•background

[ I live in a small town... With my dad.... I'm the only child my parents have... But sometimes I wish I wasn't.... My life is as bad as possible... I go to a nearby high school.... It's not that good... I don't get good grades and I get bullied... Yes, I have a few friends but.... They're just... not like true ones... Like the ones I see on TV... My dad doesn't like me at all... He says I'm a disappointment to the family... My mom recently left me and my dad... She married another man and went overseas... My dad hasn't been normal after that.... He's been drinking alot lately. Even tho I go to my part time job at Starbucks, when I come back home he's there. Waiting for me. Waiting to pour all his anger out on me ]

This was written on the first page of Mita's diary, and that was the only page she wrote until it was thrown into the trash.

Mita is a 17-year-old teen. Her life hasn't been all roses and pearls. Instead, it has always been thorns and spikes. Just like she wrote in her diary. Although she's gorgeous and has short silky brown hair, her classmates are pure bullies. She faces a lot of difficulty at school, home, and at work too. So basically she's overwhelmed and depressed everywhere. The teachers talk to her at school about her grades and how her dad doesn't attend parent teacher meetings. The manager at work also taunts her just for her looks and not for her work because her work fellows take the credit for all her work. And she spends only a few hours at home. She doesn't have the energy to prove herself, to tell her story to everyone and open to people about her situation. So she just stays shut and listens to whatever everyone's saying. She doesn't believe in love and hates the word when used by anyone. She never receives love, nor she gives it to anyone. Furthermore, she feels herself like a beautiful bird, trapped in a dark room and unable to fly the way it wants. Not only that, but she has lost her interest in living and now she's just surviving.

•Mita

Another day has started... I don't wanna go to school but.. I guess that's my everyday dialogue.. I get up and get ready for school... I don't actually like school but the only thing I like is the uniform. It's really cute. So I wear everything and wear a tie. Then I make my way to the nearest convenience store to buy a quick breakfast which is a cream bun and a coffee. I'm so glad I didn't see my dad today.

I make my way to school and I soon as I reach the school grounds I see my so called friend walks towards me. "Hey! Mita!" "Hey.." "You know what?! That boy over there just gave me my notebook that I forgot at school yesterday" "huh?" "Yeah! I think he likes me" "oh God. Not this again. He was just being nice that's all. Don't be so-" My friend gets furious and says, "You shouldn't talk like this! You don't even know about love. How would you know." she scoffs and walks away. I'm glad I gave her a reality check , she really needed it.

I go to my classroom and sit there. The boys are so noisy, I wish to just punch them in the face to let them know I'm irritated by them. But I can't , sadly. Anyhow, the first lecture starts and that's when I fall asleep. Sooner or later, I wake up to a lot of noise above my head. The teacher isn't in the classroom. "What the hell is all this noise about?" I get up and look at a certain two students. A boy was confessing his love to a girl. Ew! This is a classroom, not a confession room. This disgusts me so I just leave the classroom.

I make my way to the building exit so I can sit outside on the benches. Everyone's in love these days. Nobody is serious about anything anymore. Just love , love and love that's all. The thought literally disgusts me. I don't even want to think about me being in love.

Just as I'm about to sit on a bench, my chemistry sensei notices me. "Mita! What are you doing here?! You're supposed to be in class right now" "I would be in class if the teacher was there teaching" "Teachers are humans. They can make mistakes and be late." "Well. It wasn't a classroom in their absense so I left. It was a literal confession room in there!" I'm furious and I can't hide it. Sensei just scoffs and leaves. He just doesn't like me at all. Maybe it's because of my grades or maybe he got into a fight with my dad one time. Don't wanna think about it honestly. After a while of sitting and rethinking my life decisions, I get up to walk to my classroom. Hoping to see a teacher instead of another couple just confessing.

I walk to my classroom and stand for a few seconds at the door. As soon as I open it, I'm met with student's intense stares. "Mita! You're late! Go to the council president" "but I-" "no! Not a single word. Leave now". I scoff. I seriously loathe everything about this school (except the uniform obvi). Now I'm walking towards the council room. I remember seeing the council president once or twice. He gives speeches on special occasions. All the girls drool over him, apparently. But he doesn't give a damn. That's how everyone should be. And yet again I stand in front of another door. Not knowing what challenge awaits for me inside.

•The council

Mita goes inside. She sees the council president, Sengoku. "Good day, Mita," He says. Mita replies dryly with a "good day".. " So, what're you here for?" He asks as he gets up from his seat. "Well... I wasn't in class apparently." "Why?" Mita seems irritated at the questions. "Just give me a penalty or something, Sengoku-kun. I'm not in the mood to argue over stuff" after hearing this, Sengoku raises an eyebrow. "Sometimes, students are saying the right thing so, I'm just checking what U have to say. What if you're right and sensei is wrong?" "......" "So? What do U have to say? Why weren't U in class?" He crosses his arms in front of his chest and asks her seriously.

This is the first time someone has asked her an explanation for what she's done. "Two students were confessing to each other. I don't like that kind of stuff. I hate it. So I came out of the classroom. I was about to sit on the bench that Sensei scolded me, so I went to the classroom and the lecturer sensei sent me here." "Uh huh. Not the confession thing again." Sengoku seems quite irritated himself. "What?" "Many students have been confessing. Remember what I said on my last speech?" He asks. "Ummm" She doesn't listen to anyone's speeches at all. "Anyhow, I'll take care of it. You can go to class after this lecture." "So. I'm good?" "Yeah!" He unfolds his arms and starts working on some paperwork. There's a box at the corner of the room. Mita takes a look, and it's filled with love letters. "Whoa" "that's normal." "That's disgusting." "Yep" Sengoku just writes stuff down on a paper, replying to Mita. She looks around for a while, and as the bell rings. "Okay Sengoku-kun I'll be going to class now." "Alright." ...... "Thanks" "it's okay. Have a good day" Sengoku says as Mita leaves the council room. She has never said "thanks" to anyone because she has never felt thankful to anybody. But for the first time when someone listens to your explanation and concludes a result, a "thanks" is a great response.

•Bullies

Mita walks out of the council room.... And a bunch of her classmates spot her. "Mita! hey!" "What do U want?" "Oh why are U acting so rude.. I'm just being friendly" She says in a mocking tone... "Like I care about U being friendly...." Mita rolls her eyes.... The girl asks Mita ,"By the way, what were U doing in the council room? Don't U know this is Sengoku-kun's alone time?" "Well... I didn't go out of free will.. And I don't owe U an explanation" Mita replies as she starts to walk away. The girls hold her by her collar and pull her back. "What the hell?!" "Shut up and listen" they drag Mita into a near classroom. "You go near Sengoku-kun and I clear U out of my way." "What the hell does that mean!? He's the council president! That's whom the students are supposed to go when they have a problem" Mita replies infuriatingly. "Well I know for a fact that You don't have any problem!" She pushes Mita on the floor. Mita grunts and before she can say anything, the girls leave. She gets up slowly, cleans the dirt off of her skirt and walks out of that classroom. What she doesn't notice is that the council's vice president was there watching all of it.

•Mita

Those were my classmates. If U didn't notice by now. She's the biggest simp for Sengoku-kun and he doesn't even give a single care. She's such a yandere. I go to my classroom and sit on my seat. Sooner, I feel a sting on my knee. Turns out, I got a scratch from the wooden floor. But who cares? I don't. A few people tell me to wash it or sanitize it but, I don't care. So after school, I'm walking in the corridors just because Sensei told me to do some extra work and put the important files in the office. I put them on his desk, go out and close the door behind me. As I'm about to exit the floor, I hear a call. "Mita-san" I look back and see the vice president of the council, Emma-san. "Oh hey Emma-san" "Hi... I heard you have the papers sensei gave you?" "Oh, I put them in his office." "You were supposed to give them to the council." "Oh- he said office so I thought his office. I'll go get the papers" I say as we both walk to the office and I hand over the papers to Emma-san. "Thanks a lot Mita-san" "no worries." Just as I'm about to leave, she says "what's that on your knee?" "Oh-" I look down at my scraped knee "its just a scratch don't worry" I reply dryly. Its the 7th time someone has told me about it. "Well, you should take care of it or you'll get an infection" "I know I know. I'll clean it up when I reach my workplace" "well, come with me. I'll take care of it for you" "you don't have to do that, I'll be fine" I reply as I don't wanna go to the council room. I'm kinda running late. "It'll be fine" she grabs my wrist softly and drags me to the council room.