Noah's P.OV

Oh my god. Iam late. Why do I have to sleep so late. I was running around my small house trying to find the things i needed for school. Iam not a messy person but Iam not that tidy person. I live with my dad. My mom died of leukemia when I was 6 years old. I don't remember much about her when she was sick. Dad left me at my Grandmother's house at that time so he could look after her.

Dad's most of the time out of town due to business. It's not like he doesn't care about me He just changes a little bit after mom's death.So I pretty much live here alone.

Today i woke up late. So I didn't have any time left to make breakfast. But I didn't care for that.If I get late then my Maths teacher Mr. Harrison would humiliate me infront of the whole class. I think he dislike me very dearly.

See I couldn't sleep last night because I was too nervous about the fact that I am finally going to confess my 3 year old crush to my senior Harry.

I took an apple from the fridge and ran towards the bus stop.Why my cycle had to have a flat tire today.

As i was running I stumbled on a rock, but i not so graciously saved myself from falling face first on the road.

Is the universe telling me something bad is going to happen to me with all the negativity from the morning.

Should I just cancel my whole confession thing.Iam sure Iam gonna embarass myself. Ofcourse he is not gonna like somedy like me. He is tall , handsome, smart, have 'A' in all subjects,have a perfect body and also he is the captain of the football team.

(The honking of the bus woke me from my trance. i quickly boarded the bus and sat in the seat at the back. )

Iam not too short but compared to him maybe iam a little bit short. Iam not handsome, just a normal guy , a little bit pale, blonde hair, iam not that bad at studying I Mostly get B and A sometimes a C. Not too bad right.

See Iam not perfect. But that doesn't mean I shouldn't crush on somebody or confess my feelings.

Finally I reached school. I don't know, I should be happy that Iam not late. But seeing school my heart suddenly started beating fast that I thought Iam gonna faint right there. My whole body feeling weak. I took a deep breath. And then I started walking for my first class of the day.

I sat on my seat. I still have time to not confess and save myself from humiliation. But I can't do that. It may be my only chance to have something with him. He is gonna graduate this year. So this is my chance.

I think I can handle the rejection. Nothing too bad gonna happen. Right?.......

It was now lunch break. My friend bought my luch for me as I was whining how i don't feel like eating.I saw harry talking and laughing with his friends. I wish that was me laughing with him.I kept playing with the food with just eating little bits.I was completely ignoring what my friends were talking so i didn't notice that they stopped talking and now are staring at me.

I turned towards them and gave a smile.They didn't talk about it. They continued talking and eating because they know who Iam looking at and why! I felt guilty for ignoring them. So I stopped starting and focused on eating. Maybe I glanced at him discreetly a few times. Maybe that wasn't too discreet. I just don't care.

After lunch I walked with my friends for my next class. Mr. Parker always bore me out.

The school has ended so I started walking towards Harry's car so I could wait there for him. But I didn't see his car or him.

I walked around the school, then I saw him.Near the field,lying on the grass.

I stood behind the tree just staring at him. I totally forgot why I was here in the first place. I don't khow long I stood there like an idiot. But suddenly he stood up. Dusting off the dirt from his pants. A panic went through me. I hid behind the tree. I was planning how to vanish without him noticing me. But then I remembered why I was here and how this is my only chance. I ignored how my heart is beating fast. Without thinking much I came out of my hiding place. But I didn't expect to collide with a hard chest. For one second I felt dizzy due to the hard collision. But after seeing who it was i was sure Iam going to faint.

" What the hell are you doing behind the tree you idiot"

My cheeks started reddening due to embarrassment. This is not how I imagined this day.

"umm.Iam sorry I didn't see."

"Whatever"

"wait....please"

"What?"

He sounded annoyed.I took a deep breath.

"I...I..kinda..I...want to....that...."

" Are you really stupid or just taking a revenge one me by wasting my time and greatly annoying me just because I called you stupid"

It hurt when called those things. I felt angry at myself for becoming a stuttering mess infront of my crush. I just want to jump on my bed and cry my eyes out at this point.

"No , I...I'm not stupid. I want t.t..to tell you th..th.that I lik..."

"look I really don't have time for this. Go home Noah."

I saw him leave quickly. I just stood their thinking about how I got rejected even before confessing.

I went home and dropped on my bed and screamed to my pillow. That's whem I realized something.

He knows my name...

My alarm was ringing. I couldn't sleep last night. I kept thinking about how my crush knows my name.

I believed I was pretty invisible to him. He is my senior. Neither Iam into sports nor popular. Then how.

Does that mean I still have chance. Not that he actually rejected me. He walked away before I could confess. So maybe there is a chance for me. Maybe he noticed me everytime I gawked at him. Maybe he likes me too No that's too much of a wishful thinking. Maybe somebody told him about my crush on him. Maybe he is disgusted with me. Maybe he hates me.

I buried myself more into my blanket.But then remembered about school. I pulled myself from bed and looked at the clock. Iam really late.

I dashed to the bathroom shower. After getting ready I ran to the kitchen to grab something to eat.

But what I saw was Dad making breakfat in the kitchen.

"Noah you are still here. I thought you would have already left for school."

"I woke up late. When did you come dad."

" Sit down and eat first. I came last night. I didn't wanted to wake you up."

"I can't eat Iam getting late. I would miss the bus."

" Don't worry. I will drop you. Just eat your brekfast".

The breakfast was delicious.Its been very long since my dad made something for me. After I ate we walked to his car. It was so silent in the car. When we reached the school I stayed inside the car.

Dad looked at me.

"How long will you be here."

" Till this weekend.Why?"

"Nothing. Bye, Dad"

I was happy that for once he will be in house on my birthday.Iam not sure if he remembers. But his presence is the only thing I need now.

I walked to my first class.

I was grateful that I didn't see Harry for the whole day. I don't know how am I going to look at him. It's not like something big happened yesterday. But still Iam not sure if I can face him.

After the class ended I walked to my house.I thought about Harry the whole way. Maybe I was a little sad to not see him.Oh God Iam whipped for him.

As I entered the my house I heard my Dad's sound from the Kitchen. There is someone else with him. A woman is talking and laughing with him holding a mug.

I haven't seen my Dad laugh like this for a while. I felt a tug at my heart to know that the smile isn't towards me.The fact that he has moved on from my mom hurts. No, I shouldn't be this selfish.He has the right to be happy too. Its been so long since mom passed away.

Since they didn't notice me I went to my room.I quickly changed my clothes and listened to some music on my phone.

Maybe i will get my old happy loving dad back or Iam going to lose even the little bit presence of my dad from my life.