Brief Introduction,

My name is Nikkina my nickname is Nick I'm 19 years old and on my second year of collage

On a normal day, I was on my way home when I received a massage from my best friend Faith, the news I received brought so much joy to me..My friend Daniel has come back from abroad he left 2 year's ago.

He said he will be back after three years, but it only has been 2 year's, I guess he decided to come home 1 year early

As I came home Faith told me that she arranged the three if us to meet with Daniel and hope I can come..

Of course I immediately replied and assured her I will be there without a doubt

After 2 days..

The day I will meet with him again had come, I was so exited, my morning was going perfectly..as I choose to what clothes to wear

At the park..

I saw Faith wave to me as she called my name, I immediately asked "where's Daniel?" Before she responded I heard Daniels voice say

"Here I am, Sorry to keep you two waiting"

His voice was enough to make me feel happy.

The three of us spent the whole day together roaming around and catching up..until faith had to go home to finish school work, It was only me and Daniel together

after we talked and walked through the park, he suggested I go home now, as it was late and can get dangerous at night.

He said that he will walk me home, and I happily agreed

As we walked home, We talked and laughed, I could just hope time will stop there.

I then asked him...

" So where do you stay while looking for a place to rent? "

He replied.

" At faith's house "

"Of course she your sister"

I replied.

He then started talking about a girl, which got me nervous

He said..

"there's this girl by the way, just her presence is enough to make all my sadness and pain go away"

I was shocked and nervous I was afraid to know who this girl was but I still asked in a nervous tone

"Who's this girl"

The next two words he said was enough to break me apart

"My girlfriend"

I couldn't hold back my tears they just start dripping on their own, all what I hoped for to have Daniel with me was all just in my imagination

After he said those words I didn't want him to see me cry, I couldn't ruin his happiness ..so I told him I was fine and that I could walk home from their on my own and rushed back home, without turning back.

As I got back home tears kept streaming down my face..I planned to tell him I love him today, but I guess I was to late.

"Maybe we weren't meant to be together"

The next day I woke up, I stayed in bed hoping if I can just stay there forever.

The thought of Daniel having a girlfriend..I couldn't bear

But I had to get up, and just try to forget my feelings for him

As I checked my phone I can see many missed calls from him.

"Is he worried about me?"

He should just worry for his girlfriend, if he keeps treating me like this his girlfriend will get the wrong idea.

But I decided to just call him back.

As soon as I called him, he immediately picked up..and in such a worried tone he said

"Nikki, are you okay! you rushed off yesterday, what happen?!"

I hated that feeling, I started tearing up again, he only worries for me as a friend or older brother, nothing more.

" I'm okay, I just remembered I had a project to submit the next day, sorry to worry you" I replied..after that he said,

"If there's anything you need, just tell me"

I said "okay" and hanged up

It shocked me how he called me "Nikki" as he is the one who gave me this and the only one who uses this nickname

As I was at school, I couldn't concentrate at all, It was still painful

After class, faith then said.

"Later, the three of us should stop by the bookstore"

I was confused and asked .

"Who's the other one?"

She then answered.

"Of course my brother, Daniel"

I was a bit mad, as I didn't want to see him for now..but I remember he just got back and that he might want to spend time with us I shouldn't be selfish.

But why not spend time with his girlfriend?

We then later met at the bookstore.

As we were looking around, I saw Daniel seem to stare at a book

I asked him

"You like that book?"

He replied

"No, it just reminds me of her"

Controlling my emotions, I put on a fake smile and asked him.

"What's your girlfriend like?"

He then answered.

"She gives the brightest smile, and always put others before her self"

The more he described her, the more it hurt me because that's how Daniel used to describe me.

I thought..

"What if he found someone like me, because I couldn't answer him back then"

I thought of just telling him my feelings, when he returns but..

2 year's ago..

I was at the airport..sending off Daniel as he was going abroad to study

He has always been a good friend to me and seeing him leave was painful

"Be careful there, thats a complete different country"

I said to him in a worried tone.. he then hugged me and said

"Nikki, It really pains me to leave you, I want to stay by your side and be with you, in all of your pain and happiness..but I also want to become someone who can stand by your side and protect you, for the rest of your life"

I didn't understand, why he said those, I was shocked with what he said and didn't move.. As I stood still

He then kissed my forehead and wispers

"I love you and I always will..Wait for me, okay"

My heart was beating so fast and I couldn't respond, I stood still for some time but the moment I came to my senses, I could no longer see Daniel

At that time I was uncertain of what I really felt towards Daniel, but after not seeing him for so long, I then realize how afraid I was of loosing him.. I then knew..

I loved him

but just didn't realize

Now He is back, but I'm to late, I'm no longer the one in his heart, he loves someone else

While now, I'm just his close friend and can be nothing more.

After going to the bookstore, I finally got home, it still hurts but..

I decided to stop crying because of him, and to just be happy he is back and stay as his friend

Him being mine will just remain as my fantasy..I should just be happy for him and move on

After one week..

I received a phone call from Daniel he said, if we can meet up at the old amusement park

I agreed because I noticed his rather sad tone

I arrived at the location, the amusement park was closed down a few years ago, but it's still filled with our happy memories if the past

He them arrives and we sat down as we talked about our memories and all sorts of things, I could just wish if we could go back to those days

After sometime, I then said

"I hope your stay abroad was fine, did you make lots of friends"

He answered..

"I guess, but I didn't go there to have fun, I went there to study and-"

He pause for a moment and then said..

"And to cure my illness"

I was so shocked I didn't know he had an illness...I asked him about it.. and he said

"It's not much of a big deal, don't worry"

I felt relived and scolded him for not telling me earlier

He then just laughed and said.

"Your as cute as ever, Nikki"

Those words made my heart beat faster.. but also annoyed me, since he had a girlfriend

After a few hours of talking he then said

"I really miss the old times"

I replied

"Same, I really miss it to..I only wish we could go back"

After I said that.

Daniel looked at me with a gentle smile..I could tell my face was turning red, but at the same time I felt so worried.

He smiled at me so gently.. but I can see pain in his eyes like his in so much pain

We both pause for a minute and didn't say anything..

But then he suddenly Collapsed and fainted

I was so scared at the moment and could only call faith..

After a few minutes the ambulance arrived and he was rushed to the hospital

At the hospital, I cried and thought to myself

"Daniel, you big liar, you say it wasn't a big deal..but how come now it's looks so serious.

At the hospital I wasn't allowed to enter Daniel's room..but it was getting late, so faith told me we should go home, and she will just update me on his condition

The next day at school I couldn't help but worry for him..there's nothing I could do.

After I got back home.

I got a call from Faith that I need to go to the hospital

The words faith said on the phone scared me

Faith said..

"Nikkina, you need to go to the hospital Now, Daniel's condition it's...it's critical he wants to see you, please hurry

By the tone Faith talked in she was crying.. her words filled with sadness