I have a Girl best friend...
She is Understanding...
She is Caring...
She is Nice
She Beautiful...
She is almost my Everything...
I feel lucky When I met her... When she stand by my side...
But everyone know... That if one of you already in a relationship... You need to distance yourself for the sake of your love one...
It happens when I fall inlove with someone... I really like her...
I date with her... I spend my whole time with her... And when the time comes she accept me as her boyfriend...
But in exchange I need to distance myself to my best friend...
Yes... I keep my distance myself to my best friend...
I almost forgot about her...
She keep asking me why... During those times I was able to keep ignore her... I don't care about her feelings... I don't even care whether I hurt her or not...
The time passes...
I lost my contacts to her... I don't know What happened... Or how is she doing...
Then I just found out that the woman o choose is keeping me and my best friend apart... I didn't believe when my best friend said that she got a Liver Cancer... The first time I remember her having a diabetes... I promise to her mother that I will look and going to take good care of her ...
But I got blind... I break my promise... I almost lost her...
I regret all the things I do to her...
I regret all the time when I hurt her...
I regret when I keep ignoring her...
That's when I realized that I love her... I keep distance to her... Not because I don't want to be with her anymore...
It's because I'm afraid that if I tell her my real feelings...
Our friendship will change,
That she will dump me...
That she will change in front of me...
I got scared... I almost look at myself like a coward...
That's when I go to her family... She is no longer there... They brought her back in our country to get a medicine she need, And to transfer a liver to her body...
Almost a year... She is already healed... She go back and I feel excited at that time...
I want to apologize to her...
I want to apologize because of the pain that I give to her....
But When my opportunity come... When I already have a courage to talk to her....
She is already changed... She is no longer the best friend I once have... I didn't expect her to accept me or my apologies... I tried again and again... But she blocked me... In all of her social media account... I almost give up... But then I found out that she is using this app... And because I'm desperate to talk to her... I install the app... Then I got a chance to talk to her... I apologize to her... I chat her again and again... But she say to me that she doesn't know me... It hurt me... A lot... It's Hurt because I once feel it... It is when I didn't believe her... Then after that she blocked me again... She thought I was just a random guy whose messing with her...
I got a help from one of closest friend of her here in MT...
Yes... She unblock me... And after she unblock me... She messaged me... I got excited... I open it... Then I read her message... It almost hit me so hard when she say to me that
"Just pretend to don't know me... You did it to me when I need you... So let's just say that you are a Stranger to me now... So leave me alone"
The pain when I reread her message is so damn... I want to curse myself...
It take too long for me to have a courage to talk to her again...
But then, I got a Opportunity again when we are Assign at the same group...
It's our dance practice to HOPE Carreer for our Christmas party...
I tried to message her again... Then ask her that if we don't get along our practice will fall into ruin...
She reply back at me... She said
"I'm not that kind of person who will adjust first... And going to have a first move... So if you want to talk to me do it, I ain't going to make a move unless you do..."
I try to talk to her during our lunch time... But she is just nodding... She isn't talking to me... And then I feel awkward...
She said to me that she already forgive me...
She said she that she already accept my apologies...
Yeah... She keep it... She mean everything... We start to be friends again... I have a feelings for her since first... I confess to her here in MT... but she keep ignoring my confession to her... And I said it to her again...
But she just reply to me that...
"We our just friends, Better don't cross the line"
I know that she still not fully Forgiven me... I can feel it... I don't want to deny it too... After all I cause so much pain to her...
But even if it take too long I'll try harder to get her trust again...
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And that's how I got in here in MT👉👈
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