1...1...2.....5...7.....45.....I can see them all....
I just wanna close my eyes and pretend like I didn't see it,but what have been seen can't be unseen....
I once had that person I could call my everything...
I once had that person,whose smile lighted up my world....
He was so kind and caring...he was the one who saw me for who I really was, while everyone saw me has the weird and crazy kid
My whole life I was bullied, mistreated and got abandoned by my parents because I was weird and because I could see them all
Because of that I pretended like I couldn't see them to fit in society.....
I watched them all reach the edge and fall.....
But he knew I could see them but he still accepted me for who I was
For that I will forever be grateful....
But time passed,things changed....I changed but he was still the same with that bright smile....
It never changed....he never changed.....
I knew that he was almost at the edge....
I knew he had one left, but I didn't say anything.....
I knew he was almost the end for him but I didn't say anything.....
Afraid of what people will say,I shuted my mouth, covered my ears and closed my eyes.....
I knew he had no more time....
I knew he had used up all his number on me...
I knew....and he knew but his smile never changed...
His love for me never changed....
That day he knew everything but he still chased after me...
That day to wipe my tear he crossed the road... knowing he will never make it....
That day I could have shouted and tell him to stop,but I didn't.....
I stood there knowing he had one left,watched him crossed the road to get to me....
I stood there watching people shouting at him to be careful and that he was in danger
I stood and watched him as he got crushed by the truck.....
I watched him smiling at me like it was nothing as he was dying
I watched him mutter these words "I love you Migael and that will never change no matter what"
I watched him give me the most beautiful smile that someone who loves you unconditionally would give you
With these words my Beautiful Ethan who never changed took his last breath in front of me....
That day I lost the only person who loved me....
That day he was gone...and it was all because of me
That day I understood that Ethan never stopped caring and loving me till the end...
While I....i turn my back from him and killed him because I didn't want to be different from the others
And today I have to live with this guilt and watch him die every life,I have to suffer for what I did to him for what I gave him in turn of his unconditional love,I had to suffer because that was my punishment from heaven for killing him.....
You might think the heavens was cruel on me but I don't think it was.....
After all I killed the one and only son of heaven......
