Sweet Misery
love, arguments and loss
Authy
So i sweeties....after a long breakkkkkk.....umm....i brought you a small gift. And remember we do not cry in the first episode. Welcome to the aaru's journey
I am the reason for my own misrey
Right...it was the day my mother(referring to his omega dad) died
And he killed himself because of my foolishness
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
Keith i said you won't take his name again
Keith morsin(age 5)
But he is my dad too
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
He was
Keith morsin(age 5)
But I love patrick
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
Enough
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
You are being really annoying
Keith morsin(age 5)
*pouts sadly*
For some reason mama always hated papa
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
He is happy over there with his own wife and sons
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
you think he'll care for you?
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
His sons are alphas
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
You are an omega. He has no reason to love you
It hurt everytime mama spoke like that
Keith morsin(age 5)
He loves me!!
Keith morsin(age 5)
He comes to meet me every day!
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
He didn't come yesterday
Keith morsin(age 5)
He was busy
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
And what about today
I didn't know why dad didn't come to see today
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
keith stop uttering his name
Keith morsin(age 5)
if you keep hating papa then I'll run away
Keith morsin(age 5)
I'll run away from here and from you
Keith morsin(age 5)
I'll go to him and live there
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
You-*pulls his ears*
Keith morsin(age 5)
Wahhhh*starts crying*
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
I have really gone easy on you
Sometimes those parental beatings felt like he hated me
I eve. Thought of leaving the house
But everyday....he used to take me in my arms at night and sing me lullabies
no matter how many times we argued during the day ...
at the end his hug felt warm and comfortable.
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Keith
Keith morsin(age 5)
*sitting in his hug* yes dad
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Your birthday is coming up .
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
What do you want as a gift?
As a child I was asked a liberal question
But there was one thing that omegas were not allowed to do unless they belonged from high society background
Keith morsin(age 5)
I want to go to school
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
*smiles* how about anything else?
Keith morsin(age 5)
No ...I want to go to school
Keith morsin(age 5)
Mama said that rafi goes to school
Rafi was dad's omega son's name from a different woman who was not my mama
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
think of something else
Keith morsin(age 5)
Mhm....
Keith morsin(age 5)
can I ask something for mama?
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Hm?
I know mama hated dad everyday
But whenever dad visited ....mama used to be at his best behaviour..
Nice clothes....combed hair...
No dirt on the table and in that one room kitchen apartment
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
do you want to eat what rich people eat?
Keith morsin(age 5)
I want something else
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
what is it my dear
Keith morsin(age 5)
I want to visit your other house and come and see my half brothers
Dad had one alpha son and one omega son from that woman
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
sure
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
But in that case,you need to come to find me
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
I can't send anyone to pick you up
Keith morsin(age 5)
Then give me the address
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
*gives* here
Who would think that a five year old was ready to run miles and travel to the middle of the city alone
So I didn't go to his house
Now that this of it he knew i couldn't go...so he gave it to me
One day....when I was about 17 years old...
I fought with Fredrick papa
Keith Morsin
i am leaving!
Keith Morsin
I am tired of living in this rathole
Keith Morsin
All I asked you was to get back with father
Keith Morsin
You like him!! And you just can't say it
Keith Morsin
and he is even divorced now
Keith Morsin
You had your chance
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
Keith, enough of your bickering
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
Keep the bag in
Keith Morsin
I don't want to live in this place!!!
Keith Morsin
I told you that the boys in this area keep taunting me and taking my money on my way back
Keith Morsin
they keep passing comments about my body
Keith Morsin
I don't want to live here
Keith Morsin
and I called father yesterday
Keith Morsin
He said that I can go to his place
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
ENOUGH
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
Stop being childish
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
Do I have to make you understand with slaps?
Keith Morsin
YOU ALWAYS DO THAT
Keith Morsin
I AM NOT A KID
Keith Morsin
I AM DONE HERE
Keith Morsin
You don't understand how insecure I feel living in this area!!
Keith Morsin
You don't support me!!!!
Keith Morsin
I almost got molested the other day
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
I taught to self defence
Keith Morsin
I can't defend myself from 10 freaking alphas
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
THEN RUN
Keith Morsin
RUN WHERE!? IN THIS RATHOLE!?
Keith Morsin
I am not you! I will not endure this kind of treatment
Keith Morsin
I will go to my father and live a better life there
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
And what about me then?
Keith Morsin
I am telling you to come
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
I will not come
Keith Morsin
I have being staying back for you
Keith Morsin
But staying for you is making me unsafe!!!
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
Alright
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
I respect your decision
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
Fine go and stay there. But you have to give me regular calls
Keith Morsin
*eyes light up*
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
you have to come and see me often
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
Understood?
Keith Morsin
*goes and hugs him while crying*
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
...*pats,
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
Shh
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
You are just moving out idiot
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
cheer up
Oh....how I wish to go back in time and slap myself
Keith Morsin
*unpacked his things in the guest room that his father provided*
Keith Morsin
*calling his papa*
Keith Morsin
he'll be surprised to know how nice it is at father's place
Keith Morsin
The room is bigger than that apartment we live in...
Keith Morsin
I will convince him to come to stay here
Keith Morsin
Hm? Why is he not picking up?
Keith Morsin
Uh I'll try again later
He said i should call him everyday
He never picked up the call.
Because he banged himself to death the day I left that house
Nobody found out until a week had passed
I i couldn't go during weekdays as I had started working in a shoe shop
I went to see him on weekend
I only saw the rotten body hanging by the ceiling
The room filled with smell of corpse
And my heart shattered on the floor
the only thing left was "realisation"
Realisation that he only lived for my sake
I was the reason he kept living that shitty life
And i was the reason he ended that life
life
After papa's demise...for some reason everything else felt unimportant and unknown
I worked just because I had to earn
But I had to stop earning after papa's death.... because father didn't allow to work
Keith Morsin
I need to have money for personal expenses...
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
No need
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
you'll be getting engaged on your 18th birthday
There has always been a clear patriarchy
Omegas need to listen to alphas
Especially if they are your father or your husband,you can't disobey them
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Don't be like your omega dad
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
He worked regardless of me providing him financial assistance
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
how outrageous was that
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Have you ever seen and omega working? It looks so ridiculous.
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
And all the omegas only want to work just to have affairs at work places
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Neither do they respect their family, the culture nor do they have self respect
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
So my dear,don't be like that*pats*
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Omegas like you are fragile
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Right? You need to be cherished
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
kept in house like some fragile glass plate
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
I just want to protect you
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Okay?
Keith Morsin
*smiles and nods*
Keith Morsin
thanks father
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Go now. Go and make dinner
And also I was in-charge of making food for everyone in the house
Cedric dark( omega)
*sitting on counter*
Cedric dark( omega)
I heard you are getting married
Keith Morsin
*chopping veggies*
Keith Morsin
Father said so
Cedric dark( omega)
We both are the same age....how is it that you are getting married and I am not?
Keith Morsin
He said it's for my good
Cedric dark( omega)
hmm....
Cedric dark( omega)
Is marriage really good?
Cedric dark( omega)
My mother didn't really feel happy in marriage with our father
Cedric dark( omega)
I don't know.
Cedric dark( omega)
The sound of marriage feels horrible
Cedric dark( omega)
*turns the stove on* I'll get the fish fried and some curry
Keith Morsin
*sitting in his room*
Cedric was the only omega other than me in this house
if there was any reason why I felt really calm in this chaos...it was my time spent with cedric
Patrick has a total of 5 sons including me
The other three are alphas
There is a pure hierarchy in the household
everyone must obey father. May it be us or his other three sons
Everything in the household is decided by him
I came to know a lot after coming here
As far as I know i am his illegitimate child
My omega dad was the most hated person in this household.
he used to work as a personal servant as he was an orphan and had no one to rely on financially
They say that he seduced father even when father was married. They called him a home wrecker
And...the oldest son of my father....Damien ...he said "I saw your omega father once with my dad"
"he was pregnant and crying on the floor just because he didn't want to kill the child in his womb. In exchange he agreed to leave this place forever and live somewhere far away. Just to keep the child."
"who knows how the pregnant omega even lived in a wrecked apartment near red light area out of the bare pocket finance provided by father'
"maybe the rent was cheap so he managed two meals a day. But what about clothes and other utilities? I know how much money father transferred to him monthly. Just so you know we spend that much in an hour on a dinner of two. Who knows how your father managed to live"
Keith Morsin
*looking out of the window*
You think my papa will depend on anyone?
Keith Morsin
*tears rolling down*
He earned....for me...and for him
Keith Morsin
Hic....sob...
He never uttered a single word when I asked for things that other kids had
Yet I complained so much throughout my childhood...
I insisted on going to school
And i was never sent there....I used to cry and throw tantrums
until he agreed to teach me to read himself
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
that's "abcdefg"
Keith morsin(age 5)
"a b b..." huh?
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
Keith can you focus? Did you not want to study?
Keith morsin(age 5)
I am trying*pout*
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
what is this letter?
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
This
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
This
Keith morsin(age 5)
...uh..
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
it's C
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
Now remember
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
A B C
Keith morsin(age 5)
A B C *giggles*
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
*pats*
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
Hm?
Keith morsin(age 5)
How did you learn to read?
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
Ah...*smiles*
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
from your father's place.
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
His kids were homeschooled. They used to say these out loud
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
I learned from hearing it over and over again
Keith morsin(age 5)
Hehe. so you studied when you grew up?
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
Mhm
Keith morsin(age 5)
Hehe i am smarter than you then
Fredrick morsin(his dead omega dad)
You little... come here 💢💢
Keith morsin(age 5)
Hahahahaha
What could a child understand
he only taught me as much as he knew
He could read the alphabet. But not the words
All he knew was "C-A-T" is cat. And "d-o-g" is dog
And small three letter spellings like these
He said he'd learn more and teach me
But how did he learn? I don't know
Keith Morsin
Huh*wipes his tears and looks at the door*
Keith Morsin
*goes and opens the door*
Damien Dark
Took you quite long
Keith Morsin
Ah brother...
Damien Dark
*ruffles his hair* can I come in?
Keith Morsin
*quite happy*
Among all the brothers...Damien is like a real older brother to me.
Cedric and I are best friends.
And Damien is someone who is very gentle and kind
Filth
Keith Morsin
*sitting opposite to Damien*
Damien Dark
were you crying again?
Keith Morsin
*goes and hugs him*
Damien Dark
*caresses his hair*
Damien Dark
I understand how you feel
Damien Dark
it's really tough to cope up
Keith Morsin
Mhm... sniffle
Damien Dark
I was sitting with father a while ago.
Damien Dark
He mentioned a topic about your marriage
Keith Morsin
*looks at him* he said it's for my own good
Damien Dark
Hmm...*frowns*
Damien Dark
*leaves the hug* it's true
Damien Dark
But Keith everything comes with responsibilities and duties
Damien Dark
once you are married,you'll have to handle many things
Damien Dark
Are you really okay with getting married at such a young age?
Keith Morsin
I feel like a burden staying here..
Keith Morsin
I don't earn ...
Keith Morsin
i do household work...but it's just a repayment for letting me stay
Keith Morsin
This place is not my home brother
Keith Morsin
it doesn't feel like home without papa
Damien Dark
....*pats and caresses his face* i understand
Damien Dark
Alright i respect your decision
Damien Dark
And I am glad you are not forced to marry someone
Keith Morsin
*smiles* were you worried ?
Damien Dark
How could I not be
Damien Dark
You are so tiny
Damien Dark
You barely speak your mind. And especially when father asks us to do anything,we are not in the position to argue
Keith Morsin
But don't worry
Keith Morsin
Um...do you know who my husband will be?
Damien Dark
Getting sneaky huh? *teases*
Damien Dark
Haha I did sneak out the picture for you
Damien Dark
Dad asked me to choose a husband for you
Damien Dark
There were some uncles...I was disgusted at first...but then I finally found this guy
Damien Dark
*shows the picture*
Damien Dark
Oh no no...that's just a prop
Damien Dark
I mean he is actually a businessman. But he worked as a model for a product launched by the company. And that's...tomato sauce
Damien Dark
The product is tomato sauce...and they made it look like it's blood
Keith Morsin
Oh....so it's from an advertisement
Keith Morsin
*looks at the picture*
Keith Morsin
*covers his mouth*
Keith Morsin
*a little shy* ...
Keith Morsin
*looks at Damien and nods*
Damien Dark
But there is one good news and one bad news
Damien Dark
which one do you wanna hear first?
Damien Dark
He....has many scandals
Keith Morsin
Hm? What is a scandal?
Damien Dark
like...dating rumours...things that upset his followers
Damien Dark
Like...*scratches his neck* like he hates omegas
Damien Dark
And their scent ...he has slept with many of his colleagues in the business place
Damien Dark
He is really angry all the time...his assistant team keeps changing their jobs because they can't handle his temper
Damien Dark
And this marriage proposal...they said that it is sent by his parents
Damien Dark
gladly he is 26 years old.
Damien Dark
9 years older than you
Keith Morsin
that's... alright
Damien Dark
I couldn't choose anyone else as they were past the age of 30 years
Damien Dark
And well now the good news
Damien Dark
He lives alone. Though his assistant team is mostly around in the house...he stays alone and he is my best friend
Keith Morsin
*gasp* your friend?
Damien Dark
Since I don't want him to hurt you and all,I am moving in with him
Keith Morsin
What *sparkles*
Damien Dark
So that whenever you get tired of your husband you can come and complain to me
Damien Dark
I'll put some sense in him
Keith Morsin
Haha you are the best brother ever *jumps on him and hugs*
Damien Dark
ahaha don't butter me *hugs*
Damien Dark
*looks at the door*
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Hmm
Keith Morsin
*suddenly moves away*
Damien Dark
Oh...father *secretly hides the photo*
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
What was that just now?
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Do you know what that means?
Keith Morsin
?(What's wrong...why does father look so displeased?)
Damien Dark
It's not like that!!!
Damien Dark
We are brothers! We are blood related
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Shut up Damien.
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Is your rut near?
Damien Dark
it's not...you are misunderstanding
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Enough
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
whatever it is....it's filthy
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
And i didn't expect this child to inherit the filthy of seduction from his omega dad
For some reason....father insulted me...and my papa...but i didn't know why at that moment
I felt bad after hearing that....
All I knew was he called me "filthy"
For hugging my brother...
Is it because I am illegitimate?
seduction? Papa never taught me that word..
Damien Dark
*gets up* you are misreading the situation
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Yeah? You think I am blind?
Damien Dark
Keith is not like that
Damien Dark
and let's take this discussion outside
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
I don't wish to continue this discussion
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
And you say he is not like that? He was brought up in a red light area
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
*rolls his eyes*
Keith Morsin
*looking down* sorry..
Keith Morsin
I won't hug anyone father
My hugs are filthy. Because I was born and brought up in a rathole..
So..the place of origin decides our standard?
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Keith
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Come here
Keith Morsin
*walks to him*
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
You know you are getting married right?
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Then why were you seducing your brother?
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Silence!
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Leave this room immediately
Damien Dark
I cannot let you misunderstand
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
I don't need your explanation either
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
*grabs Keith's face and pulls* I asked you something
I didn't know what he saying
I never understood the word seduction
Is it a crime to hug your brother...to hug the person you consider as your family...?
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
I SAID ANSWER ME
Nothing came out of my mouth...
I remember that I used to talk back to papa when he raised voice at me...
but father?...this man was so gentle till date...
Those eyes full of hatred....I saw the words "you filthy rat" written all over his face
The only thing that I tried was to stop those damn tears
I trembled....I feared....and I looked at my brother who was as helpless as me..
Nor did I have the guts to say a word after father raised his voice at me
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
Useless.
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
You won't mutter a word but you have balls to jump on your brother.
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
How shameless of you
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
*leaves him*
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
I shouldn't have come to visit
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
I came out of sympathy thinking you must be stressed because of marriage
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
just to see this filth
Patrick Dark (Keith's father)
*leaves*
Keith Morsin
...*slump down on the ground*
Keith Morsin
*shakes his head while crying* don't touch
Keith Morsin
You'll get filthy
Damien Dark
....*clenches his fist*
Damien Dark
It was not filthy
Damien Dark
....it was just affection
Keith Morsin
Hic...aghh haaa
Damien Dark
*hugs and hides his face in his hug*
Everyone looked at me like a burden
Everyone except my brothers.
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