stare at the wall
walk till u subconsciously do
escaping from what is done
round and round u move
find yourself lingering in the past
while u linger in the past, Change what has already been done
2018 was hell
next year would be better for sure
but I find myself back all the way, 4 years ago
dreams will occur when you've forgotten all about it
reminders they become but what is next isn't compared to the rest
walk till your feet turn red your subconscious mind speaks
scenarios with music are the last of you anyways
walk for as long as you can
it is your own self that caused this , don't fret
it became a coping mechanism
smiles My friend
atleast it's healthy , keep it up okay?
I look at myself in the mirror , what a shame this is
wasted all those hours , coping for something long gone, what gives?
I smile at myself
atleast I care
must I suffer much from all despair
alone in the dark solitude yet not dead?
no I have friends and that's why I'm here
If they weren't here and i didn't have anyone to look at
is be dead , decomposed and gone
happily my darling I look up
i would happily be with you
foolish soul of yours said live long
I won't live for u , I stand next to and beside u
I laugh
pain
is what I am in
my laugh unmasked makes a sorrowful face
don't ask why my love
I don't want to say you're the reason why
you gave me happiness for as long as u were..
can't expect to be fed on your happiness forever
didn't know it would be that short lived though
would've came up to you and let all the tears out if I had known
u came and left like the breeze
I hold onto it with my last breath
I beg the mighty to bring it back
the sun
the cold bristling air that smoothly swished as if it went through my flesh
I tear up whenever I see any light
reminds me of when u used up your flash to help me get away from my darkest time
your battery ran out and u hugged me and said
silly u don't need anyone to hold up a flash so you'd feel safe
you need a home, and I'm right here and still
so just hold yourself together for a while
I'll make sure you'll feel just alright
I beg of u say it again
I rain everyday to see that face
If I am lost
just bring yourself here
I beg of u
I'm scared of graves
even so I'm more scared to see u there
