How will my life have been for me if I didn't marry him, my life would be better than this.
I sat on the chair with my bruised face as I started remembering how my life came to this extent.
I remember when the first time my mom told me about the marriage contract, I was happy because I was finally marrying the person I've been in love with for the past seven years.
The sad part was the marriage wasn't for love but a business proposal.
My parent company was going into bankruptcy and needed someone to invest in the company, who will ever put their money on some company that will soon shut down. No one would do that not until my Dad seek the help of an old friend of his, who agreed on the condition that I was going to get married to his son and my father agreed, being so disparate.
The wedding went as planned but I knew I was getting into something big, marrying a person who doesn't love, a one-sided love.
All my pain and suffering started on the night after the wedding.
on the night of my wedding, I put on the lingerie mom gave me as a wedding gift and sat patiently on the bed waiting for my newly wedded husband to come and fulfill his duty.
minutes pass, hours pass still no sign of him, I got tired of waiting till I fell asleep that night still he didn't show up.
The next morning, I woke up, stood up from the bed, and walked into the kitchen to prepare breakfast.
a few minutes later I was done making breakfast, I serve myself and started eating my breakfast.
After eating my breakfast, I stood up pack my dishes, and clean up the table and also the house.
I was done cleaning up the house, I walked into the room to have a shower and change into something new.
I walked out of the bathroom after showering, I went to my closet to pick out something to wear.
I wore my dress, fell flat on the bed as I drifted to sleep.
The alarm woke me up, I stood up and look at the clock, it was seven o'clock on the dot.
oh my god, I slept for so long. I stood up and ran to prepare dinner before he comes because I had a feeling he was going to come back today and right.
I was done cooking ready to serve myself when he stormed in, he staggered as he came in, just then I knew he was drunk because I could perceive the smell of alcohol.
I ran to him to assist him so he won't fall to the ground while trying to walk but instead, he pushed me hard making to land on the floor.
I don't your help, he said as staggered into the room.
as a good wife, I followed behind to assist him in case he fell.
inside the room, he fell flat I the bed without removing the clothes and shoes he was wearing.
I manage to remove the shoe as I lie down on the bed too, I wasn't the type that eats alone when I got company.
The light from the sun shines into my eye through the window, I woke up.
I stood up, went into the bathroom to have my bath before going to the kitchen to make breakfast for the two of us.
I came out with a towel tied to my body, I look at the bed he was still sleeping peacefully. I wore comfortable clothes and left for the kitchen to prepare breakfast.
I was done cooking, I set the food on the table waiting for his arrival.
Just then, he walked out of the room all dressed.
where are you going to, I asked?
It's none of your business, where I decided to go to.
I'm your wife for crying out loud.
when did I accept you to be my wife, you're just a contract, you're father sold you out because of money.
what he said hurt me in my heart, I couldn't hold back the anger so I slapped him. you don't have the right to talk about my father in that way.
He held his cheek" Did you just slap me.
I'll do it again if you talk ill of my father.
Today, you're going to regret ever laying your hand on my face, he shouted angrily.
All the years I've known him I've never seen him this angry before, if only I knew what I was getting myself into I wouldn't have laid my hand on him.
He held me by my hair and drag me into the room.
you're hurting me, I cried in pain.
inside the room, he lash me with a belt and left me almost lifeless, he walked out of the room and lock the door behind.
I tried standing up but the pain I was feeling was too much, I just lay on the floor and cried till I fell asleep.
when I woke up, I look at my boy the bruise I sustained had become visible. I managed to get up, I went to the door to check if it was open, luckily for me the door was unlocked.
I opened the room and walked out, I met him in the parlor watching the news.
as he sighted me he stood up and walked up to me, I felt scared as I watch him come towards me.
different questions start popping up in my head, was this the guy I had been loving for the past seven years.
I'm sorry for what I did to you, can you forgive me?.
I look at him with tears in my eyes, how could he do this to me?
I nod my head in approval, what if I said no, I don't know what next he will do to me.
Thank you, I promise I'll never lay my hand on you.
I nod but deep inside I knew it was just the beginning when a man starts beating his wife, he can never stop.
I'm hungry, go prepare something for me to eat.
How could he be so heartless, after beating me now he wants me to cook in this state.
There's the food I prepared last night, I store it in the fridge can I bring those for you?.
No, I want a newly cooked meal. now, get going and don't waste time.
okay.
I didn't want to argue with him, I went into the kitchen and started cooking.
some minutes later, I was done cooking, I set the food on the table and called him to the table.
He sat in his seat and took a spoonful of the food to eat.
"spit it out" Jesus, jade, do you want to poison me. is this what you called food, are you trying to pay me back by trying to poison me with food.
what was he talking about, I was a good cook even his parents commend me on that, why is he complaining. I quickly take a spoonful of the food to check how bad the food was to my surprise the food was good.
There's nothing wrong with this food.
are you trying to call me a liar
No im not but there is nothing wrong with it.
You said there's nothing wrong with the food, he stood up and drag my hair. How dare you call me a liar, when I said there something is wrong then that's it.
please don't hurt me, I haven't recovered from what you did to me not quite long.
he looked at me for some minutes still holding my hair, forgetting the fact I was human I feel pain.
I know how to punish you this time.
I got so scared, what was he planning to do to me this time.
He drag me by the hair into the room, this time he didn't lash me but pushed me on the bed making to land hard.
He looked at my body and smiled viciously, I'll make you feel like a woman that you'll wish I never did that.
At first, I didn't understand what he meant not until he started taking off his clothes that I realise what he was about to do.
He tore off my clothes and held me right, I kept struggling to free myself, I didn't want my first time to be this horrible, he was about to take my virginity by force.
please don't do this to me, I cried out.
But all my pled fell into deaf ears as he forced himself on me, he made me feel like dying as he brutally assaulted me.
I had never felt this type of pain, hot tears dropped from my eyes as I watched him brutally use me to his satisfaction, with me feeling so powerless.
I lay on the bed and wept bitterly after he got off me.
why are you doing this to me, I said as tears kept oozing out of my eyes.
Because I love seeing you in pain.
I was naked, I try using my turned clothes to cover my body when he took them away from me.
Are you trying to cover yourself, do you feel ashamed after I've used your slut body.
don't forget your father sold you, he also sold chaste, dignity, and shame as a woman so you don't need to cover up because this is just the beginning, he said and went into the bathroom.
I cried, why does he always have the means to hurt my feelings. I can't stand this ill-treatment from him, I want to go home.
I kept crying till sleep took over me.
I felt a splash of water on me I woke up.
oh my God, you fell asleep with the stain of your virginity blood on you, do you have any shame at all.
I try to stand up as my leg trembled to make me land back on the bed.
I can't stand up, can you help me to the bathroom?.
never, stand up on your own and stop being a baby and go wash before I lash on you, he said as he left the room.
I managed to stand up with my trembling legs, the pain I felt below was unexplainable. I walk slowly to the bathroom, holding anything I can find on the way.
the next morning, I felt a little better, I started packing my clothes into the box ready to leave this hell of a house.
I walked out of the room holding my box ready to leave when he stopped.
where are you going to?
Back to my family.
who permitted you to leave? do you know that once you walk out of this house everything is over? The money my father invested in your dad's company will be revoked, do you want to leave why your father lose everything he has worked for?
do you know how life will be for you once you walk out of this marriage, you will wish you never left?
I just stood there speechless, he was right, once I leave my father will lose everything he was trying to protect and I don't want that to happen.
I let go of my bag as it fell to the floor.
You see I'm right, you're nothing without me, now go in and drop your things.
when you're done with that, come out let's have breakfast, I'll cook.
I carried my bag back to the room, I stayed in for some time before coming out to eat.
Two weeks later
for two weeks now, the thing has been going smoothly, he changed a little after I told him I wanted to go home.
This time he does the cooking, he buys gifts for me but that didn't stop him from fucking me anytime he, please.
it was a sunny afternoon, I sat beside the pool suddenly I felt like throwing up, I ran into the bathroom to throw up. I was done, I came out feeling weak and tired.
Hope you are fine, do you want me to take you to the doctor?.
No, I'm fine.
I don't think so because you're looking sick, go dress up let's go see the doctor.
Frank, im fine there's no need to see the doctor.
since you're so stubborn I'll call my doctor to come to see you here.
he pick up his phone and dial the number, he went away to answer his call
Does he care about me or pretending to be, I kept thinking.
I should stop thinking and expecting too much.
The doctor will soon be here
as he said, the doctor arrived not quite long. He examines me and asks me questions to which I gave answers.
what's wrong with my wife, Frank asked?
Nothing serious to worry about.
If it's nothing serious, why does she keep throwing up?
Because she's pregnant, congratulation bro.
what! that can't be possible, she can't be pregnant are you sure you examined her well?.
Yes, I did, Your wife is pregnant.
fine, getting going I have things to discuss with my wife before I get back to you.
okay, bro, this is the part where I start going.
The doctor left, judging from his facial expression I knew he wasn't happy about this child.
I don't want this child, get rid of it.
what! you can't be serious.
I said I don't want this child, now I don't want to be a father even if I want a child its can't be with you.
His words always find a way to hurt my feelings, does he know how much I love him?. for the last seven years, I've been having feelings for him I've always wished to be his wife and be a mother to his children. why does he want to take away this happiness from me, I won't let him do that.
No, I don't want to, I'm not aborting this baby I want to keep it.
Are you opposing me, you got some nerve.
Frank, this child is innocent, I can't hurt an innocent child because you don't want to be a father.
Don't say I didn't warn you if by tomorrow this child is still in your womb, I'll make you regret disobeying me. "he left"
I won't let his threat get to me, I'm not going to hurt this child, I'm keeping it.
I look at my belly as I caress it gently, Don't worry baby I'm going to protect you.
I felt a little tired, I walked into the room to sleep for a while, I lay flat on the bed as sleep endowed me.
I woke up when I felt hands touching all parts of my body, I sat up quickly. Frank, sat some inches away from me.
what are you trying to do?
what do you think I'm about to do, I want to make love to my wife.
I can't, I'm pregnant.
I don't give a fuck if you are pregnant, now let's get back to business.
"He started touching me".
Frank, please, not tonight I'm not feeling well enough to have sex.
And when do you start having a say in when to have sex, I always have the say and what I want is to touch you now.
Please, Frank, let's leave it for tomorrow, then you can use me anyhow you want, please not now.
Jade, I don't want to force you so don't push me to do so. Now, sleep your legs lets me get what I want then I can let you be.
Frank please, I said with tears in my eyes.
" Angry" Fine, you left me no choice but to do it the hard way.
He held me forcefully, I tried fighting back but got a slap in return. He pushed me on the bed not minding if I was hurt by the way he pushed me.
He forcefully spread my legs apart as he came on me, I felt powerless as before.
The pain I felt this time when he started banging me was more than what's I've felt before, all those times he forces himself on me.
it felt like he gathered all the hatred he had for me as he kept sexing me brutally.
I close my eyes in pain as tearing keeps rushing out of my eye like rainfall.
suddenly I felt a very painful pain in my stomach, it felt like something was leaving my body. I use my hand to touch my lap and then I saw blood on my hand.
I screamed out, my baby.
Frank, you've killed my baby.
I could see the horror and the regret in his eyes but it was too late, he killed my baby.
He stood up from my body as he saw the blood oozing out.
what have I done, he blurted out?
With tears in my eyes, I managed to sit up. Are you now satisfied, now that you've taken away the only source of happiness I had since we got married?
was it a crime to fall in love with you, For the past seven years I've been wishing to be your wife and be the mother of your kids?
why is it so hard for wishes to come true, even if it did it never end well?.
I could see the shock on his face when he had I'd been in love with him for seven good years.
We can still make things work, I'm ready to change and be the man you've always wanted me to be.
I laughed in pain, I don't think that's possible.
I stood up from the bed, went to the table, and picked up a scissor.
what are you planning to do, he stood up and ran to me but it was too late.
I stab the scissor into my heart, he caught me in his arm when I was falling to the fall.
Why did you do that, he asked in tears?
I hate you, I said trying to breathe.
He watched in horror seeing me gasp for air.
I held his hands tight, if there was a next life, I wished never to fall in love with you, then I shut my eyes.
The End💋
