'The day I first saw you is still vividly engraved in my memory like it happened just yesterday.
It was my first day at high school.
I missed the opening ceremony as I was born with a weak body, a condition specially known as 'Congenital Myopathy dystrophy' and had to be hospitalised.
It was no new thing for me. I had to be hospitalised frequenlty for physiotherapy. Plus, being anaemic didn't help my condition any better.
It wasn't that this condition was life threathing or it shortened my life expectancy but seeing other kids playing, running around and achieveing things that I too wanted to, while being bed-ridden easily made me feel inferior infront of them.
And after realising that it would stay like this for the rest of my life made me even more socially withdrawn.
Ever since I recall, my attendance on hospital was more than my attendance on school.
I should be happy that I could even attend the school.
I took the same path I had walked since forever, passed by the same Sakura tree under the clear blue sky. Any one would have said it was a beautiful day but for me it was no any different.
Not being able to enjoy these little things, not being able to feel anything and not knowing excitement was a normal thing for me. Maybe it was also because there was no one with me to enjoy it together.
I really thought the rest of my life looked like this.
For some reason, I could never see myself smiling in the future. Maybe it was meant this way.
Well, that's what I thought until I saw you.
Even though you were surrounded by others, you stood out.
In homeroom, I realised we were in the same class.
When you introduced yourself as 'Ryu kyousuke'. I repeated the name in my head over and over again, not being sure why I did it.
Looking at you interacting with other kids on the first day without any prolem made me envious of you. You had the capacity to easily blend with others and even lead them without any problems. You were what we call a born leader.
While having these thoughts, I found myself always looking at you, my eyes always following you. And you were smiling everytime, I saw you. How much I wished that you noticed me too. How much I wished I could also be one of the people who were by your side.
But it was all a dream, as I lacked presence and the courage to speak eith you. You were light and I was a mere shadow, existing together but worlds apart.
Maybe just maybe it was made possible by the tiniest chance or maybe it was a miracle which made it possible for my dream to come true. It was possible for you to speak to me.
For the first time, I was thankful for my weak body. I was thankful that I was anaemic and thankful that you were the one to bring me to the nurse's office after I collapsed.
After waking up at the nurse's office alone, it made me upset but that feeling was nothing new. But then when you entered with a bright smile and my bag on your shoulder. I felt really happy at that moment but you won't believe even if I told you cause I couldn't smile like you did.
Even after I ressured you that I was alright, you insisted to take me home since you were still worried that I might faint. Being a guy I know it is weird to be happy but seeing you being worried for me, I was the happiest.
You tried to make small talk during our walk to my home, you even asked me random questions while I awkwardly tried to answer them. You smiled throughout our walk.
It may not mean much to you but yoi were the first one to walk home together with me. The outlook I had of you changed totally.
Initially, I thought you were only some bright guy with a lot of charisma but now I knew that the it was not just some charisma that made others and me attract towards you but it was the feeling of belonging you gave. The atmosphere you could create where even a person like me could express themselves made you charismatic.
Just like that I hoped to get more closer to you. I hoped to be your friend and more than that I hoped that I could smile with you again.'
'You were the reason I wanted to change.'
-Ren.
This is actually a part of one of my story but seemed fun to end it like this, since it has a lot of potential to let the readers draw out their creative imaginationary endings.
