[ Alarm clock ringing]…

Opening my eyes, I see the sun rays coming through my window. This dorm is a bit shabby but it’s okay. I’ll get uesd to it. I need to save more money to continue my studies.

Lemme introduce myself 😁

I’m Sussane Wolfard. Age 18, 1st year college student, personality aloof type.

Rest you’ll get to know reading the story.😉

Ahhh… I’m starving. I didn’t eat dinner last night I remember now. I went to the toilet. Then fresh up. Getting ready for college fast. I need to eat. Almost everyday I’m late. 😑

I went to the dining for breakfast. Got eggs and bread and some juice. I wanted to eat bacon. But it’s finished cuz I’m late.

Waiting for taxi…

Hopped in one for my classes. It’s my first day of second semester. Thank God I could reach in time. Oh I forgot to tell you, I’m a major in Computer Science. After one semester, I don’t find it interesting. Electronics has become my passion.

Hey Sus !!!

What’s up buddy ? 😁

That’s my friend Robin. We met on the first day of college.

You’re too noisy Robin. C’mon don’t act so mean😗.I know you’re a bit softie 😁

Yeah yeah . You know me the best, don’t you 😕

I guess so 😁😁😁

Last semester was pretty good. Hope that this semester goes well too.

Sussane!!!

How’s life treating you these days ?

I’m in good shape 😊. How you’re doing, Maria ? Where’s Eric ?

I’m doing fine. Thanks for asking 😄

Eric’s on his way. You know late as usual.

[ Maria and Eric are together since elementary school. Dating each other for three years.]

Suddenly, my phone started vibrating. My mom’s calling. Shit!!!

I didn’t call her for past few days. She called me several times, I didn’t pick up😐😐😐

Hello. Mom ?

[ Yelling from the other side ]…

Stupid kid! Why do you give me heart attacks all the time? Where were you? Didn’t you see how many times I called you? If you’re having any trouble, why don’t you tell me ? 😢

Ahm… Mom, are you done yelling ?

Where are you now my dear ?

College. Mom, my class is about to start. Call you later. Take care. Love you. Bye

Hey wait ! Sussane! Sussane listen to…

I hang up the call.

Robin and Maria are giving me glares.

What ?

Why do you ignore you’re mom? They asked.

( Silence…)

Professor entered the class.

Hey Robin. Do you know him ?

I heard about him, he said.

Professor is an ill-tempered man. He doesn’t like any sort of disturbance in class.

Woah… That sounded very unpleasant.

Well, he’s very good at explaining the subject though 😁😁😁😁

That’s what he’s a professor for. Idiot.

Hey why did you call me that ☹️?

Cuz you’re an idiot.

(Robin)😦😦😦

You two stand up.

Crap. Professor is telling us to stand. 😐

You two.....Are you in the class?

Ah...Yes sir.

But I don't think so. You two are gossiping.

Sorry Sir.

Okay, have your seat and don't talk anymore.

Thank you Sir.

Let's introduce our professor. He's taking the computer ethics course. Professor Charles Edison. A very nice person.

I wonder whom Robin was talking about?

That dumbass 😑

Ow...ow...ow... That hurts Sus [ Me pulling Robin's ear pretty hard ]

Rob, you damn stupid 😒

Whom were you talking about earlier,huh ?

Professor Charles is such a nice person.

😅😅😅😅 My mistake. I got confused. Sorry about that buddy 🙆🏼‍♂️

Now cheer up and let's head to the next class.😁

I must admit. Rob is a very nice guy and a very good friend.😌

He's very sincere and also helps me with studies.

Next was class on the Electronics course. I never thought what I'm gonna experience from the professor of this course.

It's wrong to say I, actually we all were gonna experience the same facts.

Here the story begins.......

Professor Charles Wayne. He's taking our electronics course. I really don't get him.

I think he's got personality disorder problem.

He yells for no reason. 😑😑😑😑

First class was basically an introductory class. Professor Wayne asked us our names and hobbies. There's a saying- " Never judge a book by its cover. "

Professor Charles Wayne is the live example of it. Not only me but also others think the same. We all had the same question. How come this guy became a professor ? 🙃🙃🙃🙃

Hey Rob ( whispering ). Is this the professor you're talking about earlier? Yeah I guess.

I got confused for they sharing the same first name. He's that wierdo. 🙂

Hell seriously !!! Who asks about hobbies now? Are we in elementary school or something ? 😑

Calm down bae. It's okay. He was just trying to know about our interests I think.

Okay forget about him for now. Let's go for lunch.

Aren't you hungry ?

Hungry? I'm starving man. 🤤

Cafeteria or wanna eat out?

Cafeteria. I need to save money. Did you forget that Rob? Nope, I was asking to cheer you up. You're upset that's why. ☹️

Well, I'm not upset. Just a little bit irritated. That's all.

Hey Sus, let's go out for a movie this weekend. What say ? 😏

I'll think about it. Hey c'mon, please 😗😗😗

Amm... Okay. 😊 Yayyyyyy 😁😁😁

You're the best Sus 🙆🏼‍♂️

Rob acts childish sometimes.😄 But I don't mind it. I like his every actions. Now when I think of it, I might be a loner in college too if it weren't for Robin. His friends became friends with me. I mean Eric and Maria and few others. Thanks to Robin. I'm not a loner anymore. I treasure this friendship. I really want this to last forever. ☺️😌

Sus! Sussy !!! What are you thinking about? The food's served. Eat up buddy. Before it gets cold. 😉

Oh yes !

[ The more I see him the more I like him. This is how a true friend might act I guess. 😄 ]

Hey Rob. It's already evening. I must head to my dorm now. My assignment is not finished yet. What !!! Why didn't you tell me earlier? Which point are you stuck in ? Tell me. I'll solve it for you. 😃

It's okay Rob. I've scribbled it already. Just have to copy it in fresh pages. 😄

Oh. Then that won't take long. Phew. 😌

Lemme drop you off at your dorm. Don't say no. Please 😗😗😗

How can I ever say no to you, Rob ?

Sweetie...😉

Hey don't call me that.

Chill bae. 😄😄😄

Robin is very caring. Thinking about my earlier life before coming here. I never had any good friend whom I could talk easily. After I met Rob and others, things started changing. In a better way of course. 😊

Sus, we arrived. I lift up my head and saw through the window. Yeah. You should head to home too Rob. I will. 😉

After bading farewells, I went inside the dorm to my room.

I took a shower. I stood in front of the mirror. Giving close look to myself. Am I really treating myself well? Am I unwell ?

I felt like calling my mom. But within a second, cut the thought out. She won't understand how I feel. It's not like I never tried or hardly did it. It's like I'mma failure to express myself I guess. If I try to talk to her, it ends up me listening to her troubles or getting mad at each other.😩

Whenever I talk to mom about my studies or friends or any other funny stuff, she listens. But when I try to open up or try to tell her about my interests or anything I wanna do, she yells at me saying it would hamper my studies. It really doesn't matter what I want or like to do. 😔

l lied on my bed. Thinking about the past. I was only 11. By that time, I knew about many cruel facts of this world. That made me like this, cold and speechless. I started having problems talking to other people. I had a pretty rough time. But the fact is that I never wanted to give up. I wanted to be strong. I try my best to stay calm and happy.

Now I ask myself, do I treat myself the way I should? I've been neglecting my own thoughts and myself for a long time I see.

Tears filled my eyes. I could see Robin's face all of a sudden. It was blur though. He always keeps telling me to treat myself well.

Sussane listen, you should treat yourself well.

His words are echoing in my ears.

Yes. That's it. I shouldn't be sad. I'll live my life to the fullest. With no regrets. I'm strong enough to handle everything. ☺️

How can I forget what I promised to myself!

I can't let the people close to me and myself down. Oh shit!!!!!

Crap my own thoughts. My assignment is not done yet. I don't wanna be late for tomorrow's class. Also don't wanna hear Robin's lecture.😐😐😐

Better finish it quickly and go to sleep. 😴😴😴