I was just being me until that thing happen. that embarrassing moment, shaped my whole life until to present time. Back then, I was carefree and content, I missed those old days. I really do. If one wish that God can grant me, I will choose to return to old time were I don't feel any misery... and make a straight path where no space for doubt, sorrow and regrets. Realizing it now is too late I can never change the past but facing present time I still have seconds to change the future and make it great without remorse but Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I did that or change it will it still be the same? of what I am or where I am. there are times when I don't want to face the world, but impossible to do. there are many things that some individual don't understand. is it strange ? society does matter but not when they changed your origin. really world is full of fancy matters. sadness happiness or whatever feeling and thought you have is what matter. every individual has their own mindset. creating your own style, deciding, thinking feeling as long it's on the right side it's okay. for those who feel down and depress don't lose hope, I don't know who I'm trying to convince, but it's sound like I'm just fooling myself for believing that life is almost tangible if you achieve the greatest aim of your life. But achieving your goal will it make you content ? a lot of thing spiraling in my mind. just hopefully believing those thing I can aim. for me I'm adapting but some see it as changing, don't need to fix thing that is already built. there are so much more but it ends here.
I apologized for the content it's not fiction but rather the title itself. just expressing to lessen some burden. it's not I don't have some one to talk to but afraid they might not understand and will lead mockery and sorrow.
