Tonight lying in my sheets, I count myself in my cell phone and watching his new news from my favorite band. Then I put on my headphones and play my favorite BTS song "Magic Shop".

This song forgets me all my problems of the day.

i have to be honest with myself and accept reality.

Tonight I have to cry or even say goodbye or even also have to cry since the person I love is far from me or could I say, we live in two different worlds now.

I posted the photo of ourselves in instagram to be proud of being his bestie .

I am an idiot , my heart is hurt when I read our old conversations .

Tonight my heart is so tight that I can't breathe.

You have to take responsibility for what I have done, take responsibility for this helplessness of this false love that I create. You have to stop denying the indisputable because there are things that inevitably hurt me.

My parents are right! I must forget about him and make my life as he did.

I must be happy for him but why this feeling in my tight heart?

So here it is, tonight, under my body in flame and the moon that sparkles with my arrogance and jealousy, I leave you my dear hoping for a world where you and I can be one and I will not forget the night when your lips touched my body. Without you, there is no sense that I exist here.

Farwell my Best friend because without you here beside there is no existence.

so why I feel fear ? why this feeling of regret ? Is bad if I suicide ? Say something ! Jungkook ! Is not you who promises me when you will realise your dream you will comeback to see me and marry me ?

Kim Kae Rin Aka Kara , 21 years old , an ARMY and Fan of BTS group. Her dream is to meet her idol Jeon Jungkook.

Kara meet finally Jeon Jungkook but he didn't recognising her . So she tried suicide after she heard of her arranged wedding from her parents.

She wake up in a world where her parents are dead and there is a testament saying that she should marry the first son of the family Jeon , Jeon Jungkook...

I wake up in a world who is strange to me . I remember that after my return of Japan of fanmeeting with Lucy my sister , I heard that my parents arranged me a wedding to forget Jungkook.

I am currently a secretary personnel of the PDG Kim in a company of family Jeon . My parents are dead and I don't have a little sister neither a big brother .

I received a testament of my dead parents saying that I should marry the first son of the family Jeon, Jeon Jungkook.

I was in the void all days . I was thinking .

" This Jeon Jungkook is the same Jeon

Jungkook? "

" Is my best friend?"

" Why suddenly a wedding?"

Until my phone rings in a message of an anonymous saying that Jungkook is waiting for me in the public park at 4 pm . I took my bag and go hope I found an answer of my questions...