The only moment I can think all to myself.! Jenny Said while looking at the mess she created slightly raising up her left eyebrows while gazing upon an old dairy.

From her reaction you could read she was feeling all emotions at once she had on her face a rather disturbing look that might contradict what ever is going on in her head you can clearly read a face irritated by what she's seeing or rather disgusted

Ugh seriously I need some growing up to do she said softly fixing her gaze on the seascape painting hanged on the wall.

jenny as always been the type that a stranger will look in one glance and think what an odd person most times people misjudge her sense of humor leading to big misunderstandings at times some people decide to stay away due to her nonchalant attitude but deep down she's just a little lost cat who shows opposite emotions when it comes to feelings just like your typical cat would, you know the grabbing you aggressively, the showing of affections with little harmless attack's, the hissing at you to leave them alone  but you know they don't feel so or the one's that follows you everywhere like a lost puppy or the M.E and no  one else between us, yeah a little bit possessive yet understand what personal space meant.

jenny is the type who gives much even though she knows she might not be treated same way, her favorite quote is yeah I understand, it's normal, you're human you have feeling's it might not always be the best, but it's fine even if she's being mistreated in an awful way she took it as a challenge, I'm the reason they are giving me crap there are some things that can't be fixed, I'll grow stronger enough to shut them down, so they'll learn to shut their mouth nd deal with their own business.

And if it's something she should be working on she takes on the challenge to fix things giving room for improvement that has been a goal set, there's another part of her that overthink every situation your one word means a universe of web series, so she's always careful with her words, so she won't receive any harmful response however some sees that as sense of pride, some says people pleaser but what ever, who cares.

Everyone is out adapting, striving for something, pushing for someone or something, everybody says I don't care deep down they care, they care about what ppl think even if they say they don't give a damn they do care about how they're seen from another POV.

Sometimes I wonder what's like to be seen in another person point of view, I'm human I do have felings, I try to understand my feelings by embracing them all to balance each and every part of my feelings, sadness: why do I feel sad even when everything is alright I should be happy why am I feeling opposite emotions, I'm sad because I found myself in embarrassing situations, I felt sad cause unfortunately something bad happened, yeah communicate with it, analyze the cause, reason, reflect, move on that's how to live a balance life.

Happiness; I'm overwhelmed, I feel like I can do anything, I'm too hyped the world feels clear, great.! I feel like I've won a lottery, analyze, reasons, reflect, move on.

You're a human with feelings, yes you have a share of that moment should have been me yes analyze the cause, reason, reflect, move.

Having so much to say, yet you're struggling with how to put word's together to form sentences that's how It felt like reading Jenny's past dairy you could see she was clearly young she was still figuring things out trying to know where she fit in looking back to her past self she was clearly miserable sorry if that word hit you hard, but i think we all at some point can relate.

Damn.! This language isn't even my first language, she said aloud, many misspelled words made it seems raw even though all her life she has always being exposed to this language you could see she pour a lot of feelings into writing clearly she didn't even bother to try to reread it to check if there were some errors it's like, what word is it called again I think.. yeah I think it's called when you're being too emotional.

At home, even in school English was the first means of communication,, although they had their own invented English which almost everyone spoke and could understand because speaking was so much in style.

Everyone has to learn to read and write although at home mom and dad spoke with different language, which is their native language English was mostly what she learnt at school but wasn't the first language she heard, her native language has always been part of her everyone speaks it their accent jenny found that funny not until later on she realized that's just how majority of how her people sounds like, she found that cute:) and unique.

isn't it fascinating how most ppl from the same region their accent makes ppl go ooh he/she from this place. that's kinda unique.

Jenny's Mom always mix both language together while her dad always spoke in his native language bet you're trying to figure which side of part Jenny's from lol sometimes she wonder why she was born there but believe when she says she loves her culture, she embraces her heritage, her country and who ever she choose to be.

guess I'm making things difficult for you, I know but let make it a puzzle, hold on to that thought and try to guess where Jenny's from :) now let go of that thought:) because it doesn't really matter.

Can't remember when jenny start keeping dairy all she could remember was, she was a little kid with so many questions, she couldn't put much into words, couldn't bring herself to ask many questions for the fear of being a burden or being too much the only thing she could do was write it down to be sincere that felt much better, more secured, more like she had a close friend she could really trust and wouldn't snitch on her.

she still made this joke till date "think I realized what trust means too early than I should have" she always tells her mom maybe she had too many bad energy in her past life that's why she has so much trust issues in this life because she's quick to say "trust no one", easily dream of the worst that could happen, easily accept oh I knew that one day this too will come to an end that made her much of a poker face cause damn she always appears mean because of her reaction to some certain things were expected even at some point unintentionally treated her mom same way yeah yeah I know what you're thinking "unintentionally" but knows it… yeah! she does because she is an overthinker and at the end of her day she always reviews herself, things she had done and said whenever she's reviewing she put herself in second party position and realize oh my response was quite mean, my reaction was off, I shouldn't have done things that way maybe next time I should have done things this way, there are multiple ways I could have solved that problem then she tells herself never to repeat same mistakes again.

yup she isn't much of a fun person she get that alot. Don't be too serious with your life, try smiling a bit, learn to enjoy the moment bla bla bla.