this dame life of mine is really complicated. People loves me , hates me , envy me , care for me , sad because of me , angry at me ? it's normal right ? but there is only one person to whom I want to prove my worth . but they don't get me like I want them to . every day of my life is full of happiness, sadness, crying, laughing, faking a smile. but it's normal for everyone as there are many people who don't get us . well still there is an uneasy felling inside of me it's like I lose something or someone, like I feel a big black hole inside of me that drains all my felling. even if my day was full of happiness not sadness no crying no faking a smile, but still I feel alone , I feel hurt , I feel like crying, feel like strangling myself to death , putting and end to this life and let's see if everyone is happy after I am gone. I feel depressed, not loved enough. I am feed up of me being completely ignore. I feel broken 💔.
Every day my life is a mess
but I learned to compromise and fit in
but still I feel some water uneasy
when I am alone in my room
stairing at the empty , black , boring ceiling
I fell lost , broken , like a failure, loser , a bad daughter, embarrassing for my family.
WHY DO I FEEL LIKE THIS WHEN I AM ALL ALONE I MY BEDROOM , STAREING AT MY BORING CELING AT THE END OF THE DAY ?