it's already midnight
and I'm at my rooftop..
and watching the stars..
I'm so alone
but seeing these stars I'm feeling
like they're saying
that "we are with you"
I'm so afraid about my future
and I cry whenever I remember
my past
people say I cry in little things
but do they even know
the real reason behind my tears
well I don't have anyone...
and I don't care about what
anyone says
but...
I wanted someone...
yes I want someone to love me
I want someone to understand me
but my wants are just wants
I never gets what I want
I never gets what I like
why am I so unlucky....
just why???
I'm just tired ...
I'm tired of my life
I'm tired of putting fake smiles
I'm tired of hiding my emotions
I'm tired of crying without letting anyone know
I'm tired of everything
I'm exhausted.....
I'm so alone...
ok then let me more alone
just leave me alone..
can I go somewhere where there
will be noone...
well...
what actually happens after dying??
I want to die!! ..
but even this death don't wants me!!
I had tried to attempt suicide two times
both times I failed..
I want to try it again
but I am just afraid
that this time also I'll fail
or may I just....
