FATE...

Is it our fate..? to stay like this... to be not be able to see each other for years... am I the only one missing you... am I the only one being lonely without you..?

I have lots of questions in my mind but I never get a single answer of any.. why..? I want to change all this shit...!! do you know how hard it was for me to get your contact.. I was too nervous back then..!

I rarely get to chat with you... whenever we chat you say I made your day and then say you have something to do.. but have you ever asked me that if I have something else to say..?

do you know I have lots of things to say to you.. lots of things to patch up with you... but what about you.. do you have any..? do you miss me..? do you have lots of things to say to me..? do you ever feel a empty space in your heart without me.?. and do you feel the lonely nights how long it is without you to spent... ?

ever since you left me without leaving a single note it was hard for me.. I am not the one I was when I was with you... I changed myself completely.. but do you know that.. after so many years when I got to talked to you again.. you were completely a different person to me.... the person whom I never knew.... I didn't knew anything bout you... except your birthday.....so i stayed excited for your birthday thinking that i could wish after many years... but what you did.. you didn't even talked to me that day..

the deals we make together are you sure we can fulfill them..? do you have the guts to say we will fulfill our promises together...?

I want to know why fate played such a big game with us that twisted our destiny... I hate iit.!!don't want this kind of destiny... a destiny without you... I can't see you nor can I touch you.. I only know that you exist in a corner of the world where I can't reach you... and you know what I have had enough of this life...!!! I am going to change our fate.. I am going to find you ,hold you and fulfill the life we wanted... I will not let fate take away my belongings..

this feeling of loneliness I won't let it hamper me...

even if this is fate I don't believe it.. let's do it together.. let's prove it together that we are meant to be together we are suppose to be together... just wait their where you are I will reach their it will just cost few years for me to reach you.. but please be patient please.......

I have lots of things to tell you.. lots of things to enjoy with you... and lots of memories to share with you... it will be only possible when I will find you.. and I will definitely get you....cuz fate can't stop me heavens have to listen to me.. cuz it's my life and you are my decision.... so please wait for me I will be their...

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