Black

We become friends in 10th grade... he(Riyan) is Kind of bestfriends to me(Anna)...

He gave me name "Blacky". "Blacky give me water....

Blacky givee notes.... Blacky lend me money to buy snack..... Blacky teach me this sum...". Whatever he wants he will ask me.... Othersmay think we are in relationship if he hadn't have a girlfriend(Riya) at that time.

She(Riya) is our junior, But me and her... I don't know why she don't like me. When we were 10th grade... I don't have cellphone so I was using my mom's phone. End of 10th grade.. He asked me a favour.. And I was willing to help .... " I'll give you Riya's number... As she don't have your number... you text her as a Max(He told a name and where that Max works). and tell me... What she replies" ...

well I thoght it is to prank her.. Or for fun... But I didn't expect that.... ... She beleived that I'm Max... And how she replied is some way Of flirting.... I forwarded the msg to Riyan.. Then He said "ok thank you".

I know he was upset... literally a betrayal. I was curios... but I didn't ask... After that they brokeup. Afterwards Riya hates me... she don't look at me.. or She rolls her eyes or glares at me...

It's like becouse of me they brokeup.... But Is it true ? What will happen If I hadn't text her as a guy ? will they be together now ? But This might happen later.. as she like other guy.... I was in confusion, stress... But as time pass I forgot that think.

11th grade...Me and Riyan are in same class again... His bestfrnd Alex also become my friend. Both of them making fun of me, asking sums, pens, water ... But after the first semester Riyan s behaviour changed. He stopped texting me. stopped talking to me . only Alex was close. Riyan talks with me but not how he used to... It's ok.. atleast he won't hate me...

In 2 nd semester we were planning for annual day program.. I joined to dance, and Riyan Alex joined to Drama. While we are practicing my friend Miya said "I told him not to do that part in the drama, it's not nice , and he was teasing me in text for my dance... "

I know he was texting her becouse they went to same school al these years and I came in 8th grade.

But I didn't expect that he only texts Miya and not me. Annual day done. We enjoyed a lot while practicing... after a 2-3 months .. He again started texting me... I don't know why ?

But I heard Alex teasing him of Rejected by 2 girls... (I don't mingle usually.. I'll sit on my place and talk whoever around me... In the lunch hour and after the school leaves I'll go with my friends so I don't know what has happened). (Even though Alex is my friend He don't share boys thing). And I asked my friends they said....

"Riyan praposed to Leena (New student came in 11th grade) but she refused and told something hurtfull to him" ... I felt bad inside... I don't know why ? Is it becouse He was rejected by her ? or Becouse he praposed her ?

"It's none of my business" I thought my self... but again who is another girl ? And I asked Alex casually.. He said Miya also rejected him. as she already have someone.

Well Ok... Both rejected Him .. He was texting me... And time passed.. It's exam time now... so we got holiday to study for exam... But I came to college.. And was teaching my friends Riyan and Alex. And One more guy. who sit front of me.

Riyan was texting me frequently.. but this time his texts were like flirting type... I don't like it.. But I didn't stop him from talking..

I set a rule for my life.. I will not be in relationship till I finish my study. But I broke that rule. I already fell for him ... But I didn't realised. Am not a pretty and beautiful. He gave me name Blacky becouse I'm Black. So I didn't have a hope of someone loving me.

After Exam again we started to text... And I got my sister's old mobile. and also her old simcard. So in holiday I was talking to him. He used to call me.

One day He praposed me... I was so happy that I ask him time to think .. But I said Yes before night.

I was so happy... becouse that is my first love. He was so caring... loving... and as time passes... My mom find out. But I told her there is nothing between us.

And In class we talk more and more all my classmates my juniors finds out about us... The whole college knew about our love. And one of them is his Ex . Also our junior. But she don't care... He don't care... So I don't care. But I don't know who told to our lecturers They seemed to be different.. taunting us while lecturing. Deducting marks from my exams. (I'm good in studies) And they made me fail in my hatest subject. theory part. I don't dare to ask for mask. So I accepted. what I got.

They even call me for councelling and told me that.. ""He won't marry you.. Do you know your difference ? Do you think he will be with you after you go from here. ?""

What they said is true.. But I trusted him.. And I was so sure he will not do like that....

when I went back to class He was crying... And that time I knew it he will not leave me.... I even told my Mom about my relationship and at first she didn't approve but later she said... "It's not like Im accepting.. you have to take good score then I'll approve properly" - That means it's Yellow signal.

Exams time .. but something happened before the 2 weeks of Final exam starting.

Only the one who has poor grades are coming to college to study... But I still came .. And 1 day I took leave and I told him about that As I'm moving to another home.

The next day I came late but others were looking at me , pitying me... I didn't understand why ?.Then I asked Leena... What happened... Then she said..

"" yesterday you didn't came and Riyan went to beach with our junior. ""' That was like I hit by a thunder. He went with her to beach.

I asked him... He apologized in half hearted. Exam time .. We were together... Now we are going to university. I joined different one. and he took mechanic.

This is where our relationship started to break. I don't have cellphone.. the one which I had was broke. And I can't contact him often. Only in bus I can see him.

And I have to wait for an hour to see him. Time passess. In 4 months our relationship was in edge. Breakup, Patchup, like that. before his birthday I got new phone.

I met him on his birthday. we went to beach spend happy time. And that was the last day of our relationship. Cause. Next day , I late msg, late reply, no calls. after 2 days. I'm blocked..... What ?? How can he block me... Is he playing with me. ?

Alex also going same college as him. so I asked Alex... He's like "I don't know Anna... we haven't met.. And he's not telling anything with me now.... I'll ask him what happened when I meet ok... cause he's not texting me also.."

Ok I waited... for him.He didn't unblock me. half month passed. I assured myself "he might be playing with me to give a surprise to my birthday" End of that month is my birthday so.

And Here comes my birthday.. But no wishes, Still He blocked me. And this is where I realised he brokeup with me.

I was depressed ... Can't do anything, My friends console me. They were like "It's ok leave him, You'll get a better one. Better than him, .... don't do anything like suicide, Don't cry.... Why did you loved him in the first place... Etc etc"

Yes...!! Everyone knows that now we brokeup. Cause such things spread faster. I tried many ways to see him. talk with him. Through my friends. No use.

Some says First love is best love. And some says First love is worst love. For me the second one is right. Worst love ever.

I wanted to ask Reason... Why did he left me.. I knew the reason... But I want to listen from his mouth. Then I'll have a chance to hate him. And the reason

I'M BLACK.