No one knows how I really feel, no one knows the pain inside me...
They all know that i'm happy, doesn't have any problems...but the truth is... all of that is just fake
At first its so hard to pretend that I'm fine, and kinda hard to fake my smile...its so hard to stop the tears flowing into my eyes every time I remember all the pain...
But of course I need to fake it...I need to lie that i'm fine every time they ask me "are you OK?" or "How are you? are you doing fine?" and I always answer them that I'm fine...i...always answer them with the lie that im OK..I always answer that i'm doing fine, even i'm not really doing fine...
Because I don't want them to worry about me, I don't want to be one of their problems, I don't want to bother them
That's why I keep hiding all my pain to them
At least I got use to it...I got use to hide all the pain...
It's just hard from the beginning...but we'll get use to it...
