It is dark outside today.....
dark and silent.....
the silence however seems too loud....
loud enough for me to shut my ears....
I shut my eyes tight, hoping for an escape....
hoping to concentrate on the one thing that keeps me sane in this madness.....
but....
I can't see it.....
I can't see that smile.....
I can't hear it.....
those sweet nothings that you whispered.....
I can't hear that bright laughter.....
all I can feel is emptiness.....
and that emptiness keeps spreading through my body....
my mind....
my soul....
just like cancer....
Was it your fault or was it mine?
I don't know anymore....
honestly I don't want to know....
because I just want this pain....
this anxiety
this hopelessness, I feel, to dissappear....
they say-
learn from mistakes....
but....
were we a mistake?
if we were....
how should I learn....
how should I learn to be unhappy?
cause the time we shared was only happiness to me....
but then again.....
I guess I it learnt well...
cause in this darkness and silence....
I am unhappy.
