Love You Forever

Xiao Zhan

***

1 year have passed since Yibo and I broke up. I didn't know the reason of our break up but I'm guessing he got bored of me already. We've been together for 6 years and not once did Yibo asked about marriage. When we talk no questions about having to get married is asked. It's like he doesn't care. I feel like I've just been used all those years we've been together. Yibo and I went through a lot of hardships with his Uncle not supporting him for being gay and with me not having any family left.

Yibo was my only family and yet he left me just like my parents did. Maybe I'm just not a likeable or lovable person at all. When Yibo left me I tried finding someone else to be happy with but no one was good enough. Whenever I go to date with different guys I can't help but compare them to Yibo. Yibo might be a cold looking person but he's caring and loving on the inside. He cares about everyone's well being especially mine.

Whenever we would go on dates he would take me somewhere fun, like the amusement park or in a different country. He knows me best and always make sure that I'm okay. I guess the only flaw with Yibo is when he lost interest in things or someone. Back when we were in highschool he loves to play basketball but as time passed by he lost interest at it. It was a very huge loss for the basketball team since Yibo was a very good player. And then when we are in college and he was chosen as the student body president. It hasn't even been half a month when he lost interest and quit.

This was the major issue with Yibo but I don't mind this as long as he loves me but I guess he also got bored with that since he left me. It was our 6 anniversary and I was planning for us to go out but what surprise me was Yibo bringing home a guy. They were both laughing while I was breaking from the inside at what I'm seeing especially when Yibo kiss the guy he was holding. The next day I confronted him asking questions but what he said broke my heart into pieces. With a bored look he broke up with me. He told me that he didn't love me anymore and that I wasn't good enough anymore to be his lover.

We fought after that I left without getting my things. The only I have woth me that time was my phone nd my wallet. Good thing that I save up all the money that Yibo always gives me. It's enough to buy plain tickets and to at least sustain me for a few months. I left China that very same day Yibo and I broke up. I went to Korea and began a new life again. There I found another guy. He's great and more than what Yibo could ever be. Cho Seung-Youn and I met at a bar when I decided to have a drink one time and after our first meeting we began hanging out, getting to know each other until we both fell in love.

Seung-Youn has been a great boyfriend. He's funny, cute, thoughtful, creative, honest, kind and attractive. We've been together for 5 months now and I'm so happy about it. He made me forget about Yibo slowly. Being his boyfriend was great and I found out that the bar I went to was his and his friend Wooseok. Now I've been working with them at the bar. I also knew that Wooseok has a crush on Seung-Youn but he told me that he is already moving on since Seung-Youn got me already. But I still feel bad for him. I just stole his crush but we can't really dictate our heart to choose who we will love or who we will hate.

Everything was going great until I saw him. Wang Yibo walked in so casually like he owns the place. My heart skip a beat and I grew nervous. After pur break up this is the first time I've seen Yibo again and he looks just fine. He's even flirting with girls now. Maybe he wasn't gay after all. Maybe he's just trying, experimenting on me to know how it feels to **** and love a guy. Maybe I was just a toy for him. But what is he doing here in Korea?

I shook my head a couple times before goung back to work. I've been handling the drinks ever since Seung-Youn tought me how. He told me that my drink combination was amazing. It was also the reason why a lot of people come to our bar for a taste of my drinks. While shaking I decided to give the people a show by dancing to the beat of the music. Cheers and claps as well as whistling is all I heard before I bowed at them. I served my drink as Seung-Youn stood beside me.

"That was great dancing hon. But please don't dance to good. I don't want those people enjoying your dancing too much." I giggled before kissing him right as Yibo stood infront of us. He cleared his throat making me and Seung-Youn pull apart. Looking at him now I began remembering those hurtful words he told me. It made my rage come out again. The rage that I've been keeping lock up in me for so long.

"Nice to see you again Zhanzhan. It's only been a year and you've alteady found someone else." He sneered at me while looking so disgusted. I laugh hard at what he said to me.

"Wow at least I got someone else after a year but you. You got yourself someone else when we were still in a relationship so don't give me that disgusted look of yours. At least someone treasures me more than you did." I shouted back at him which earned us a crowd. Seung-Youn wrap his arms around my waist as he tried to pull me out of there but I'm not having it. I want to humiliate Yibo so bad for what he did to me. How he just used me like a fucking toy for his own pleasure.

"Babe what's going on?" Yibo and I both turned towards a girl who looks like a fucking pornstar with her extra short skirt and crop top. She looks slutty as she walk towards Yibo. I gave the girl a disgusted look before looking at Yibo who's now looking at me with an amuse look in his eyes.

"Didn't know your into pornstars now. Such a bad taste you now have." I heard a few people cheering for me which made me smirk. This is gonna be fun. I'm so gonna humiliate Yibo big time.

"Excuse me, but who are you to say that to my baby?" The bitch asked as she clung to Yibo while glaring at me. Her glare is making me want to puke. With her face full of different cosmetics she looks like a clown and to add it all up she's also glaring making her look like a killer clown. Really creepy.

"Me? Well I'm the one this baby of yours dump for different guys who looks nothing like me. They are all second rate as well as you."

"How dare you call me second rate. I'm more beautiful than you." A few 'boos'were heard from the crowd making me laugh hard. She's calling herself beautiful wow talk about confidence. If I were in Yibo's place I would've ran away already. Who would want to bang a girl like her. But knowing Yibo he might do her.

"The crowds speaks for me girl. Try to look at a mirror first before saying such things. Oh maybe you shouldn't... the mirror might break when you see yourself." The crowd laugh along with me as she walked out of the bar. Yibo just stood there doing nothing but looking at me. With a final glare at him I wrap my arms around Seung-Youn's waist and we went upstairs to his office.

"Okay I admit that was hot hon but please don't do it again. I don't like it when others pick a fight with you." I smiled at how caring Seung-Youn can be. It makes me fall for him more but still, a part of my heart still belongs to Yibo and it's hard to take it back. Not when I'm still holding on to all of our sweet memories unable to forget them. It makes me sometimes think that I'm only using Seung-Youn as a rebound to forget Yibo.

"Stop thinking about that guy Zhan. He's not worth it." I kiss Seung-Youn's cheeks as I can see jealousy in hiss eyes. Seung-Youn knew who Yibo was so I was very impressed when he didn't just go to Yibo and just give him a hard punch like he's been saying all the time. I suddenly felt dizzy. Grabbing Seung-Youn's arms I tried to stand straight but my knees gave up on me making me fall on the floor but Seung-Youn was quick to catch me. He was panicking and I can tell from his voice.

"Hon what's wrong. Hey, hon don't close your eyes. Zhan! Zhan!" He kept yelling but my senses are slowly shutting down. With a tired smile I caress Seung-Youn's face before blacking out.

Wang Yibo

***

It has been year now since Zhan nd I broke up. I didn't plan to hurt Zhan so much that he would just leave China without goodbye. But why would he say goodbye to an asshole like me. I've hurt him so much especially with that breakup on our 6th anniversary. It was ally Uncle's fault. Blackmailing me with my parents company. I couldn't do anything about it especially when it's the company my parents work hard with. I went along with his stupid plans and hurt the one I love the most.

When I finally had the guts to tell what's happening Uncle drugged me and made me sleep with another guy in the house where Zhan and I are living together. I'm sure Zhan saw me and the guy kissing. It's also the reason why he questioned me the next morning about it. It wasn't my choice either when I decided to end our relationship. It's just better that way so I won't hurt him more. After our breakup I had some of my people follow him and found out he left China and went to Korea.

I didn't bother going after him, not until I get rid of my stupid Uncle. He's the onw who's ruining my happiness and even though he's the only family I have left since Zhan left me as well I still felt exyremely happy when he passed away 3 months later. It was then that I began contemplating if I should get Zhan back or just leave him be. I also found out about him having a relationship with a guy named Cho Seung-Youn. So I chose to let him be. At least he's happy with him than being with me.

"Yibo what are you dozing off about?" I look at Wang Haoxuan as he walked into my office. His my Uncle's son making him my Cousin. His been the one helping me manage the company. Especially now that I'm heading to Korea to see Zhan. I wanted to have a talk with him nd clear things between us. I wanted to make peace with him and hopefully try to get him back.

"Are you sure you're gonna be fine with me leaving for a weel if not a month?" I asked Haoxuan since this is the first time I'm leaving the company in his hands. I don't even know how long I'll be gone. Maybe a week, a month or more.

"I'll be fine Yibo. Besides I have Jiyang to help me here so don't worry. Now go home, pack your things, and go get your man back." I smiled at him before wd did a bro hug. I fix my things and did as what Haoxuan told me. Head home, pack my things nd go to Korea to get Zhan back though I know that he won't be coming back to me I at least have to try.

......

Entering the his working made me nervous. I don't know what he will do if he saw me. Esecially with a so called date. When I was just getting off my car a girl who looks like a clown kept clinging on to me. She wouldn't let go so I have no choice but to drag her with me inside the bar. Upon entering a lot of girls and boys kept winking at me or showing their curves at me. Some boys ate giving me lustful looks but I just gave them my cold glare.

I then saw Zhan dancing while mixing some drinks for the customers. It made my heart skip a beat as I saw him. He still looks exceptionally beautiful. He still looks the same except he got thinner. He looks lively while dancing but behind those smiles I can see a pained look on his face. He was smiling yet it never reaches his beautiful eyes.

After he finished dancing I began walking towards him. Standing infront of him I didn't know what to say to him. I just stared as he and Seung-Youn shared a kiss. Having enough of their lovey dovey moments I cleared my throat making them both look at me. I was going to asked him if we could talk in private but the next words that came out of my mouth was not what I'm expecting to say at all.

"Nice to see you again Zhanzhan. It's only been a year and you've alteady found someone else." I sneered which made me surprise as hell. I didn't want to fight with Zhan but seeing him with someone else made me mad. He was supposed to be mine and mine alone but now he's not and it's all my fault. I shouldn't even be getting mad at Zhan but at myself for being so stupid. Zhan let out a loud laugh before answering me.

"Wow at least I got someone else after a year but you, you got yourself someone else when we were still in a relationship so don't give me that disgusted look of yours. At least someone treasures me more than you did." Zhan shouted earning us a crowd. Seung-Youn who's behind him wrap his arms around Zhan's waist nd I just wanted to cut off those hands that touch what's mine.

"Babe what's going on?" Zhan and I both turned towards the girl who kept clinging on me earlier. She was looking all seductive and all but only a drunk man would want to sleep with someone like her. She's not even pretty with all those make up on her, she looks more like a clown to me. She doesn't even look sexy at all. I then look at Zhan who's looking at her in disgust. It made me smile in amusement.

"Didn't know your into pornstars now. Such a bad taste you now have." A few people cheered as Zhan said that while the girl looks angry. This is one of the things I love about Zhan. He never backs down from a fight and he's very feisty. It makes him look hot.

"Excuse me, but who are you to say that to my baby?" The girl who I don't even know said as she stood next to me and cling to my arm. She glared at Zhan and it makes me want to puke at her look. If she was already with make up on try it when she's glaring. She looks like a killer clown right now.

"Me? Well I'm the one this baby of yours dump for different guys who looks nothing like me. They are all second rate as well as you." Zhan said sassily. The girl beside me fumed at what Zhan said. Well it was true. The giys I used was nothing like Zhan. Zhan is more feminine looking than them. And those guys are just after money while Zhan isn't. All Zhan cares about is love and not the money.

"How dare you call me second rate. I'm more beautiful than you." A few 'boos' were heard from the crowd as Zhan laugh hard. Even I want to laugh already but I stop myself.

"The crowds speaks for me girl. Try to look at a mirror first before saying such things. Oh maybe you shouldn't... the mirror might break when you see yourself." The crowd laugh along with Zhan. I myself let out a cough to prevent myself from laughing. The girl walked out while I just stood there looking at Zhan who have me a final glare before wrapping his arms around Seung-Youn. The both of them went to the second floor of the bar which I'm guessing is Seung-Youn's office.

With Zhan gone the crowd slowly dispersed leaving me standing infront of an empty chair. I took a sit as a new bartender served me my drink. A few hours passed with me just sitting there doing nothing but watch other people flirt and dance around. I didn't drink much since I'll be driving. I didn't even get a sip of my third drink when Seung-Youn came down carrying Zhan who's passed out. I can tell he's passed out since Seung-Youn was looking panic. He ran out of the bar while I followed them. I quickly went to my car and stopped infront of Seung-Youn who's trying to call a cab.

"Get in." I said and without arguing with me Seung-Youn got in the back and gently placed Zhan's head on his lap. I drove quickly to the nearest hospital. The drive there was really silent but I don't mind. Right now Seung-Youn and I's priority is getting Zhan to the hospital. When we arrived I called a nurse who helped us bring Zhan to the emergency room. We were not allowed to go in so we both took a sit outside waiting.

Wang Yibo

***

What's wrong with Zhanzhan?" I decided to brake the silence between us and asked. I wanted to know what's going on with Zhan. Why he suddenly looks so dead in Seung-Youn's arms earlier. He looks lifeless while Seung-Youn was carrying him.

"Stop calling him Zhanzhan he's not yours anymore Wang Yibo. Also why do you care about him now?" Seung-Youn spat out as he glared at me. I get it he's mad at me but at least he should tell me what's going on with Zhan.

"Don't say that I didn't care about him you don't know anything so stop trying to be a smart *** here and tell me what's wrong with Zhan." I angrily said which made Seung-Youn sigh.

"You won't get anything out of me for I don't know myself. This is the second time Zhan passed out without any reason at all. I thought the first time that maybe he was just tired or having a fever but when he passed out earlier I knew it wasn't a normal thing. He's not okay and I know it but I don't know what's wrong with him. I already asked him a few times but he told me that it's nothing, that his just tired or it's only because of lack of sleep. I didn't believe him since Zhan doesn't know how to lie at all. When he pretends you can easily see through it."

I got amaze with Seung-Youn. He and Zhan have only been in a relationship for a few months but he already knows a lot about Zhan like how his not good at lying at all. Zhan never really likes lying at all. His always honest about everything. And Seung-Youn is right about Zhan being bad at pretending to be okay. When he's not okay he would pretend with a forced smile which I can tell pretty quickly. I was about to asked again when the doctor came. She was sighing a lot and even shaking her head. I suddenly feel like something bad is gonna happen.

"How is he doc?" Seung-Youn asked.

"He's fine. But there is bad news. It seems that he is suffering from Leukemia for a while now and the symptoms aren't even showing yet. The estimated time of how long he has had leukemia is about a year or two now. This is actually deadlier since we only detected it now when it's already been with him for almost 2 years now."

I fell to my knees at what I just heard. Zhan has a leukemia and he nevef even told me at all. With shaking hands I stood up and look at the doctor. I wnted to know more about Zhan's sickness. I can't just stand here seeing Zhan suffer.

"We can still prevent this if only we cn find a bone marrow donor. If not we can only wait till he goes. For now all we can do is treat him using chemotherapy. But the best solution is having a bone marrow donor." I nodded before leaving. Seung-Youn silently followed me. I let him ride with me since I still need to talk to him especially now that Zhan is sick. Instead of trying to hate each other we could at least work together to figure out how to help Zhan.

"What are we gonna do now? How are we gonna find a bone marrow donor?" Seung-Youn asked to particularly no one. With a sigh I look at him. His body is trembling and he looks so lost just like I am. I don't know how to react with all this. But I know that I need to find a donor quick.

"You go take care of your bar while I take care of the bone marrow. I'll also transfer Zhan to one of my private hospital in China there he can get better treatment and my men will be watching over him." I told Seung-Youn about my plan and he didn't even try to oppose to it instead he agreed without saying anything at all.

"Alright and don't think I already like you being close to Zhan, Wang Yibo. Just because we are now working together to save Zhan doesn't mean I like you or already forgave you for what you've done to Zhan."

"What I did to Zhan wasn't my intention. My uncle blackmailed me with the company my parents left to me. He told me that he'll destroy my parents hard work if I didn't leave Zhan. I don't even know why my Uncle hates Zhan." I didn't want to tell Seung-Youn first about the reasons on why I did all that ti Zhan but he left me no choice at all. He doesn't even know the whole story and kept on saying he won't forgive me when it was Zhan who's suppose to say that.

"Even if your Uncle blackmailed you could've at least told Zhan all about it instead of pushing him away and hurting him. Is the company more important to you than Zhan himself?"

"Yes. If I lost that company how else can I give Zhan a better life. 6 years of us being together Zhan never works at all. He likes to just stay home paint or bake sweets. Now tell me how could I give him a better life if I lost the only thing my parents left for me. The company they work hard with using their own blood, sweat and tears. If you were in my position you would've done the same since without the company you won't give Zhan a better life. The company helps you earn a lot of money than a bar so which will you choose. I know that Zhan isn't living well with you even if you have a business in korea.

It's not enough especially since three guys are living in one roof."

I made sure I made a point to Seung-Youn so he could understand what I'm going through. This isn't what I wanted as well. I didn't want to choose the company over Zhan but remembering my promise to my parents made me choose the company. God knows how much I love Zhan to the point of giving my life up to give him a better one.

"I know how you feel since I myself was in your situation once. My mom who's the CEO of our company made me choose between love and money. I chose love and she disowned me leaving me without any money at all. I had to work a lot of jobs to at least get a decent place to stay. That time I regretted choosing love when I don't even have someone I love. And you're right but there is a better way than hurting the one you love. You can always fight against your Uncle. If I were you I would've fought instead of just going along with his plans."

After that the two of us became silent. I guess we ran out of things to say. At sine point he's right but still he already knows how hard it is to earn money so if he was in my shoes he would've really done the same but maybe with a little change in it. I dropped Seung-Youn to his bar while I headed to my house. Yes I have a house here since my company has a branch here in Korea.

I called Haoxuan and asked for his help to look for a bone marrow donor. Days became weeks until it became months. Zhan was already in China while I travel to different places to look for a bone marrow donor. Zhan's life is already counted as his leukemia is at the critical stage already. If we don't find a bone marrow soon it might be too late for Zhan. Zhan hasn't forgiven me nor talked to me yet. But I already told him the whole story on why I did that. I just wish he could forgive me already.