Rihanna always asked; if something magical like Hogwarts happen to me, What I gonna do? I smiled and Ignored her. Cause I never had faith on things like magic, God or ghost and anything like Paranormal. I never celebrate Christmas with the faith of Santa's gift or Easter-Eve with the hope of easter gifts. Never I believed in after life or next life , Hell or Heaven. I just had faith on me and my today.
But everything changed just in sec.....when that day, I decided to take my life. It wasn't easy to choose. But I was hopeless to ever having a magical life what I never had. So I decided to leave my all counted breathes and never open those eyes to see the world , to feel the touch, to have the love.....
But life might decided something eles for me. I left the world of humans and when I first open my eyes I feel a room, standing in a bar-looking box. I found my hands are tied like a criminal and I was in a black dress, surround by some unknown faces. They were busy with themselves and whispering to eachother. Their looks towards me was like a criminal with numerous hate and disgust. They were dressed like attorneys in movies . And the public gallery was filled with people in black suit and blazer.
Then sudden a bell ring for three times ..... Dong ..... Dong .... Dong . People become silent and a man with black long coat and red tie enter in the room. All the others standu up and bow to him. The Man look-like-law nod his head and sit on the chair look-as-throne. He take the gavel put on the table's side and act on the table to spell 'Start'.
I was all in a maze and I wake up for the second time, come to sence. A man from the side table of the room come to the center of the room and say, " With my all respect to Lord Yama, Sir, today our defendant is a woman Miss Zaillien Agnuss who did the heaviest crime of Humanitory Law And Defense Majority - take her own life. And for this unforgiven crime, as a prosecutor and a mirror of Hell & Heaven Law Department, I want Myeloid to punish this lady heavily for her crime and sentence her to burn in Hell-Fire for 5 life-time of an average human and reborn as a parasite in next life". These words pass by my ears and I look at the judge, like an Idiot. Sudden my brain catch all the things and I shout out with sense an a reel of questions, " What! ..... What's happening. What is this... where am I ? Who r you and what punishment?" The room was again reach in chaos of peoples whisper. And the Man who claiming himself as a prosecutor yell at me " How dare you cowered Human ! How can you behave like this in a court, infront of the God of Law, Lord Yama ?" The Man look-as-law speak with his shirll voice," Order to Silence." The whole courtroom become silent and I feel his aura, what shiver my whole body with a chill. He poind his eyes at me and speak , " Defendant , do you agree to receive you punishment or you have anything to say at you're defense?" I speak out, " wait... where am I? Is it a dream? Am not dead? I remember ..... I attend Suicide... So what happen then?"
The sound of whispers become more chaotic and they like blaming me for some reasons. I realize that time, the all things I bother to believe is real and what I realize more is ..... My heart isn't beating and my body isn't in a solid format. So I guess , I'm dead. And here in the justice ground of my after-life course. But that was not the end. Like what, in every frictional stories , a tiny thing change you're life and all ...... Exactly that happen with me.
"You may still not stable, You soul may still suffering and in a lost so you come to sence little late. But Human, you're already dead and so for attending suicide, You are now judging by Lord Yama...." before the court reporter finish, I speak out "the God of Law". He nod his head slightly. I look down at my feets. The court was totally silent,no breathing......no ticking. I get, what It's feel when life stop. But then Yama break the Silence and say, " If you have nothing to justifie, then ......." I look up at him and shout " Nooo.... Wait !.... I have". For the first time in life, after dead, I regret for something. I never ever knew the meaning of life. I chose death to escape from pain. And now they are punishing me by burning my soul in Hell-Fire. Is life that unfair to me? I come out with the words "No .... I don't think I deserve anymore pain. I had enough when I was alive. I chose this way to escape from the pain I was suffering from ..... The life I had, was a hell, I don't want to feel the same again ..... I also wanted to live, but the life I was living wasn't life...... I deserve better and I believe I live better if I had a better chance". It's all chaos of whispers again. Yama bang his hammer and say, " So you are saying , life was unfair to you? Listen woman , You chose how to live, so you are the reason of your fall". " How can I ? I never chose to be an orphan. I never chose my best friends death. I never chose the man I loved to cheat me ..... I never chose any of them. I simply chose a life to live, a better one.... I deserve .... Not this one". I speak out all my mind within a breathe , even I have no breathes then. " So you think that highly of yourself ?" " Yes, I think of ..... Is not that call confidence, a sign of self-love? And now, I don't think I did any heavy crime of Humanitory Law And Defense Majority. I believe I deserve better and fair judgment." I was in little fear but now what I feel is , if I want to survive ..... I have to play.
Yama smirk a little and judge me with his sentence " Well played. You are a wise one. But what you did was wrong. So you have to pay for that." court was all in chaos again. I guess my plan work but his aura and voice feel me, if I still own a heart its rip out immediately. " Miss Zaillien Agnuss, as you are claiming your life unfair and blaming our Authority , I as the Law protector of After-Life sentence you with a new life and giving you the chance to prove yourself that you deserve better......" till that , it was a Okay deal but the next words of him bring me to today's life. " And I'm giving you this life for 6 months to prove yourself. And also a task to fulfill. If you pass, you can live your life at your demand." All the courts faces are stunned by his sentences and I have no words to split.
Yama stand and speak " I , the Dharma , giving you the power to see the peoples suicide rate at their overhead and the mission to convince them to continue to live. You have to save at list 15 lives to pass the test or eles you soul will recollect here and you will sentence to burn at Hell-Fire for 7 human lives."
Now It's feel so heavy and my eyes and head hurts. I'm laying on a grassland and the sun hitting me and I'm surrounded with Unknown peoples and they have a Number at their overhead . I guess it's time to work. After-all EVERYONE DESERVED A SECOND CHANCE TO LIVE BETTER AND BEAUTIFULLY ~