come to dinner and said that I would pick her up . She replied with a ok . I dressed with that day and went to pick her up . I can't say that it's my first time in life but there was an anonymous anxiety in me I didn't feel like it in a long time. She's beautiful as always. I stopped the car near a bridge and asked her to come out . She had a doubted expression on her face . As she got out of the car I bent on my knees. I took the ring from my coat and proposed to her she looked super surprised not even caring about the media and cameras around us she took the ring saying yes . I could see the colours of the background and my reflection in her teary eyes. I looked like I was about to cry too. "
" Then did all the commotion get resolved mam?? "
" No as you know my fans supported me. The actors I have designed clothes have congratulated me and the jealous people commented me on internet but I didn't care about all that . And we went to say this to her family.
Aside of how much the matter shock the internet I was surprised to know that Sarah's parents doesn't know about this.
After we talked this matter with her parents she said that her parents are expected for a guy when she said she was in love and that they were surprised when they met me . I did see the rejection coming from my family but my brother and his wife supported us . "
" There you go my love life it all Started because of my decision of becoming a fashion designer ." I said but the young women looked like she was in a trance . I once again said " how is it?? " she snapped out and said " it's awesome mam except that it went on so quickly.
" Haha... Ofcourse the decision I look is like that I know " " and I'm sorry that I cannot say an interesting love story to you " I said .
She looked a bit flustered " no..no... Mam it's nothing like that I'm bored to hearing some boring friction love story a true story like this is better to hear " she replied.
I didn't actually expect I coming from her but I gave a small smile.
She was ready to leave . Just then I said "Reyan.". " Huh? " She looked at me with a doubting face. " Reyan , my name she said that she liked it so I like it too ." I said.
" Oh ! I see tq mam ." she said . She stood there for a minute and asked again " Mam, if you don't feel pressured can I ask a question?"
" Sure ". " then, is miss sarah your current wife?"
only then I had remembered that I didn't mention it anywhere." yes she is. " I answered "I see. then I'll meet you again , have a good day mam." saying that she left.
