𝙷𝚒𝚒, 𝙸'𝚖 𝙱𝚕𝚞𝚎 (𝚠𝚎𝚕𝚕 𝚒𝚝'𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚖𝚢 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕 𝚗𝚊𝚖𝚎)
So let's begin...
It was my first day in middle school, when I saw her (let's call her Dane) for the first time.
I never paid much attention towards her, until one day..
It was a nice summer day, when I wanted to get rid off some other girls in school.
They were just dragging me to have lunch with them and I was too sweet to deny. There was another girl, Sneha, who was friend of mine. She called Dane to ask her for help.
Dane was bold! Really bold! She was nice as well, I thought to myself I'm saved!!!! Yesss I'm saved.
She came towards us and pulled me towards her.
I was like wahhhhh, what's she doing!!
Then I came back to my senses.
I know it was really small thing 😂 but I was a child back then.
After that we became friends, really close friends.
All day she used to talk to me, in school, at home (on call), we always meet after school to hang out.
We were best friends. Great! I was happy.
I knew her better than anyone else, and I started to like her.
I started feeling jealous when she was around other guys.
But I knew she just liked me as friend.
We are in Secondary School now,
many times I thought to tell her, but I always pull myself back.
I always think, "Nopeee you're not confessing anything, you'll scare her if you did so!!"
Sometimes I used to over react on many things like, her going out with some guys or even girls.
I even ignored her for some days and it didn't much affected her.
She was neutral, like nothing happened. My love and care was all in vain, until someone would accept it.
Days turned into weeks and weeks into months, it was my birthday, yayyy!!!!
I was excited, I called her and tell that I am throwing a party at XX cafe, I called few of my friends to join.
At the time of arrival I called her.
"Where are you!?" I asked on call.
"Well..... about that, I'm not in mood to come." she replied.
"You know it's my birthday and I wanted you to be here...... with me, if your parents didn't allow, I can talk to them." I said.
"No... it's not like that......"
after some silence, she said, "okay fine, I'll be there."
I was happy now.
She brought me a gift and a pair of rings, she whispered in my ears, "I have a ring for you, and I wanted to give you." I was on Cloud Nine!!!
"But I'm just lil shy to give in front of all of them." she said.
"No no no no, I want it in front of them, cmon! give me now." said I.
She agreed.
She proposed me in front of everyone (but it was not a love confession 😭, she just wanted me to be with her as best friends, but still I was happy, I couldn't be more happier than that!!!!)
Her words were so heartwarming, it was so great...
After that day, I cherished that ring.
But one day......
We fought so badly,
Everyone was trying to stop me crying, and she was just keep taunting me.
I removed the ring and gave to one of my friend.
Dane gave her ring as well.
That one friend, took both the rings and threw in dustbin.
Can you imagine..... what would be my condition that day....
I even thought that I'll take those rings out from dustbin but it was too late, the dustbin was clear....
I lost it...
I lost the bond I had....
After coming home, I cried, I cried so hard.
All day I was in my room trying to stop crying, else my mom would find out.
I didn't went to school for some days.
One day my friend call me and told me that our exams going to start, I better come to school.
Then I started going school...
Only few months were left in completing my secondary school.
I focused on studies and thought I would leave this school and try finding a new place for me.
My exams were over now, felt little relieved.
Why.....
Why this emptiness now...
Why it was me!
Why she was the one who's happy and I'm crying...
Why she was the one who moved on and I was still trying...
I couldn't leave the school because I wanted to see her.
I started feeling happy seeing her smiling face,
I thought she's happy then why do I bother much, let's leave everything behind and stay happy.
Her parents would still call me asking her whereabouts and I would just reply, she's safe with me. I'll bring her home on time.
They didn't know a single thing.
Summer break was over and we were in hight school.
We started talking a lil bit, I thought I can gain everything I lost...
How foolish I was...
Someone else was holding my place...
Someone else was there wiping her tears, instead of me.
Someone else was feeding her.
Someone else was taking her home.
I was.....
nothing now
No matter how much I try to stay happy, she would always come to my mind.....
One day I was checking her story on social media and saw some pictures (there was a group of 4 friends, Me, Dane and 2 others, we clicked some photos before during our hang outs)
It was friendship day so she posted those pictures,
They cropped me from those photos.....
I was speechless, I never thought they would do something like this.
I mean....
It was not my fault from the starting, I just wanted to stay with her...
I changed my school.
Started a new life...
But now I kept my distance from everyone.
I started staying alone...
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-𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙴𝙽𝙳
