Loner Girl
Wuuu
meh
Just wanna let you know
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I remember your birthday 🎈🎂
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And it's my luck to have you as my bestie and friend
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i know I'ma not perfect
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But I'ma doing mAh best to be a good friend for ya
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And meh is cherishing every moment with you
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Cause me ish prepared that you will leave too someday 🫂🫂🫂
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It's my first time having a best friend tho
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So congrats on being my friend officially bestie 🎈🎈🎂
meh
today's date is July 19 😂😭😂
meh
And remember whatever happened in rl today on your birthday doesn't matter not allowed to be unhappy
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Since you're now online with meh
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happy birthday to mAh hubbooooooooo😘
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mAh memory bad... so 🤧 don't mind me
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Well👀 TBH I kinda heartbroken for mAh 5k points 😓🤧 but it's okay ig 🤔I can earn it back
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It's our first year birthday party for ya I think 🤔 well... Last year idk well... And don't remember most 😓
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But it's your special day
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I'ma trying to make it special
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Well you're mAh only bestie 🎈🎂
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Officially no regrets allowed
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🥲 um... Pardon is it the correct sentence hubbo?
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😇 Then I will take it as nothing wrong
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U know 😗 I'ma happy yesterday
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Cause you say u miss meh 👀🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
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Ahhhhhhhhhhh (~‾▿‾)~
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I was screaming inside 🥰
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So now I'ma telling ya ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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There was a time at lets get shibal GC😗
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idk if it's right to tell you tho🗿
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But I will tell ya anyway
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it's with your dadda I got jelly of🤡
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First time tell someone I got jelly 😓
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Dk what reaction I will get
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Ima know his your dadda 😐😓
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But still can't help but get jelly 🤧
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Cause you so close to him🤧
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it's supposed to be your birthday 🥲
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5:58 pm now(人 •͈ᴗ•͈)
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How about a happy birthday song?
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You're quite distant from ppl
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That's also probably why I choose you
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You made me feel special
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I'm trying to make you feel special too
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Just give you something I haven't give anyone
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I don't have anything special
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You asked what bad things you have that you don't know
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I don't any bad things on you for now
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You're matured but to strong sometimes... Don't have to always be matured with me😗
Cause I'ma childish too 😄❤️ I think that's a bad thing 😂
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I just said you got none😐
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I just wrote with flow hubbo
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Don't mind it that it isn't reasonable
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And you can also tell me some of things that happens on you in rl
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I know some past you don't want to remember
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Just meh guessing tho😗
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So I will just ask for present moment
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So try tell me anything
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I think you are pretty strong
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But it's isn't good hubbo
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Sometimes you're allowed to be soft
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With me ig if you don't mind 😗
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And I just thought of something fun
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You know you can pretend to be a good girl in front of mom😗
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You know it's a type of undercover 🌚
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Good girl on surface 🌚
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Well I know it's doesn't🙂
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Nothing works for meh🗿
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Don't know how to comfort you
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You know what I will do?
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I will be sad with you
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Cause I think it's because I know that comforting won't work
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So I will just join you in the sadness
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At least you're not the only sad one
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I wrote this chat story cause
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Somethings we can't say it in front directly
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And another is that I want ppl to know you're man bestie and I'ma showering affection with you
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Just hope you won't get annoyed with me
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Right now is... July 21th 11:14pm...
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I just thought of something...
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You asked why I put up with your bad behaviour...
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I'm not sure for the answer..
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But I think I wrote a post about it
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Give me a sign... That you hate me.
That you want me to leave you.
Just tell me...
You want me out of your life...
I will leave maybe I'm not sure...
But I think I know..
You don't want me to go. But you also want me to go at the same time....
You kept pushing me away..
Knowing i will leave someday...
Don't want me to say and entangle for too long...
Everytime you push me. you're prepared that I will leave.
I will back down.
I will disappear...
You want me to go by myself..
Not because you hate me or want me to go.
Just because you don't want to get hurt.
And to prove yourself that you're right that I'll go..
Getting prepared that I will go
But at the same time... just a little part of you hoping I won't go...
I won't back down..
I will still be with you...
But everytime I didn't leave..
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You asked me why I keep staying when you're rude or bad behaviour...
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I think I have a answer.. it's...
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I want you to feel wanted...
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Like how I wasn't able to feel so...
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I want someone to accept my flaws and bad tempers
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I want someone to stay for me too...
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So I think I gave it to you...
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but at the same time...
I prepare that it's won't be returned
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I that's why I keep staying
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And those you say to me...
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I take it as honest... As a truthful talk...
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You seems to hear what I never spoke of..
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And so close that no one have ever been
Just so Close...
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Idk why I just think it's safe to be with you...
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I'm not sure either...
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Just that this thoughts came to me suddenly when writing that post...
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It's suppose to be your birthday...
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And I'm mentioning all these...
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I think I just made you mood bad...
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I... Think you're about to leave today...
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Maybe you're busy... or just finding me stubborn hehe...
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that I didn't listen to you to go to sleep
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I don't want to sleep a short one
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like 1 hour sleep or something
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once I sleep I don't want to wake up...
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Well.. I agree it's indeed was late...
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I think I made you upset again...
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But part of me is sad and happy together
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One is that you're distance again and I miss you👁️👁️
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Nvm the other one is that
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You're upset for me because you care for meh
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I'm probably deluluing again
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I almost fight with that cat person
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Well... 👁️👁️ yk.. I kinda ask for it...
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But I was surprised that he attacked so fast 👁️👁️
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Unfortunately I was offline for a while
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And when I came online 👁️👁️ I saw his message I was excited... tho...
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Yk I'm waiting for it😂
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But I haven't started replying
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the messages was deleted
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👁️👁️ ugh... bad luck...
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You didn't tell me why I shouldn't um.. fight with him or something like that
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Well.. 👁️👁️ tbh rn I still think you're upset at me....
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I think you'll ask me to delete this CS too...
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👁️👁️ I will if you ask to..
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I think that's it for today... hm..
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Uh-... idk what to do with you👁️👁️
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I don't want to lose you for real...
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But if you wanna go...
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Still got no choice...
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Cause I know you'll if you really wanted too.
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I just thought about something
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Cause when you're online..
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You'll send me a message
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I will know you're online
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No did it before... so... You're quite special to me
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Idk if on your birthday I will send this....
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Idk what to say now...
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I think I'm too clingy...
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I noticed you told that person I'm your bestie
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ima was very happy ✨✨ really really happy
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Don't think I didn't noticed
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I just thought that if I show it you'll not like it👁️👁️
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like last time when you called meh babe🤧
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And ima always noticed when you called meh babe
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Don't think I didn't noticed 😤
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I just don't want you to be 👁️👁️ Yk... something like that🤧✋🏻
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We haven't talked for a week 🤧
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I actually wanted to ask you
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But I think you might not want to talk about it
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And remember about the thing
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Although I think I'm the cause of it again...
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Today ish 18 August 8:03pm
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I posted a post today!
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its felt clingy so😌 i deleted it
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but i still wanna show you tho
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But ik you already read something i wrote that is more clingy😔✨mah poor hubbo
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Have to take my side effects 😌🙌🏻
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You know what I'm thinking now?
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I'm thinking about that answer you gave me
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I don't remember any other questions only that question that is
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Did you change when you met me?
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Now I'm thinking of What in you change when you met me😵💫
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Well that kinda lit up my mood
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yk yesterday i was down as in not sad not happy
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But talking with you kinda make me happy 😌🙌🏻
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I know you'll probably think im lying
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Cause even if someone tell me this thing I won't believe...
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btw what you think of this pfp🤣
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😌🙌🏻 give me comments hubbo
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Guess how many words it is👀
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you should really praise me😌🙌🏻
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I wrote so many words😤
We were young
Posters on the wall
Praying we're the one that the teacher wouldn't call
We would stare at each other
'Cause we were always in trouble
And all the cool kids
Did their own thing
I was on the outside
Always looking in
Yeah, i was there but I wasn't
They never really care if I wasn't
Then i saw your face
Your forgiving eyes
Looking back at me
From the other side
Like you understood me
And I'm never letting you go
Oh, Cause you are that someone
That's gets me like no one else
Right when i need it the most
And I'll be the one you rely on
A shoulder to cry on
A friend through the highs and the lows
I'm not gonna make it a la la la la la lone
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I'm singing it without music damn... voice cracking hubboooo
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Owa😌 tbh ima proud of mahself
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okay ima gonna copy the lyrics so you can understand
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i didn't write the song don't misunderstand 😔
I don't have such talent
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the rym idk how to spell it ughhhhhhhh-
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anyway lemme complete my sentence
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i hope you understand what i wanna write😵💫
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aish that's all for today 🤔
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3 more hours will be 12 am at your side!
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I'm here to write something...
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Cause last night I was thinking about what more I can write to make this letter reach 3000+
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But kinda feeling impossible
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Cause I don't remember anything about what I was thinking last night
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I think I was thinking about why you
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And I get another answer
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Maybe it's just because you reply my messages
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Maybe cause even when others are online
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I get ignored or not seen to reply
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Or chosen someone over me
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Overthinking as always
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I know most of them are probably offline
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But just act like I don't know about it
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And reply to em whenever they respond
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I don't like me like that either...
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But anyway 😌 you replies
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So that's always why we are close and bestie 🤔 yea something like that
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I think I'm to serious...
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Lemme go do something and start again 🫂
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Happy birthday mAh dear hubbo
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I just wanna tell you how much I'm really really really happy with you
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🥲 Not so excited as last night 😭
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Meh hubboooooooooooooo 😭🙂
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Me trying to find that mood
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Should have be in a great mood but...
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You're not allowed to be sad
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Not online when online
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Be happy even when offline
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Today ish you birthday 🎈 the day ya borned
meh
Although 🥲 it's um.. Not what you want (just me thinking tho cause I don't want too)
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But still happy cause meh met you✨✨✨✨✨✨✨
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Alright tell me you're happy to be mAh bestie
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You know there is something that I regret about..
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when you told that person meh is your bestie!!!
meh
Why didn't I ss it!!!! Aghhhhhhhhhhhh
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Well when you admit I'ma your bestie meh wanted to ss in that sec
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But idk why!! I didn't ss it!!!!
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Meh regret this thing!!!!
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Now I have no prove that you admit that meh ish your bestie
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Dw meh ish already your bestie!!
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I think I wanted to sing another song 🤔
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Cause of the lyrics of cause
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"You got a dark side guess you're not the only one"
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"What if we both tried fighting what were running from"
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Well meh wanna try singing it
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But I think mAh voice will go astray
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As in crack to the point that unbearable 🤣
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it's sounds... Bad without music bg🤧
I tired to hide but something broke
I tried to sing
Couldn't hit the notes
The words kept catching in my throat
I tried to smile
I was suffocating though
But here with you
I can finally breathe
You say you're no good
But you're good for me
I've been hoping to change
Now I know we can change
But I won't if you're not by my side
Why does it feel right everytime I let you in
Why does it feel like I can tell you anything
All the secrets that keep me in chains and.
All the damage that might make me dangerous
You got a dark side guess you're not the only one
What if we both tried fighting what were running from
We can't fix it
If we never face it
Let the past be the past till it weightless
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Oh well you can laugh🥲
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So happy birthday mAh queen 👑
meh
Thanks for being my bestie + hubbo + online friend + gossiper + complainer (both complaining of cause+ to each other) + hm🤔
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Dalo + dalin+ delo+ darling+ dearlo
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+ mAh listener (listening to mah nonsense according to your way)
+ mAh talking buddy (both side talking ofc
+ meh best friend ✨
+ dirty minder (always know mAh dirty thoughts)
Probably cause you a little bit of dirty mind too
But me ish still more dirty mind
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I can't pass 400 dialogue
Why can't I😭😭😭
it's bullying meh again 😭
Well did you see I almost reaching mah 3000 words
How do you like this birthday gift?
I got nothing much to give can only give this 3000 words of affection 😌
Quick praise mehhhhh
Sigh.. So hard🤧 💔
Happy birthday mAh dear queen ~
Dear dearer dearest Enzo dalro mAh hubbo enzoie sweet chilly Happy birthday!!!
Btw I wanted to add some expressions pics... But I don't know where to find🗿
Well congrats to you got a irresponsible person as your bestie
You already mAh bestie no change is allowed 😒
So be happy of being mAh bestie 😌 you can hold mAh craziness and madness
I can too😤 (can hold yours too)
Don't hide from meh😒
As long you don't ignore me everything is fine with me🥰
If ya ignore me🤔 alright you try😒 you gonna get yk
So when you online and don't wanna talk😌 just tell me you don't wanna talk I understand
But no ignoring 🗿 I'ma will be sad...
😌 alright I think that's all I can't still write tho...
Just that dialogue and your birthday ish in 2 hours later I gotta upload this and make it be ready for you to read😌
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Good news hubbo i have wrote 3000 words!!!!!!! Yay!!!!!
I um.. Not good at words🗿(that wrote a 3000 words)
I think you will be *speechless* right 🤣
But I'ma really not good at words 🙂 as in fr fr fr fr fr not good at words
I just bla bla bla 😭 oh I'ma annoying 🗿IDC I'm ignoring... (care tho but nvm it)
Happy birthday mAh queen
I don't think I can make you a gc party🙂🗿
Still irresponsible as ever
Oh mAh dear enzo ✨🤧 what can I do to make you happy and special 🗿
I'm clueless in it...
I just treat you the way I want🤔
Um... Hm... Mm... Alright remember to leave some comments mAh dear hubbo
But if you don't wanna it's fine🗿💔 🎂
Still happy birthday mAh dearrrrrrrr Enzo and bestieoioiiiiiiiii😘
Have many many love 🎈❤️
mAh love first ofc😤
I'ma hungry 😃
I don't think it's time to say this but...
I'ma really hungry🗿💔
Eat something meh hubboooooooooooooo 😘 alright meh going to upload it
remember to be happy mAh dearrrrrrrr
Just remember meh mAh dearrr🗿
(Nothing to remember in me tho)
Again
Happy birthday mAh dear hubbo enzoie 😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😌
huu?
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Just thought of something last night when about to go to bed...
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I know we ain't cold heart
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Just that we know how to hide our feelings
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and attachments does hurt when its broke/gone
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it's doesn't hurt when its happens
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its hurts when we thought about the attachment will be gone and saw it coming
its already hurt when thinking it will be gone thats probably why its doesn't hurt when its happens
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So we ain't cold heart 💓
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We just knew that nothing is forever and it will be gone
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well me wanna call it we and us
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I don't wanna be alone
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that why I'm dragging you in by force
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Actually it's kinda true i am selfish
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But you know, cared of it once is enough won't care again... (i meant that being told you're selfish thing)
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I wanted to go deeper tho
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but i forgot about it or i just don't want to talk about it..
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I will try my best to believe what you say
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actually i think i know what you wanted to say when i said you stuck with me
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it's probably is you could leave anytime you want that you ain't stuck with me right?
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To be honest im actually always preparing myself that i know you'll probably disappear anytime
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ik me overthinking again
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but we both know that nothing is forever
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So i just try my best to make it stay the longest it can
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You help too (Make this relationship a bit longer)
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Well i think i also will probably disappear anytime...
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You know i go with flow writing these
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I think i will delete this chapter 2 after you done..
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but at the same time i also want my friend online or so called friends to see it...
Just leave it idc anymore
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I didn't put effort and the friendship die
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Actually i think im quite ruthless
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Whenever i felt too clingy (ofc only me is the clingy one)
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(maybe its just me thinking so) - (i doubt anyone is more clingy than me right? hub answer questions 😔🙌🏻)
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its my first time having this deep relationship with someone
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First time feeling so close to someone
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Even I don't know why im draw to you
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felt like a proposal 🙂
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Hope you don't mind tho
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Just want you to know you're really important to me
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and its fact believe that
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you'll never be replaced with me
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Its true i will have new friends or something
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But no one can replace you
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that felt like a proposal fr
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Still... hope ya don't mind
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(Even of you mind tho its fine)🗿
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How did you get someone crazy like me😭✨😌
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Well thanks for existing tho✨
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Its truth no sugarcoating
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At that very moment its really really makes me happy
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Although i think i make you go mad🙂... uh-....
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That means you showing meh emotions tho😝
meh
I didn't make you mad on purpose..💀
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Its kinda like my talents 🙂 (fu*ked up talent)
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Me apologize for making you angry... Sorry hub
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I won't gang up with ppl again
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I just oversharing to much that end up like that-
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But dw it won't happen again
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(Well promise probably for breaking...)
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But I won't do things that make you end up like that again
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I don't know what to say...
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to make you believe me
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dw i will prove with action
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things between us is between us only dw
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I just thought i should write something for you...
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I think i made you awkward
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Im quite clueless in relationships between ppl... if anywhere i did is wrong tell me...
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I think relationship is about truth and raw fact...
So at something I'm probably tell truth that hurts(￣ヘ￣;)
Tell me if you have any problems with me and the truth dear...
idk what to do correctly can you tell me up straight⊙﹏⊙
i um.... I'm really dumb(╥﹏╥)
don't beat around the bush... its a maze to meಥ‿ಥ
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Okay thats all then bui bui~
luuuuu 3
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Ima back with a new chapter
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Ah- dk what i should say anymore...
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So this kind of another affection showing
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Still having a little trauma..
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Nah, not so serious, its just a taken aback-
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It's to show you the draft-
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But idk if i should show you tho
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It's clingy to the max-
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I already made that post less cling
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But i think if i tell you, you'd want to know too
I wanna write about her.
She is weird, cause she stayed.
when I’m giving her reasons to leave.
And I’m really happy she stayed.
If she didn’t we won’t have this friendship.
I’m not a pro in keeping people happy.
She’s always down, and rarely happy.
I want her to be happy everyday.
She said she never cared but I know.
Deep down she definitely cared of those things.
I use to wonder why she’s willing to be friends with me.
I’m really not a good person.
She said she either.
Guess that what made us besties.
We were still strangers past half year.
But we’re suddenly best friends.
i think we’re friends cause I attacked her.
She’s the first person I took so much courage to be friend with.
I don’t know how to explain.
It’s felt kinda awesome
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Well.. The real cringy one is coming
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Bruh i'll be in another level of embarassing
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Letter for my bestie..
I checked my phone, I saw her notification.
I tapped in, she replied, her messages.
I smiled, her favorite emoji, made me smile.
Cause she’s the one that sent it.
I just want her to believe, she really do make me happy.
I’m really lucky to have her, you’re my bestie cause you stayed after I gave you every reason to leave..
I always cross your line… but you stayed I’m kinda happy.. and unexpected…
I wanna ask why me? Why did you stay when
Why did you chose me?
meh
😐 well.. I still got more.. to say
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But kinda awkward of me now😭
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Idk if i should continue
meh
Well for this i wanna show you all my affection
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To make you feel safe ig
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Idk maybe i watched to many movies
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They all missed, cause they ain't expressive
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And always saying what not on their mine
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And saying all kind of hurtful thing
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Or either not saying anything, and doing everything secretly
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I got affection, i'll show you.
meh
Even tho it's childish, crazy, nonsense whatever
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Lemme shower you with all my affection
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Well... I think you'll get kinda something idk
meh
But it's said to leave no regret right?
meh
There is sonething i wanna tell you...
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Don't believe in friendship just yet.
meh
Its just don't believe in me
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Cause i don't trust myself yet
meh
I'm not sure is i won't hurt you
meh
Even though i'm careful.
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I might still mistakenly hurt you
meh
I'm still not matured enough
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So keep you heart locked
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And protect yourself from me
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You're more important than this friendship
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I don't want you to be hurt twice.
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I just don't want to be the one that hurt you twice
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So keep yourself away from me
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I'm looking for the right way to treat you
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So.... Wah- i'm sorry i made you sad
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I just want you to be careful with me
meh
I'm really really not careful
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I always hurt my close ones by mistake..
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i need time- just a little bit more time
meh
I'll find ways to treat you-
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You can find others- but i'll kick them away!
meh
Someone said you're lucky to be my bestie
meh
I think its just you totally unlucky
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You used all your unlucky to met someone like me
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Well.. Thats all i guess
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You know it feel kinda good to trust someone
meh
😗 i wanna be honest to you
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Well 2 for not believing you that you didn't miss me and dont like me😌
meh
Just know that i trust you more than anyone bish
meh
idk can you read it? ( ͡°ᴥ ͡° ʋ)
meh
/ᐠ｡ꞈ｡ᐟ\ if you can read its your luck
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if ya can't 😁 its my luck
meh
so thats all ig⚰️✨ bui
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